A Tattered Heart
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the day passed and finally my in-laws died,,,,,,,,, my father-in-law ,,,,,,,,,

sad and lost not long ago my in-laws died ,

I got word that my brother Wiwin's in the hospital,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

the disease he suffered quite badly he got liver cancer stage 4,,,,,,, he got,,,,,

I was surprised that Tampa talked so much and asked me to go straight to kebogor delivered my husband ,,,,,,

once at the peacock port I picked up Koko ,,,,,,

I went straight to the hospital and started taking care of it

but Koko said klo Wiwin was still at home,,,,,,, he said ,,,,,,

he wasn't taken to the hospital on the grounds that he didn't have money and didn't want to take the family,,,,,, or ,,,,,

wah this needs extra maksa ,,,,,

I'll try until he goes to the hospital ,,,,

I'll make sure he's sick what,,,,, what ,,,,,,????

finally I didn't come home for 2 weeks,,,,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,,,,,

I couldn't get home sooner because I knew that Wiwin had to be taken care of,,,,,,,, 'cause ,,,,,,,

and I see his condition wiwin can't yet I stay ,,,,,,,

but it turned out that my husband Asiung was furious and told me to make it home,,,,,

I got mad on the phone with an amazing word,,,,,,,

"Wiwin is just adept,,, he's not your parents ,,, ,,,,, he's ,,,, ,,,

why are you busy,,,,,,,,???

she has a husband ,, let her husband take care of her ,,,,, so the husband has to take responsibility for his own family,,,,,???

you also take care of her whole ,,,, not her own family even take care of others ,,,,,,,!!!!! anyway cave don't want to know you have to sneak home,,,,,,!!!????watch out for the no,,,,"

phone on turn off ,,,,

I called you back,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

I have to explain,,,,,,, I have to,,,,,,,

as soon as I lifted up I spoke

"kok you that's the ko ,,,,???? the fair dong kasian adek cave ,?????

the cave used to take care of popo,,,,,, too,,,,,,

take care of aqiun, now so adek cave entrance to the hospital kok you talk about it not very tasty si ,,,,, here the cave is not wandering ko gua keepin adek cave ,,,,,,,

as long as you know yes Wiwin is really sick ko ,,, because kangker heart

you don't like 'em ,,,,,???? his disease is already severe ko stage 4,,,,, the new look klo he kangker kemaren fitting cave forced take to hospital ,,,,,,,cave until here that Wiwin is still in the house ko ,,, no one knows ,,, so in the new hospital all in shock because Toto also never spoke klo Wiwin sick ,,,,,,,, because ,,,,,,

we also do not know Wiwin is still there age what is not,,,,,????because it's so bad ,,,,,,, where is the smallest child just a year old ko ,,,,,,,, ???? klo emang already settled cave home kok, why the old cave here also ,,, patience ya ko at least until the cave dapet doctor right for ngobatin Wiwin ,,,,,,,so dapet cave promise straight home ,,,,???, beg ko???",

Asiung tetep nag ,,,,,

but he also understood ,,,,,

she said her brother ngoceh Ama she's ,,,,,

he said he could not educate his wife,,,, because he just went by himself until so long ,,,,,, ngabis ngabis ngabisin money he said ,,,,,,,,, he said ,,,,,,,

that's why Asiung asked me to take home ,,,,,,

I can't blame Asiung too ,,,,,, I can ,,,,,

I can understand Asiung's position no matter how we are surrounded by his family,,,,,, no matter what,,,,,

moreover, his brother always monitors us especially me ,,,,,,,

I finally got the right doctor for Wiwin,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,

the doctor told me to prepare the medical equipment and equipment that the patient will need,,, immediately

I bought the medical devices that the doctor needed ,,,,,,,

as soon as it's all complete I say go home,,,,,,,,, I say,,,,,,,

the atmosphere was slightly moved,,,,, Wiwin hugged me while crying ,,,,,

many times thanking me for my attention and help.,,,,

so did my brother-in-law he also curled me while crying,,,,,,

he said he was embarrassed to have taken a lot of my ,,,,,,

he was very grateful ,

for my responsibility with his wife ,,

I nodded and strengthened his heart ,,,,,,,

"the patient yes,, the storm must have passed ,,,"

finally I came back to the lampung I was sure there must be a big storm that I would receive from Asiung ,,,,,,,

