Sincerity (Guineness of Heart)
Don't Keep Hurtin' Your Heart.

Ami smiled at the person who was looking at her in disbelief, just standing in the doorway with eyes still unblinking.

"What a ghost Ami is, to the point that Bibi keeps looking at me like that" Ami said with a faint smile.

He had guessed that the woman who was now standing in front of the door was Ijah art in the apartment.

"Non Ami, finally Non came too, Bibi thought Non would never come back here again" Ijah said seriously.

"The story is long, Bi why Ami came late to the place" Ami told Ijah.

"Come on Non, come in first" Ijah asked, to Ami who was still standing at the door.

"Where are the aunts going?" ami asked because she saw Ijah carrying a large bag of crackles.

"It's rubbish, I was taking this down, it's okay. Aunty throw this away later, let's go in first Non," asked Ijah again, while keeping the bag he carried beside the door.

"Alright," said Ami following Ijah into the apartment.

"Non sit down, Auntie will get you a drink first," Ijah said to the kitchen.

Ami scanned every corner of the room, this is where she stayed for almost three months, on the sofa that, she often watched along with Fariz, spending time together while telling stories there.

Ami slowly resumed her footsteps, she sat on the sofa wiping the sofa carefully.

"This, Non drink it," said Ijah save the drink for Ami.

"Yes thank you, Bi. Sit down I want to talk" Ami told Ijah and patted the empty spot beside her.

Ijah also said, he sat next to Ami, seeing Ami who had started drinking the drink he served.

"Bi, Mas Fariz is not here, right? ami asked looking at Fariz's room, she was still afraid that Fariz was there, as she was still not ready to face the man.

"Nothing, Den Fariz is going to his parents' house" Ijah said.

"He's always okay, right?" ask Ami again.

"From the outside it looks good, but who knows how his heart is," said Ijah who dissertation a little rough breath.

"Why is it like that, Bi?" Ami looked at Ijah in surprise.

"When Non Ami left here, Den Fariz returned to his original self, he never spoke let alone smiled, every holiday also he always sat in front of the tv, he always sat in front of the television, but his eyes stared blankly at the tv, Den Fariz who was now like, an empty shell, outside looking good, but inside there was no contents," Ijah explained staring intensely at Ami.

"Is it true that way, Bi. how is the interaction between Mas Fariz and the woman who is now his fiancee?"

"Every time the woman visited here, Den Fariz just put on his flat face, he always kept his distance from Non Cindy, even when Non Cindy wanted to get closer to Den Fariz, he said, he immediately dodged," Ijah explained making Ami feel sad and happy simultaneously with it.

He felt sad to imagine how tormented the man who felt forced to be near Cindy and felt happy, because it turned out that the relationship between them was still no progress.

"Even the day before the engagement, Bibi saw Den Fariz sitting in front of the tv for a whole day, not budging, Bibi had persuaded her to eat, but Den Fariz refused, he said if he was not hungry, but from the morning did not eat anything" Ijah explained again

"Why Mas Fariz, to torture himself like that" said Ami sadly.

"Auntie is also worried about his condition, Den Fariz who continues to torture himself and lie to his own heart like that" said Ijah.

"That's why, Bibi always hoped that Non Ami would come here soon and see Den Fariz again."

"When Ami was able to see, the bag given by Bibi was missing, the photo was also lost, so I could not recognize it" Ami explained.

"When did he come home?" ask Ami who is now ready to meet the man.

"Maybe in a moment" said Ijah.

Ami started to stand up, sighed several times and took it out slowly, while Ijah went straight to the kitchen giving them space to meet each other.

Fariz opened the door lazily, he walked with his head lowered, he replaced the sandals first with special sandals at home.

His body that was standing firmly and his head that had been raised, suddenly stiffened, seeing who was now standing in front of him.

Whether this is a dream or hallucination, in front of him is standing Ami who is smiling at him, his body now becomes stiff difficult to move.

"Mas," called Ami in a soft tone, tingling her ears.

"Mas Fariz," called Ami again, now able to make Fariz aware of his daydream.

"Why are you silent? Is it not nice to meet me?" asked Ami who had stepped closer to Fariz.

"Why are you here?" ask Fariz who can control himself.

"Didn't I promise to see you when I can see you again, I just kept my promise" said Ami with a smile that still lingers on her lips.

"Now you've met me and know me, so wait a minute, go." Fariz again and again spoke not according to what was in his heart.

"If I don't want to go, what do you want?" ask Ami who even challenged Fariz.

"Until when are you going to lie to your own heart, Mas. Don't keep hurting your own heart, just try to think about your own feelings."

Ami looked into Fariz's eyes, looking deeply at him, and the man then cast a gaze in the other direction.

"What do you mean, who's lying and hurting himself, ak—"

"You're always lying Mas, you keep hurting yourself with that attitude of yours." Ami immediately cut Fariz's words.

"Whatever you say, if your business is done go," said Fariz who immediately stepped up will leave Ami, but Ami did not let it.

Ami blocked Fariz's body by stretching out one hand, right in front of Fariz, until the man stopped again and looked at Ami who was beside him.

"Mas loves me, Mas lied to your heart and feelings because you want to make your mama happy" said Ami confidently.

"I also love you Mas, I beg to accept this feeling," continued Ami with a hearty look.

"You don't love me, you just thank me for helping you." Fariz passed through Ami's hand and was going to look up the stairs.

"It's not gratitude, do you know, once I can see, I'm trying to find you, like a madman, looking for a man I don't even know his face!"

"Just yesterday I met you again and sure if it was you, I felt disappointed that you were engaged, I almost gave up on this feeling, but again and again my heart asked to see you!" raung Ami made Fariz step stopped.

All emotions mixed into one, so that Ami was unable to control himself anymore and shed everything at this time.

"Do you know what it's like to love a person we don't even know what he looks like, we don't know where he is, all the time, I just wish we could meet him, but it turns out that our meeting didn't quite match what we wanted." Ami continued to speak with tears falling down her cheeks.

While Fariz was just pecking at her place, her chest was rumbling at the sound of every word that came out of Ami's mouth, her heart ached to hear the sobbing from the woman.

"If you really want to stay like this, I won't force you to accept this feeling that I have, you just keep pretending like that, hopefully you can find your happiness by continuing like that." Ami rubbed her cheek violently.

"From now on, I'll never see you again, I'll assume if we never met, I didn't want to say this word, but now I'm gonna say it, goodbye and thank you for helping me at that time."

Ami immediately picked up the bag that was originally in his storage on the sofa, after which he walked towards the apartment door and went straight out without turning around again, a circle of tears increasingly falling on his cheeks.

His heart felt disappointed wrapped in wounds with Fariz who remained strong to hurt himself, as well as himself who had been trying to find him.