Bad Feelings
My Failed First Kiss

"Jojo" the heavy voice of the middle-aged woman called out to the boy beside me. He looks. My head followed the origin of the sound. "What are you doing?" ask the woman.

"Mama" Jonathan said as he got to know the owner of the voice.

My eyes once I look at him, I push Jojo's body away from me and try my hardest to stand with my legs still painful. Good thing Jojo didn't protest I pushed him away from me.

The brown eyeball looked at me from top to bottom before looking at his son. "Kog holds her brother, what's the matter?" ask the woman in wonder.

"Nolongin ma, earlier his brother could not walk, abis fell him" he explained without caring about the view of his mother who was a little intimidating me.

I put a smile on the woman hoping she doesn't have any thoughts. I'm an innocent child who can't possibly plunge your child, after all, it's not me who forced this to happen but your own child who forced, I cried out in my heart.

"Why did kog fall?" ask the woman to look at me. Not yet had my lips opened, Jojo already answered the question of the mother.

"Abis lift-lift cardboard ma. Mama kog hasn't come home yet?" he walked closer to his mother. There was a sense of relief as the boy approached his mother. I'd better get out of a situation like this.

"Have you not come home yet?" he hit his favorite child's arm slowly, clearly visible from his gaze that was so worried about his eldest son.

"I'll come home, ma, want to nemenin kak Rya first" immediately my eyeballs round almost out hearing the words that came out of Jojo's mouth.

"You just go home there, don't need to be cemented either" I kicked out. I don't want his parents to think of me as a kid's aunt. Please don't complicate my situation, boy, I screamed in my heart.

"No papa, will I go home later?" she asked her mother for permission and damn why she was allowed.

The woman smiled, as if she believed in her son. "Byeah, as long as it is not strange" he said reminded.

"Oh mama, you don't know what young people are expecting now?" sahutya. This kid can't do anything don't joke with the old man.

"Jo, you don't bother her brother. You are still small" he said.

"This mama, already this high is said to be still small. I know what is good and what is not. Besides I've been big ma, can choose who and who's the same friend"

"Yes if that's mama tau and mama too..."

"Yes yes dear mama, it's already home by noon, pity mom wait at home" Jojo pushed the woman's body turned to leave the place immediately.

I chose to enter the perpus alone, but suddenly someone lifted my body. My eyeballs almost came out to find my body lifted bridal style entered the perpus office by Jojo. "You're what the hell Jo is, didn't you go down?" I kept struggling to get down, but Jojo still carried me to my desk.

"Yes he was brought down" he said without sin.

"Whether you're wearing an all-round show, am I a kid?" angry protests.

"Yes, her brother is funny as a child even though he is no longer a child"

"What is her brother afraid of being branded? Dating at work or aunty-tante-gyrass who is with a small child?" it's without hiding the truth.

His words are on target. "I don't want anyone else to be negative. There you go home, I can go home by myself. My legs are better. So.." Suddenly a kiss I got, which instantly made me freeze on the spot.

"If you're any more chatty, I'm going to slide next to you" he said, which I can tell you right away that he's going to kiss my lips. His eyes intimidated me. Somehow my guts shrieked in front of him when I was much older than him. His lips were pulled upwards forming a smile.

"Sorry brother, I'm lying" my forehead shriveled at his strange-sounding words in my ears. Suddenly he pulled my neck and kissed my lips. My eyeballs instantly widened, finding conditions like this. My first kiss was taken by this snot boy. Though I wanted a handsome prince who would become my husband who got it but the boy took it.

I pushed her body until our kiss came off. "You?" I rubbed my lips with the back of my hand. It felt like getting angry but the foreign kiss was why it made my heart jump up and down in excitement. I admit I have a little taste for her, but I wish it was just a sister's taste to her sister. Not another taste.

"Well, why is this brother wiped?" shouting protests.

"You, yeah, shouldn't be teaching that" my siss was upset. I don't want to scream because I don't want anyone else to hear and cause a riot. But his attitude I cannot let.

"What was your first kiss?" his words made me silent. "really?" his eyes sparkled with pleasure.

"Better, I'm home" I hurried to walk to clean my desk.

"Fortunately myself, did it just now" he said with a triumphant smile.

He managed to get what he wanted. I'm stupid why being so careless is that easy. I turned off the computer, turned off the AC, turned off some of the lights, but the boy had not gone out or moved out of his place. I stared at him before the last light I turned off, he smiled and ruffled his waist, conceited. My eyeballs are spinning, puffed up.

When the last light goes out, a hug from behind I get. Shit I'm locked up, "i like this position" his breathing spreads all over my neck. Shit, this is my sensitive part. My shoulders shudder amusedly.

"Jo freelin" I asked as she pushed her body away from me with both of my elbows.

"Not before I got what I wanted" Jo's lips stuck to my neck and then gave me a kiss and some ownership marks.

"Jojo..aaa.." I cried in pain. It felt like he bit my neck and sucked my blood out. God fucking.

"Silver yells or sighs" she teased at me, she seemed content to tease me.

Damn, this kid really. Please, whoever stops his behavior. But on the other hand I also don't want someone to catch both of us wet. What would happen if someone else found us in a position like this? This kid, what exactly did he just see? Why is he like this? He's usually a nice and funny kid. I tried to get rid of him and avoid his kisses that hit me.

"Please stop Jo, this is enough" I said. I'm like a rape victim whose shit I can't scream out of fear. Afraid of my fate and Jojo's fate if I yell, people will blame him and bring the matter to the legal track. I don't want to traumatize this kid. But I don't want him to do this to me either. God help me.

"Mbak Rya" a voice called out to me from outside the door.

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