I must be the place where his anger is,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

I'm confused about how to let Asiung not get angry ,,,,,,

along the way Dr. Bogor kelampung I was busy looking for the right reasons and words so that a great fight did not occur,,,,,,

I'm really tired if I just meet have to fight again ,,,,

I long for peace,,,,,,, all the way I pray God help me,,,,,,,,, all the way ,,,,,,,,,

arriving at the port of peacock turned out Asiung phone if he had told the driver to pick me up at the port of Bakauheni so no need to be escorted to cross

finally I was escorted to the ship by my sister on my own ship looking for a seat that was a bit off the middle,,,,,,,,, that, that ,,,,,,,,

,as soon as the ship leans I'm ready to go down ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

it just so happens that passengers are not so crowded so don't jostle ,,,,,

before long I got off the boat the driver was approaching me,,,,, I was shocked and relieved that I didn't need another phone ,,,,,, I was ,,,,,

along the way I was talking to my driver ,,,,,

with what happened to my sister Wiwin ,,,,,,

I'm telling you kind of a little bit more let it be more colorful ,,,,,,

I also said that my sister's pain was all caused by the ugly nature of her husband who always made my sister's inner pressure which eventually became a cancer ,,,,,,

I heard my driver say

"so young again yes kasian ya ,,, the husband klo not understanding so that ,,,, eat it enci also do not be taken heart if you talk a bit rough ",

I smiled and didn't say anything ,,,,,,,,

when I got home I repeated all these stories with Asiung I expected him to believe ,,,,,,,,

Thank God he believed

finally I'm not a big fuss,,,,,,, I am ,,,,,,,

a week dirmh as usual I do activities as usual ,,,,,

suddenly I feel uneasy what is this,,,,,,,?????

wiwin was admitted to DARMAIS Hospital

hospital speciality cancer,,,,,,, the,,,,,,,

two days wiwin was treated there ,,,,,,,

I got a phone call sent Dateng to Bogor again ,,,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,,

",please kebogor ,,, Wiwin's critical pot,,,, the treating doctor says he's not up to 12 hours old ,,,,,,,",

I just put the phone out of the dui ,,,,

Koko calls again ,,,,

"take to Bogor, Wiwin did not help lg doctor already raise his hand,, so there is still a spit here I picked up in the port peacock ,???"

the phone's on the lid I can't say anything else ,,,,, I'm crying ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,

Asiung approached me and asked ,,,,,,,

"what's up,,,,,, Wie what's up,,, why are you crying ,,,,???",

I immediately hugged Asiung I poured sadness on her she stroked my hair elus trying to calm me down

"Wiwin ko ,,,, he's only up to 12 hours old,,,, I have to go there now all the family's been together,,,,,",

"yes I have gone there to anther to the port of Bakauheni,,, have, have not wept ,,,,,,",

at this time there is no place to lean but Asiung ,,,,,,, no place to lean ,,,,,,

let him be no good but at times like this he's the only place I share,,,,,, at times,,,,,

with tears in my eyes I was done with my clothes,,,,,,

that same night I set off from Asiung to port ,,,,, I ,,,,,

getting off the boat was Koko waiting for me as soon as I came down she pulled my hand to the car park ,,,,,,,, she pulled my hand ,,,,,,

we're going straight to DARMAIS Hospital,,,

true that Wiwin udh is powerless a lot of hoses here and there ,,,,,, Wiwin vomits from the nose of the mouth ,,,,, expels in the black liquid ,,,,,,

every time she vomits she complains of pain,,,,,,,,,, she says,,,,,,,,

I was so sad and could not bear to see her ,,,, but she apologized with me and asked to let go of her,,,, because she was no longer strong enough to endure pain ,,,,,,,, because ,,,,,,

I cried and cried until at last ,,,,,, I permit dawn prayer ,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

we waited in the waiting room to arrive and we heard screams and our cries immediately scattered to Wiwin's room,,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,

wiwin died at dawn,,,,,,,

all screaming,,,,,, Toto pinsan ,,,,,,

I cried bitterly,,,,,, I feel like I failed as a big brother because I couldn't help my sister,,,,,, I, I didn't,,,,,

