Sincerity (Guineness of Heart)
Not In keeping with His Heart

Hearing what Ami said, Fariz turned his face towards Ami and looked at the woman deeply, looking at what she meant.

"Why are you asking me that?"

"May I like Mas Fariz?" ask Ami frankly.

Fariz stared in disbelief at Ami, why did Ami suddenly ask her that, what was the meaning of the question.

"I know it's not true, but I can't control my own heart to dislike you" Ami said.

Fariz clenched his hands, he also wanted to say, if he had the same taste in this woman. However, Alisha's disappointed face filled her mind.

She did not want that to happen, imagining how her foster mother, often grieving for her birth mother's actions, made her not want to make the woman feel disappointed in her.

"But you have to be disappointed because your feeling is one-sided" Fariz said heavily.

Wouldn't it be better that way, at least Ami would only be heartbroken once if she said that now, at least, he did not want to hurt her more deeply and give her wishful thinking that even he himself was unable to reach.

"Well, Mas can't not be as straightforward as that" said Ami forcing her lips to smile.

Even though he had prepared his heart for such a thing, but still, being rejected directly, his nyesek was not playing.

"Rather than me acting like I'm reciprocating your feelings, it'll only make you expect more." Fariz was saddened by his words, but he himself had no other choice.

"Keep what does the kindness that Mas, did to me all this time?"

"I did it for the sake of humanity alone, my intention from the beginning was just to help as a fellow human being, nothing more!" terang Fariz's.

Ami lowered her head not daring to raise her face again, between sad, ashamed and disappointed into one, she played her fingers venting the gloom in her heart.

"I suggest you, don't be too easy to like someone else with just the kindness that that person has done, if you've always been like this, I'm sure you'll be disappointed more and more," said Fariz again and started getting up from his seat.

"Well you, start thinking about getting out of here, your family must have been looking for you for too long, don't be selfish and just think about yourself, but, just think about your family who's been expecting your return," bright Fariz with a standing position and back to Ami.

"What now Mas, really upset me!" lirih Ami with tears that began to shed on her cheeks.

"Please take it that way." After saying something completely out of step with his heart, Fariz stepped out of his place.

He stepped with a heavy heart up the stairs, heading to his room, after arriving at his room he closed the door and leaned on the door of his room.

Several times he took a breath and let it out over and over again, to win her heart.

"Sorry," he murmured with a sense of tightness that also enveloped his heart.

Finally having returned to thinking, she had to take this step, letting Ami go back to her family.

They returned to being strangers who had never known before, it was the best way in his opinion, so as not to disappoint even more hearts.

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In the living room, Ami began to sob when she heard Fariz was not there, she again and again felt heartache, but this time it was worse.

Either the taste he had was not as simple as when he had feelings for Daffin or he was initially too hopeful for Fariz.

"Non," call Ijah who rubbed Ami's back.

"Bi, he just rejected me, even he kicked me out, am I wrong if I have that feeling for him" said Ami accompanied by tears.

"Non, let's talk in the room yuk, there's something Bibi wants to tell me," Ijah asked Ami.

"What, Bi?" asked Ami who had started to raise her face.

"What the hell is Bi, actually?" asked Ami in surprise.

Now they had reached Ami's room and were sitting opposite each other on the edge of the bed.

"Non, don't be so sad. Actually what Den Fariz said was not in accordance with what he had in his heart" Ijah explained with confidence.

"I mean Aunty?" ami's forehead shriveled because she did not understand what Ijah said.

"Den Fariz actually has the same feeling as Non feels, only he does not want to disappoint his mother, let alone turn out that the woman seems to like Den Fariz," explained Ijah.

"How does Aunt know she likes me too?"

"Auntie always peeked if you two again, Den Fariz never turned his face away from Non, he always looked at Non in silence," explained Ijah again who leaked Fariz's secret.

"Truely, like that Bi?" Ami's cheeks were hot when she heard what Ijah said.

Ijah smiled looking, Ami's face reddened, her cheeks white now like wearing a blush-on.

"Yes Non-real, it's just that he certainly does not want to be selfish by following his heart and disappointing his family, let alone his mother."

"Just try, Non think, when he was a child had to lose his mother and no relatives who want to take care of him, even his late mother would leave him in the orphanage, if Bu Alish and Mr. Nevan don't adopt him, so his priority right now is his family."

"Den Fariz also didn't want to hurt Non Ami in the end, Bibi could see if she was also heavy to say that just now"

"Aunty means she rejected me for not wanting to give me hope, when she herself has no other choice" said Ami who began to understand.

"Yes, Non. Den Fariz's weakness lies with Ms. Alish, she has no choice but to obey him this time to please Ms. Alish" Ijah explained again.

"Maybe it's true, Bi, especially from what Ami heard earlier it seems like, Mas Fariz's mother really likes that woman."

"Yes Non" Ijah said, nodding his head.

"Had Auntie, I'd like it to feel like Bibi told Ms. Alish, if Den Fariz didn't like the woman at all, but Bibi didn't have the right to."

"Thank you that Bibi, already told Ami this matter, I will think of a way to get close to Mas Fariz and make her mother like me later," said Ami confidently and immediately rubbed his wet cheek, which was,

"Yes Non, Bibi is just not happy to see two people who like each other have to separate so, it's not exciting," joked Ijah, making Ami laugh.

"Alright, if so Bibi back ironing clothes again yes," said Ijah.

"Yes Bi" said Ami.

Ijah left the room smiling with relief because he had straightened out the matter between Fariz and Ami, he could see if the master had any feelings for Ami.

"Den!" ijah said in shock as she exited the room Ami Fariz was standing at the end of the stairs with a flat look at her.

Had the master heard the chatter he and Ami just now, he tried to calm down and force his lips to smile.

"Don't give him hope that will only hurt him" Fariz said in a flat tone.

"Sorry, Den. Aunty just can't bear to see Non Ami sad," bright Ijah sat his head in fear.

Fariz did not acknowledge him, he decided to leave his apartment to calm his heart and mind for a moment.

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