Bad Feelings
A kiss

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Something I didn't want finally came to the surface. I hate this, but how else? I had to endure it because this was my own path of choice. I have fallen and fallen almost to the bottom of the abyss, will I go up and come back to the surface to avoid this difficult situation? Will he allow it?

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After my confession to my best friend. At least now I feel no longer guilty, let alone having to make various excuses again when he can not accompany her to go wherever she wants as before. For the reason, of course Jojo asked me out on a date.

"You are, if you do anything else like yesterday come to the cafe and make me explain what happened to my best friend. I'll accept Nick's offer" I threatened him.

I just don't like him too much at will without caring about my feelings that aren't ready to explain the truth about him. Even though I don't know how much longer it will take.

Jojo sighs. "Well, if it's not. Brother can't take it. Anyway I refuse, anyway...."

Our guests heard a rumor from some of the students and students on campus. "It's cheap that woman. He could be dating someone younger than him. Maybe he's a pedophile. Disgusting, that guy wants to be with aunty. Maybe he got money from aunts" they said alternately while showing their cellphones. Our heads automatically turned to the origin of the gossip sound.

They read gossip from one of the groups on campus who posted the title 'Tante can brondong' there is also a discussion forum there. Jojo came to open the group post. Although he did not mention the name of the couple. Jojo understood the meaning of the author is we by looking at the name of the author. AY. The initials of Alya's pen name in class.

I understand that writing too. "Look at it" my countenance immediately turned sad, after reading and hearing the news. I try to look good in front of him.

Jojo's previously hardened jaw is now slightly softened by sharing his smile for me. "What's this brother? It's not us. There are not many like that now. Brother see on tv, there is news of young men marrying grandmothers. Lots of guys, out there. Don't be so serious. Come with me" He took my hand. Take me somewhere.

Our feet both down the path in the campus area which on the right-hand side there is a green mini plant with small leaves and round shape. I don't know what plant it is. What is clear is that this plant is often found in many places in the garden area. After a few minutes we finally stepped Jojo stopped his footsteps on the roof of the campus art building. "What's it for here?" many wonder.

"Don't like anime?" tanyanya while tilting her head. This kid doesn't usually do this ridiculous thing. She was like the little dog doll she had given me on our 7-day date. I don't know, he always surprises me on days that I don't think are so special but for him it's a very special day.

"Why are you asking that?" alisku.

"I want to draw my brother as one of the anime's characters" his index finger raised his glasses slightly sagging from his nose. While looking at me seriously.

"Tsk...can you draw?" underestimated ability. Yes, even if I don't know, he's talented or not. All I know is that he's just a basketball hobby, playing games, reading comics and likes things that smell Japanese. And usually people who like such things are born an artist and a little bit like to draw.

"Don't underestimate me. Look at the results first" he invited me to sit in a corner of a shady place and a little hidden from the others. He then took out his book and a black marker. "So, no, I'm going to draw you as an anime"

I smiled, a little flattered to be used as a model of the picture. "Well, okay" I said, according to him, and took a comfortable seat leaning against the wall.

Behind his glasses, I could see the serious glare of Jonathan's eyes. He was so serious about scratching every line. I remember Jack in the movie Titanic when I painted Rose. My brain must be completely insane to think of Jojo as Jack and me, his Rose. Amusingly.

"So seriously you're Jonathan Christiano" I said, acting like Rose while interrupting Jack's concentration.

"Ish...tumben this boyfriend of mine called my full name?" Jojo paused for a moment with his painting looking at me seriously. Moreover, a smile on his lips that hides an intent.

"Can't I just say it?" my many.

"Of course I can. Want to call nae Namphyeon also can" he said that makes me not believe to hear it.

"Well, this brother, don't speak that strange language. I just followed my sister's words back then. I only learned that one word from Olive" to be honest. Unexpectedly he learned it also from his sister who apparently likes Korea and Japan as well.

Olive is his little sister. Now he is in 2nd grade High School and his body is towering like Jojo. If no one knew they were both brother and sister, surely they would think they were both lovers if the two walked together. I used to be jealous of them, because I was the first kid maybe. And I once wanted an older brother and unfortunately I don't have one.

After a few minutes. "Done" he said proud of his artwork.

"Are you right to draw me or draw me?" I commented as I approached her who was sitting not far from me.

Seeing the picture made me feel glued. The figure of the girl in the picture has long hair like mine, wears a long-sleeved shirt and is sitting cross-legged like me. And what fascinated me was the flower ornament on the girl's head and the scenery around her made me smile involuntarily.

"Sister likes it?"

"Why are there so many bees and frogs? It's completely out of context" I commented.

"I'm just a gossip or people who don't like our relationships, like bees and frogs that are so noisy out there but the princess still sits sweetly enjoying ice cream in her hands with a loyal little mouse accompanying her" he explained at length.

"So this rat is you?" I said pointing at the mouse next to the girl in the picture.

He nodded. "Eum.he's a prince cursed to be a mouse by an evil witch"

I smiled at his far-fetched explanation. His imagination is incredible. It is fitting that he prefers psychology, maybe he will become a great psyche later, as long as he is not the one who suddenly crazes because his imagination is too extraordinary.

"Okey, I got this picture. Thank you" I smiled at the sheet of paper in my grasp.

"That's all?" he said he didn't believe the reply I gave him.

"What do you want? Let's go back.I still have another lecture" I started to stand up and move from that place.

Jojo sulking. "Sister, why did you just say that?"

"Otherwise? I didn't tell you to draw me anyway, did I?" my protest.

"Ish.no exclaims" he said scowling. I just smiled looking at her child-like behavior. She's my funny boyfriend.

Jojo opened the attic door. "Jo" call me. He looks. His lips are still cute, his head also looks lazy to look up, although still he looks at me. Maybe he was too disappointed with the reply I gave him.

I walked up to him. I stretched out my finger, pulled his collar and gave him a kiss. "Thank you" said I who then chose to leave immediately. He actually ran away after committing a crime.

Is my action childish? Shouldn't I have done it? Why did I kiss her like that? What if he thinks I'm cheap? What if I meet him later? How will I explain it to her later? She's in such shock? What am I supposed to do?"

Several lines of questions instantly popped up one by one in my brain. Oh my God, am I wrong? My cheapness?