I realized all this time it was just him, who Deket compared to my other brothers,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

now he's gone,,,,,,,,

too many memories we've been through together,,,,, uh,,,,

he's not the best ,,,,,,,,, he's ,,,,,,,,,

but he's better than my other brother,,,,,, he's, like, my brother,,,,,,

my sister-in-law cries and keeps crying ,,,,,,,,

I too from funeral to house always cry,,,,,,,,

every time I enter Wiwin's room I want him to cry,,,,,,,,, he says,,,,,,,,

suddenly my sister-in-law hugged me and calmed me,,,,,,,,,,

I don't know I'm as calm and comfortable as every sister-in-law hugs me,,,,,,,,

I feel her affection is sincere towards me ,,,,,,,

but it turns out from here the beginning of the tempest happened because before my sister fell ill and died we had misunderstood so that making our closeness had stretched ,,,,,,,,,, and so on ,,,,,,,

here's the story, ,,,,,, this is ,,,,,,,

my closeness to my sister Wiwin first,,,,

automatically close also to her husband,,,,,

Toto I've looked at it like my own sister,,,,,,, I, like,,,,,,

and vice versa ,,,,,, , too ,,,,,,

in everything he tells,,,,,,,,,, in,,,,,,,,,

I consider it as natural as a brother and sister ,,,,,,,

we both called often

in addition to asking the news sometimes talk about work problems ,,,,,,at first I thought it was natural because before they were officially married, Suroto did often call me and Asiung picket, sometimes his phone was long because it happened to be our talk rada connect ,,,,,,,,so you can forget the time,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

well I'm Asiung. , Toto is often connected by phone ,,,,, which is most often all I ask about my niece's situation ,,,,,,

I think it's natural to ,,,,, I ,,,,

but it turns out it's not what I thought ,,,,,,, it was ,,,,,,,

because before my sister died 3 months ago I got a phone call from my mom,,,, he said if it's true I have a maen with Toto,,,,, he said ,,,,,

I'm surprised if there can be cheap gossip like this, yes I ask news from where ,,,,,

he said I knew from Wiwin himself ,,,,,,,, Wiwin who said while crying cry ,,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,

hadeuhhhhh ,,,,,,,,

he said Wiwin was suspicious of my closeness to Toto because there was something,,,,,,,

astagfirullah,,,,,,,, the,,,,,,,,

turns out my brother's a blind jealous ,,,,

suspicious of me,,,,????

I thought I was playing with her husband,,,,, uh,,,,,

I was obviously shocked and understood immediately why at the end of the day he turned ,,,,,,, he was ,,,,,,,,

often talking ketus klo on the phone ,,,,,,

sometimes not lifting klo on the phone,,,,,,

turns out this was the cause of her ,,,,,,,

Tampa waited for this problem to get bigger I called him to come home to Lampung,,,,,,, he said ,,,,,,

there's a problem that we have to solve ,,,,,,,, there's ,,,,,,,,

I told you also all the costs and round-trip fees plus the bonus pocket money I bear ,,,,,

wiwin wants to go home ,,,,,,,,

Thank God he wants ,,,,

wiwin finally came home ,,,,,

so horrified Wiwin to the house of mama in lampung ,,,,,,,

that afternoon I quickly went to the place of mama,,,,,, I,,,,,

I have to solve the problem and get this misunderstanding ,,,,,

when I got home to my mom I found Wiwin who was still in room ,,,,,,

finished cipika cipiki I go straight to the core of the problem ,,,

I told Wiwin to sit down ,,,,,

we're dealing ',,,,,, we're dealing ,,,,

at first Wiwin used to laugh but I said I wanted to talk seriously ,,,,,,, I said ,,,,,,,

I'm starting to see a change in her face,,,,,,, I, you know ,,,,,,,

I started talking and asking,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

"win ,,,, what's in that shit about me ,,,,????",

I spoke while looking into his eyes ,,,,,,,

after I said that at first he was shocked for a moment,,, and it looked like he was beingthinking,,,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,,

then Wiwin lowered his head ,,,,,,,,

seeing his attitude like that meant that the news was true ,,,,,,,,

I started to continue my questions again ,,,,,

"klo bener,,,, you need to go around insulting the cave win ,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

you think the cave is crazy what ,,,,????

want to be like toto,,,,,, you know,,,,,,

what are the arepin caves of Toto ,,,,?????

handsome doesn't ,,,,,

rich don't ,,,,,,

white ain't ,,,,,

,high ranking also not ,,,,,

and what is the priority of the cave to make the same interest him,,,????

