Bad Feelings
What's Happen

Suratan destiny says otherwise, maybe it's our fault that we started something that shouldn't have happened. This incident may be a lesson so that we do not have to dare to oppose the destiny of life. But why is this reply more cruel than I thought??

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A month after the incident at the bus stop, I no longer met Jonathan, nor did I ever set foot in Jojo's class. Because I chose to quit as Nick's assistant lecturer because I wanted to focus more on completing my script. Why am I so quick to thesis? Because I'm a cross-track student, it takes a lot faster to finish college than regular students.

Now I am sitting in the pavilion where students gather, wait or just sit and chat, collecting materials to compose my script. Compiling the thesis takes a lot of time, especially if I also have to work in the afternoon. I also need to work on weekends to supplement my income. Because according to the news, the cost of the exam and graduation was very large, so I had to collect it from now on let alone the cost to compile the thesis this time, quite draining my savings. I can't possibly ask my parents to help me pay for my college, right? I don't want to trouble him. So inevitably, I have to extra save my expenses.

A call made me take my eyes off the pile of papers in front of me. Nick, the handsome lecturer who is still with his charm. Every student was immediately flabbergasted when he saw it. He walked towards me and I unconsciously smiled at him. I fixed my glasses slightly down from my nose. "Rya" call him again.

I showed her a sweet smile after she got in front of me. But surprisingly Nick's face is not as bright as usual. He looked surprised even. I don't know what made his face look this messy. "What's wrong? Do you seem to be in a bad condition? Your face why is this you lecturer? Is there a student bothering you again? Why don't you date one of them?" tease her.

It was not that he responded to my temptation with a smiling face, his eyes hinting at the language I was hard at with my brain. "Look at this" he poked at me a piece of paper. Jonathan's name is there. But after I read the rest. Instantly made my eyeballs round and my body froze for a moment. "Do you know about this?" added again.

"Why, why can't I." a few words that were able to come out of my frozen lips earlier. My eyes were still in disbelief reading the resignation letter in my hands. I read it again and again until I memorized it word for word written there.

I looked at Nick questioningly. "You also just found out?”. I'm stupid why I just found out about this and just found out today from Nick. If Nick hadn't told me about this, then I'd be the only fool who wouldn't have known Jonathan. ”Said Mr. Tonny department of department office, a week ago Jonathan's mother came there and submitted the resignation letter and only today they took the file" he explained according to the information he received and he told me immediately after he got the news.

Maybe this time I look like a dazed person who clearly does not understand what to say, because indeed I do not know anything about this. "What actually happened? Why did he resign? He said he would go to college and get a college degree. Then what is this? What really happened" I asked not to believe what I was reading. I didn't even think this would happen. My eyes began to fade with sadness.

Nick's brows furrowed into a wave that rarely happened unless he was completely dizzy. "Is it because he's sick?" nick is still standing in front of me. "I heard that a week earlier, Jonathan had an accident and had to be hospitalized but then I got this from the department office. I think you know" Nick looks a little guilty because he told me this.

Hearing Jonathan crash as soon as my heart slipped and tears welled up just now fell. I think something is missing. Jesus, what happened to Jonathan? Why am I so stupid that something as important as this doesn't know. How can I be someone she has ever loved, and something like this I don't know? "Accident? How could I not know something like this?” my many. Could it be that I was so stupid as to never know what happened to Jonathan or maybe I was too busy and too eager to erase him from my memory? Wouldn't this be better, so I wouldn't have the selfish feeling of having it again? But why did hearing anything related to him instantly make me feel a sense of loss? Is this what we call selfishness? Selfishness still has it. Idiotically.

I ran with all my might. My brain flashed bad thoughts about Jojo. I think he fell into a coma after an accident, one part of his body was gone or he was paralyzed forever or even worse than that. I hope what I have in mind is not really happening. Oh God.

Fortunately fate was still kind to me, I was still allowed to see Jojo's mother in the parking lot and I saw Olive was there too. Their faces look very grim. Approach them. Without caring about Mother Jonathan's attitude who was most likely still angry with me.

I stopped my footsteps in front of their bike. "Sister Rya? Brother is in college here too" said Olive shocked to see my arrival. The woman beside him stiffened upon seeing my arrival. I lowered my face and looked at Olive. Obviously this is the response I will receive if I dare to meet him again. But I don't care, the most important thing right now is to ask Jonathan and find out why Jonathan chose to resign from campus.

"Iya” sahutku lirih. Taking aside the attitude that Jonathan's mother would show, I asked Olive about Jonathan's condition. ”What happened? Why should Jojo resign? What the hell is going on? What made Jojo resign? She's okay, right?" my pedicabs.

"It's none of your business" Jonathan's mother replied coldly. Obviously from his tone he still hates me who has made this mother and child relationship a little tenuous.

Olive mediated us both. This girl is indeed good, Jonathan's sister who really understands the feelings of her brother. He used to be the reason for Jonathan when Jonathan went on a date with me, when I took him on a picnic yesterday, he was also the first person to approve of our relationship.

"Ma, is mom still acting like this after what happened to Jojo's sister?" Olive protested the attitude of the mother who was still too cold to me. The woman beside him fell silent and chose to put on a helmet and prepare to go home. He seemed to not care if I was asking the condition of his son.

Olive looked at her mother resigned, because this was the nature of the mother, hard. He only thinks about the best for his son's future. If it is not according to his will, he will ignore it or oppose it. Like my relationship with Jonathan. He considers this relationship that opposes the nature of Adam and Eve should not be continued. And many people out there are also the same, violating the nature of Adam and Eve. This relationship is wrong and will never work in the future.

“Kak Rya's..” Olive wanted to say something but her mother cut her off.

"If you want to see him, meet him at home" he said, instantly leaving my lips gaping in disbelief, as he allowed me to see Jonathan.

I looked at the smiling Olive who didn't believe me.