Bad Feelings
What should I do

Small problems will start to arise when you start with doubt and fear. It shouldn't have been such a disturbing feeling in my heart, when the loyal one beside me was really protecting me regardless of anything else around him, except me.

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"Shallom.." a greeting that I inevitably have to greet with a sweet smile and Shallom's speech. We both shook hands. Samuel looked at me with eyes full of hospitality. My God, this is the thing I've been waiting for so close to Samuel and how sad it can be to get this close to him but there's someone standing next to me.

"Shallom" said Samuel greeting Jojo and Jojo greeting him with the same greeting and shaking his hand in a friendly manner.

We both entered the church and looked for a seat slightly ahead, although we had to end up sitting next to the mothers and fathers. I just wanted to avoid the row of seats in the back that are usually occupied by young men my age, who are obviously my church friends. Fortunately they haven't come yet.

"Sister would rather sit in front huh?" tanyanya.

"No, just wanted to" I said lazily.

Eyebrows. "Sister doesn't want to get questions from brother's friends? Shame to church with me?" jojo said that one hundred percent right and right on target.

Inevitably my eyes that wanted to focus forward were now looking towards him. "Why should I be ashamed?" the words that came out of my mouth sounded like I had been caught hiding something.

"Sister finally saw me. The older brother from earlier focused all over the place, looking back and forth without noticing me standing beside you. He also looked disappointed when he entered the church. Is there anyone you like up front?" tanyanya. His face was now full of seriousness.

"What are you talking about? Focus ahead" the speaker aside.

"Sister diverted the conversation again. I better not come" Jojo blurted his lips, his face showing great disappointment. I think this kid sees too many soap operas or anime full of drama. Does it have to be this extreme on her face?

"You are, never mind. Now that I've been sitting next to you, if you still don't accept yes we've ended up here. Wouldn't it be better, so you don't have to feel sad like this" I said, unable to deal with Jojo's whining and I don't know why this heart was really angry because of it. My egoism.

"Aren't we so easy to end our relationship? Didn't I say I wanted to break up? I'm here to formalize our relationship in front of God" he said still with a look on his face.

My mouth was gaping at Jojo's words that sounded to me a crazy joke. I don't have to think seriously about what he said, do I? Unknowingly an incredulous smile was painted on my face. "Aaa..really? Do you dare say you have a relationship with me to your parents?"

Jojo stunned. My words were like lightning to him. He likes to confess to dating me, but he never offended his family, because I'm sure his parents wouldn't let that happen. "That's why I took my sister to church together first. If God permits, it will be easier to get permission from my parents. Olive also knows" he said.

"You better not expect too much. Just enjoy what you're doing right now, don't think too far" again I let out my pessimistic words. Jonathan's face looked gloomy at my words. "Honestly, I never expected you to come here with me. The man in front, Samuel. He's the one I like in church. I don't want to be seen with anyone else in front of him. Although I know there may not be any influence on him. It's just, I want her to see me as a single woman. I'm sorry if I'm being too selfish" I said honestly. I just don't want to hide anything from him.

"Maybe the selfish me never thought of brother's wishes, I just followed what I felt was right. I'm sorry, I pushed my will too much" he said with slight regret.

"So, shall we please?" many ensure.

"Who said? It won't. I told you I wouldn't let go of sister no matter what?" he clasped my fingers tightly.

"If you break up again, I rape you right now" he threatened me. I suddenly had my head hard. He complained of pain. "Why hit me?" whining.

"It's the church, talkin' again I have someone throw you out right now" I cried sharply. This brat, can't what control his mouth speak right?

"Ish. This brother, this is torture. Violence in dating"

"Who told you to talk. Don't be noisy again start"

He's still stroking his head that was hit by me. Is that as hard as I am? My knuckles still feel pain too. It's okay, who told him to skip. Let's know the taste.

"You guys, why fight in the church? Not okay. You too, should be a gentle wife-to-be instead of being rude like that. What if your future husband goes?" I got scolded by the gentlemen next to Jojo, apes.

"Oh.he's not a candidate." I'd be evasive but who else would take advantage of a situation like this, if not Jojo.

"Yes, the wife-to-be should be gentle" he said, wrapping his arm around my shoulder and stroking my head. He really took advantage of the situation. God fucking.

"Put your hand away or I'll break it?" Jojo grinned, inevitably he raised his arm and stepped away from my shoulder. He knows that my strength is equal to the strength of a man if I want to and not be cornered. He once saw me lift a large tree trunk when blocking the road.

The story was that it was raining, Jojo drove me home from work. When on the road there was a tree trunk down in the middle of the road. Instantly I got off the bike and lifted the 30 centi diameter tree trunk to the side of the road. In order that, there is no more trouble. Jojo just gaped at me. He who originally wanted to help was even fixated with the strength I had. Cool right? Or creepy?

When the service is over. Someone came up to me with a curious face and a smile full of the aura of love. Oh, my God, I'm going crazy. "You're Rya, right?" said someone who immediately stunned me not to move a bit. "Said Theresia, you're my fan huh?" Oh My God should I say yes? If I say no, it's in church, I can't lie. But, someone is standing next to me right now. Despite looking younger than her, she is my current lover. If I say yes, how will Jojo feel.

I saw Jojo beside me, somehow I wanted him to help me answer the question Samuel asked me. Jojo smiled before answering Sam's question. "Yes, he's a fan of yours. He loves your spirit on stage. Introduce me Jonathan his girlfriend, I'm a little jealous of you" she said, which instantly left Sam and I open in disbelief.

"Ah...are you her boyfriend? It's nice to meet you. I'm Samuel" they both shook hands.

"Eum.ko'Sam, please forgive us first yes" said the person who pulled Jojo's arm to get out of the church building immediately.

But the voice of someone made our footsteps both stop. "You guys dating?" at once my lips were unable to answer that question. How not? My mother and sister heard our conversation just now. My eyes were round wide hearing the question. Moreover, the position of my hand that is struggling to pull Jojo's arm. You could say we were caught. Oh my God, what am I supposed to do?

"Eum.that's..."

What is the fate of our next relationship? Only God and my mother's decision will decide.

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