Toto is not a type of cave really know ,,,, klo cave want guy rich Toto has been cave dapetin from the first win ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,

Toto ma is far more than Asiung ma,,,,, he is,,,,

there's nothing win,,,,,,, there's nothing,,,,,,

sorry sorry just a caveman's fingernails are also not ,,,,,,",

I saw him start to shed tears,,,, well, I thought so he could think with logic,,,,,, well, I thought ,,,,,

I keep talking again

"braining klo you think so you're shallow thinking his win ,,,,,,

as long as you know yes win the cave well with toto because he is the husband of the cave adek Deket cave, both Ama you automatic Deket cave and well also the same Toto lah ,,,,,,,, well ,,,,,,continue klo cave often tell Toto who picked up if I want to kebogor it's his consideration rather than the cave tell other people drivers yes mending adek themselves ,,,,,,,???

it's obvious that her make money is just Ama pounding herself,,,,,,,,,,"

"trus got the wrong cave where,,,,,,,,,

how could his good intentions cave instead make you jealous ,,,,,,,,???

let's say the same cave win,,,,,

let the cave believe and understand this cave adek,,,,,,ayo you talk to the cave yourself try ,,,,????",

done talking I hold his shoulder I look at his face ,,,,,,,,

honestly I was a bit disappointed for God's sake in my mind and heart

there is absolutely no feeling that low,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

let alone have the intention to disrupt his household ,,,,,,

even if my life isn't happy ,,,,,,,

even if my marriage is only on paper ,,,,,,,,

and I married Asiung just because of the necessity of ,,,,,,,,,

but I still have feelings,,,,,,,, I have ,,,,,,,,

there's a warm melt in my cheek ,,,,,,

I was crying there was also a whirring in my heart ,,,,,,,,,

Wiwin didn't dare look at me ,,,,,,,

he stays down,,,,, he ,,,,

we're both fighting,,,,,,, we're ,,,,,,,

in the midst of silence we both arrived Wiwin spoke softly ,,,,,,

"iya mbak sorry really cave is wrong ,,,, anyway cave know what kind of taste you ,,,,,,,,, anyway ,,,,,,,

the cave doesn't mean that,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,

cave is only a momentary emotion because Toto's behavior sometimes likes to make sprain ,,,,,,,

but the cave is also nyeselah said so ,,,,,,

again sorry about that ,,,,???",

then hugged her I ,,,

I can't hold back these tears ,,,,,,

at least I can see Wiwin crying so ,,,,,,,,

oh, God,,,,,, God, you ,,,,,,

"yes dear,,,, the cave also apologizes for you not being calm and jealous ,,,,,

by Allah, not a single cave will disturb her husband and her own cave,,,,,,,, she said,,,,,,,

where the cave brain can think that far,,,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,

can see you guys happy just cave udh seneng,,,

, let a cave that lives like this come not my brother,,,, ",

we both hugged and forgave each other ,,,,,,,

he promised never to repeat his ,,,,,,

o Allah may after this clarification all pass,,,,,, ,

and Wiwin doesn't think that way anymore,,,,,,,, uh,,,,,,

the day after tomorrow Wiwin returned to Bogor lg during the float I always spoil his ,,,,,,,

I followed everything he wanted from food to clothes,,,,,

I brought him home a lot by,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

and I give you a decent pocket money

I want him to come home feeling calm and happy,,,,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,,

but soon he came home from Lampung,,,,, I heard that he was sick,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,

often taken to the doctor ,,,,,

but no one would have thought that cancer,,,, he said only stomach pain, and osteoporosis,,,,,,,, he said,,,,,,

until it's so bad that no one knows exactly what his disease is ????,,,,,

until I Dateng and recklessly take him to the hospital of filial works,,,, and finally just found out if he has a heart disease kangker ,,,,,, and finally ,,,,,

and it's stage 4,,,,,, and,,,,,

it's so bad right????? ,,,,,,,, is it ????? ,,,,,,,

that severe pain,,,,,, that,,,,

so many brothers no one knows and cares ,,,,,, but every day mixed mbak I even live in the house Wiwin ,,, dui also time no one knows ,,,,,,,,, even living in the house Wiwin , , , , , , 'dui also time no one knows ,,,,,,,

even though the money has been prepared to take care of the family ,,,,,,

I'm the one who holds the money,,,,,, I, the,,,,,

why did you miss ,,,,,

why should I be the new kebogor

do you know what pain is ????

