Sincerity (Guineness of Heart)
Get Nevan and Alish.

At the moment Fariz is still in the hospital, he is accompanying Alish who was sober a few hours ago, Nevan went out for dinner, aaric has been coming home to Nevan since it was getting dark.

"Riz," called Alish in a weak voice.

"What's up, Ma? Does Mama want anything?" asked Nevan who started getting up from the sofa she was sitting on.

"Last noon Cindy called Mama, she said she wanted you to hurry up your marriage, "" said Alish, smiling at Fariz, who was standing next to the bed where she was lying.

"So, did you faint because of that problem?" asked Fariz looking at Alish seriously.

"Mama fainted not because of that, at this time mama is not young anymore, experiencing such disorders, it is common for elderly people like this mama," said Alish smiling.

Fariz looked at Alish intensely, though Alish denied what he said earlier, but Fariz's little heart said that the woman who had given him affection, she was little, until it was like that because it thought of him.

"But, Son. Can you follow my mother's request once again, mama just wants to see you get married, have a home life." Alish looked at Fariz with her eyes.

"Mama know, maybe this is too imposing a will, but your age as Cindy is ripe for marriage, even having children, by seeing you are married, it can make mama calm, it can make you calm, even though your age will not be long anymore" continued Alish again.

Fariz just pecked in place, his voice stuck in the esophagus, his heart felt tight as if squeezed by a very large object, so he felt even to breathe was difficult.

Whether he can avoid the discussion, can he leave without having to give an answer, from the woman's speech.

"But, A—"

"Why don't you just agree with your Mama's wishes, Riz. Didn't you and Cindy know enough, you've known more than a year, it's not a short time."

Nevan, who was already in the room, cut off Fariz's words, without letting Fariz finish.

He walked closer to the bed, when he was at the side of the bed, he then looked at Fariz who was also looking at him sadly.

"You know this may sound selfish to you, but Papa can't see your Mama like that anymore, even though she's not telling you the truth, but Papa's sure you know, one of the reasons your Mama is like this is because she always thinks about you and your life" Nevan said with a straight look in Fariz's eyes.

"Don't we never ask you for anything, we just want what's best for you."

"So Papa please, same you Riz, please this time you follow what your Mama always wanted, make her happy and calm, accelerate your marriage and Cindy," continued Nevan again, even now the man had clenched his hands begging Fariz to follow his wish.

Fariz looked at Alish and Nevan alternately, he was eager to say if he had no feelings at all for Cindy.

The woman he loves is Ami, Ami is not Cindy, but unfortunately, she can't help saying that, she doesn't want to make her mammary health worse.

"Why are you silent Riz, you agree, right if your wedding is held next month," Nevan said firmly.

Implied tone that did not want to be denied from his speech, seeing that, Fariz just resigned, would not be useless, if he denied again.

"Why should it be that fast, we have not prepared anything" said Alish who was a little surprised when he heard the words of her husband.

"Alright, I will be healthy soon so that I can take care of Fariz's wedding matters" Alish said with a big smile.

Alish then turned his head back towards Fariz who was still rooted in his place and again asked, "You agree, don't you think Riz?"

Fariz, who had lowered his head, thinking about his fate that somehow, began to raise his face again and tried to put on a smile, albeit with great difficulty.

"Fariz agreed" said Fariz, who felt his chest rumble as he said that.

"Good, means according to what your Papa said, next month is your wedding," said Alish, who was answered only by a weak nod by Fariz.

"Yes, if so, now you should go home first, it's late" Nevan said.

Fariz nodded his head again and left, leaving his adoptive parents without saying goodbye, Nevan and Alish understood Fariz's attitude, believing that Fariz would eventually accept Cindy with all his heart.

Nevan just wants to see Alish back to health, even though without him knowing, it makes Fariz hurt.

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Along the way, Fariz just stared blankly in front of him, his legs felt unclogged by the earth, he felt that right now if he was floating, his soul seemed to have slipped out of place.

Slowly but surely, his steps carried him towards the parking lot, he immediately entered his car and drove it with above average speed.

Some of the accusations that people made on him for driving a car irregularly, even almost hit another rider, he did not ignore.

His mind and heart were completely muddled, he felt like a useless man, he felt like a loser man, even to maintain his own relationship could not.

"Aaaakkkkhh!" he screamed inside the car that was driving uncontrollably.

He hit the steering wheel with his fist, he did it not once, but many times, even now the knuckles in both hands have been flushed even blisters, he said, until it blots blood.

His mouth also did not stop cursing himself, he was angry at himself who could not do anything at the moment, he said,

Nature seemed to feel what she was feeling, the rain suddenly fell so heavily, it did not make Fariz relax the speed of his car.

His only goal at the moment, he wanted to find calmness for his heart, he wanted to cool his heart and mind that seemed to be burning it.

His eyes felt sore as if a sharp object had entered his eyes, he wanted to cry, but even tears did not want to appear.

"I'm sorry, Mi, I'm sorry!" fariz Muttered,

"I'm stupid, so stupid!" Fariz continued to fumble along that journey.

The streets were slippery because of the rain, but the man who was being hit by quite a great shock in his heart did not care about it.