Bad Feelings
In Your Deep Heart's

I shouldn't have done it if I had felt this pain in the end, too. Maybe all I need right now is a smile that can treat all my sadness and what I do now is not far from hurting you and hurting me myself. What am I supposed to do, should I do other fools that will hurt both of us or should I give up and do things that will surely be a lot of hindrance later?

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After enjoying a meal with Nick, we parted ways. I chose to go secluded in one of the pavilions close to my class later. I took out my binder, tried to focus on preparing for the course test later.

"Lu why bro? Your face anyep so? Not usually?" said someone who instantly turned my gaze from the binder in my hand towards the three men sitting on the other side of the pavilion from me. Their voices interfere with my henna time. I want to throw them with this binder book I brought. So that they may go and get out of my henry. I don't like the noise when I'm focused on learning. Actually it's not their fault either, this is a common theme anyone can chat in that place, but still, they disturb me who wants to focus on learning.

"Have her heart broken bro? What child is emang? Beautiful isn't? Curious I'm the same girl" said the other guy. I ignored them and was still trying to read word for word from the notes in my book.

I was upset that their voices were bothering me again. It's good that they managed to get my attention on him. Kuhela breathing resigned. The man in question only let out a frustrated sigh, but I could not see the look of his frustration because he was sitting behind me unlike his friend standing in front of him, who I could immediately see how they looked. I chose to refocus on my notes. I have to memorize this course because the lecturer usually gives very detailed questions.

"Our parents don't agree with our relationship, do we have to break up?" when I heard that voice, my eyes glared. I knew that voice, I turned my head. The man who was behind me now faced to the side and I recognized him. Jonathan Christiano's. My head returned to its original position behind him, yet I tried to focus on the talk of the three of them now and ignored my notes. Stupid me.

"What's? Just because of that, your face so anyep gini? Stay business lu dong.tintukin to ortu lu equally ortu tuh gals, how your struggle. That's when you give it up, bro?" one of his friends gave him wise advice.

"That's the problem, the girl asked to break up. He said that I was a selfish little boy" Jonathan said the thing I had told him. Maybe this time my words really offended him. I feel a little guilty hearing that.

The man to his left patted Jonathan on the shoulder intending to comfort him. "Whoops? Apes amur lu?" sahut another man.

The man on the right I think has more sensitive feelings than the other one. "Yes, don't break up. First of all you should get your girl's heart again. Keep knowing him to your order and get their permission, then you try dapetin blessing ortu. Why aren't you approved?"

"Because of age" Jonathan immediately answered his question.

"Eh busyet...only age doang? What's the problem?"

"The problem is our age is different from 9 years" he replied weakly. He was able to make sure his friends would be surprised by his statement.

"What the.mad lu. You like boys?" he was uncontrollable until everyone turned their eyes to them.

"Not a boy"

"Certainly? Don't tell me you like it the same..."

"Yes, that's why no one gives me my blessing" Jojo sighed in frustration.

"Eum. If that's the case, you've just gone to find a girl who's the same age" said his friend who has curly hair. I stole a glance at them while covering part of my face with a binder book.

"If you really love a girl, chase her and take her heart, if your love is strong then the wall of obstacles will collapse by itself" said the man whose hair is cut ala-ala anime, harajuku.

"How?"

"Well, a pinter guy like you can't bend your girl's heart anyway?" he hit Jonathan's arm.

"The problem is, girls are not as easy as girls that I can afford to replace. He is unique but interesting. She's a strong girl unlike any other girl. He looked like he didn't need to be taken care of but actually his heart was fragile. He's funny too. Unlike her age, she would act silly if I made her angry. His mind is too innocent but actually he knows to protect himself from my actions. Hufth.I was confused" hearing his words just now, as if my tears were about to fall. Kutepis this taste. A sense of where I'm going to be a fool again and fall in love with her expecting something impossible to happen.

"So curious I'm the same girl you are" said the man of harajuku's hair.

I chose to leave the place immediately to enter the classroom because the clock had already shown at one o'clock. I put my binders in and get the hell out of there. I'd better get out of here before he realizes where I am now. Put the feet fast. But a hand suddenly pulled me and made my body turn around and hit the body of the person who pulled me because the pull was too strong. My eyes were round, my heart was beating fast, shocked at the spontaneous action.

"Please don't go" my consciousness recovered knowing it was Jonathan. My eyes blinked a few times, I pushed his body. But he tightened his embrace on me.

"Take me off. Everyone is looking at us" I said as I watched Jojo's two friends and the people around the pavilion look at us.

"I don't care. I'm gonna let you go, if you want me back" Jonathan threatened me.

"Jo, we can't turn it back. Lepasin, I want to go to college" my insistence thrashed out of his embrace.

"No. I told you I would never let go brother and sister also promised me I would not leave me until I asked myself. So we're reversing?" said forcing me.

"Jo, this.." I tried to get away from him.

"I don't want to break up, I'll do anything to get my blessing. But please don't stay alone. I can go crazy if you keep moving away from me" she exclaimed, I heard her voice tremble, her breath was like someone was holding back her cries. Then he buried his head against my neck. Little wet. Something dripped and followed the sound of a sobbing.

"Jo, you.stop. It's in public. If you're like this.it's embarrassing and lag..mmph" Jojo's lips quickly landed on my lips. God, I can't get carried away with her. But this is what I miss. It's been almost two weeks that I haven't had this very soothing hug on my soul and lips. Oh my God, I'm going crazy. I pushed Jojo's body. Our kisses suddenly came off. I was wrong because I was a little carried away.

"Eum.enough. I have to go to college" said I, who then left. Stupid me, I walked up to stumble over my own shoes fortunately I didn't fall. I saw Jojo who almost ran towards me thinking I was going to fall. The grin I didn't feel I was pointing at him. Shame, that's how I feel right now. I saw Jojo smiling at me who was walking away leaving him and his two friends immediately approached him. Maybe they'll ask about what happened between us.

Do you think that Jojo and I are turning it back now? Answer yes. I can't afford to lie anymore I love it and I don't want us to get hurt again. Her smile healed the wound I had been through all this time. I have a bad feeling about this and I think something bad will come our way.

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