trus brothers all here what's the function ,,,,,???!

there's a sense of disappointment ',,,,,,,,,, there's ,,,,,,,,,,

that much money I've prepared is not their money but they are still stupid,,,,,, no matter ,,,,,,,,,, how do you use their money ,,,,,,??????

the longer I understand

my family in Bogor was originally like,,,,,,, what, what ,,,,,,

egotists are just busy thinking about their own family,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,

klo I've been screaming let alone intervening alone then all pura busy,,, pura baring ,,,,,,,,, all, just ,,,,,,,

from yesterday where have you been ???!?

until Wiwin gets sick that bad no one suspects ,,,,,,,,, no, no ,,,,,,,,

disappointed for sure but I can what ,,,,,??!?!

I also don't live in Bogor ,,,,,, or ,,,,,,,

well maybe it's fate, too,,,,,, maybe ,,,,,,

the important thing is that Wiwin knows that my love is sincere with all the family,,,,,,,, all the family ,,,,,,,

I was so devastated to hear he was sentenced to a doctor not long ago ,,,,,

and I can't believe he's gone forever, either,,,,,,, or, like, he's gone,,,,,,,,

well I have to let go of her ,,,,,,

the important thing is that the child I left behind takes good care of,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

let there be Wiwin seneng ,,,,,,

I used to think that when I saw my other brother there was nothing like Wiwin,,,, that ,,,

want to nampung his brother's house, his room, even his closet randomized aja he diem not angry you know,,,,,,,,,,, he's random ,,,,,,,

instead I became confused myself ,,,,

that's husband and wife when bodo is very ,,,,

and that's their privacy ,,,,

are they too good or too insistent ,,,,,

I don't know if they're the only two who know ,,,,,,

but seeing the reality after Wiwin died I became suspicious ,,,,

don't don't let my other brother be suspicious of me and Toto

they're talking to Wiwin ,,,,, they're talking ,,,,,

but instead they say that the suspicious and jealous Wiwin is like me,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,

though the source of their own ,,,,,,,

the proof is that Wiwin is seriously ill that they don't care,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,

I'm sure soon his true nature will be visible after Wiwin no ,,,,,,,, anyways ,,,,,,

because I'm sure the dead know better the heads of the living than we do ,,,,,,,, or ,,,,,,,

and really the atmosphere in the house of the deceased so not very good ,,,,,,,, so ,,,,,,

this happened after Wiwin in the tomb right,,,,,, it was,,,,,,

the most striking

my sister's true nature is starting to become clear,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,

cuek ,,,,, judes ,,,,, and want to win alone,,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,,

snapper,,,,,,,,, the,,,,,,,,

let alone their treatment of me ,,,,,,,

far from the usual ,,,,,,,,

I'm starting to always get it wrong when they say ,,,,,,

in everything ,,,,,,

let alone Toto every time I want to go along with ,,,,,

I'm going awry,,,

maybe Toto also felt the discomfort in his house the same as I felt,,,,,,,, that, that,,,,,,,,

that makes me add to the corner right,,,,, that,,,,,

like when Toto wants to bring groceries in the market,,,,, like,,,,

I was suddenly angry with me

"elu that's why the wi ,, where did not know Toto who died was his wife Toto ,,,,, where ,,,,

and that Toto can't go anywhere before 40 days

why do you keep pushing him,,,,,, ,

klo want to shop ngajak that Laen aja make nemenin you shopping not ngajak Toto ???,,!!!"

.

I was so shocked,,,,, I, I ,,,,,

o Allah why did I get so angry ,,,,,

I answered ,,,

"who did Toto ask who ???I didn't take him mbak ,, just klo buy stuff don't use the car how to take him ????who wants to drive who ?????who wants to bring who's groceries ????",,

I went straight away with an angry eye ,,,,,

small commotion often occurs ,,,,,,

and it makes me even more uncomfortable,,,,,, uh,,,,,

different from before Wiwin died,,,,, that is,,,,,

suddenly I miss my house ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

miss Asiung ,,,,,,,

I want to go back to Lampung aja ,,,,,,

even though Asiung does not love me but still mending Asiung than my brother ,,,,,,,

I just really know my brother's true nature right now,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

there's a sense of disbelief, but it's real

suddenly the question came to my mind what if I ever needed their help,,,,????

will they help, then,,,?????

like I've done to pay attention to their well-being ,,,,,???

is it true as I thought all along they are good because my money ,,,,,,????

not because I love you, do you,,,,???

if only it were true how disappointed I was ,,,,,,,,,

it's not just my brother who's changed

mama also seems to turn ,,,,,,,

his dislike of me was seen once ,,,,,,

every time I complain about my sister's behavior as if she doesn't care.,,,,,,,, like.,,,,,,,

it even looks cute,,,,,, it's,,,,,,

I really want to run away from my family this ,,,,,, this ,,,,,

it ever crossed my mind whether it was Wiwin to show how they really were against me ,,,,,,

and Wiwin wants to show that the clo they've been doing all this time is just pure flatness,,,,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,

not the real ,,,,,,

this fact really made me feel sick ,,,,,

even though I've expected it to be,,,,,,,, I guess ,,,,,,,,

but seeing reality is much more painful ,,,,,,,,

I couldn't ,,,,, especially when the mission assigned to me failed ,,,,,,,, , , 'em ,,,,,,

their treatment is even more painful ,,,,,

the mission is like,,,,,, the, the ,,,,,,

the plan is they want to match my mother who is a virgin

Ama Toto who is now a widower,,,,,

because they know I'm close to Toto

that's why I was told to say,,,,,, that's why,,,,,,

it turns out that I was unexpectedly rejected by Toto ,,,,,

he thinks of me like his brother ,,,,

so maybe he's love,,,,,, maybe ,,,,,

and Toto's reason is also because his wife just left ,,,,

he hasn't thought about finding a replacement for ,,,,,,

that's Toto's reason,,,,, that's ,,,,,

well really or wrong only Toto knows ,,,,,,,

obviously I can't force ',,,,,,,,, I can't force ,,,,,,,

after all, love is a matter of the heart,,,,,,, and, after all ,,,,,,,,

but because I'm the one assigned automatically I'm the target,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

I don't think I'm serious ,,,,,,

even I'm accused of being fond of Toto,,,,,,,, that is ,,,,,,,

so instead of talking about the plan but instead looking for a chance to date Toto ,,,,,,

Astagfirullah ,,,,,,,

"don't don't you don't tell me what Ama toto,,,,,,, is,,,,,,

,or don't be the one who actually likes Toto,,,,,, no, no,,,,,,,

and you were just looking for a chance to walk with ,,,,,,",

jleb ,,,,,, !!!!!

straight to my heart 'ulu ,,,,,

that's what I heard myself from my sister Tuty ,,,,,,,, that's what I heard ,,,,,,,

I'm actually getting a lot less at home,,,,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,,,

I really can't see the true nature of my brother,,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

I want to quickly go home ,,,,,,

I miss Asiung ,,,,,,,

I miss my house ,,,,,,,,

I miss my daily life with the stuff in the ',,,,,,, warehouse ,,,,,,,,

it turns out that my life is more mending than I have to live with my brother in Bogor ,,,,,,,,

even intending not to ,,,,,,,,

I am disappointed and to this disappointment cannot be hidden any more ,,,,,

I promise when I get home I'll be more accepting of my husband and his brother,,,,,,, I'll be,,,,,,

I'll look after his finances and learn to be what the Asiung extended family expects,,,,,,,, to be,,,,,,,,

I hope it's not too late ',,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

I'm sorry my husband ,,,,,,,

it turns out that no one really loves me and thinks I have ,,,,,,,

all my sacrifices have been for nothing ,,,,,,,,,

my eyes began to open, my mind began to open

their treatment was the same as that of my parents when I was hitchhiking in his old house ,,,,,,

I'm thinking ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

it is only natural that the treatment of my husband Asiung yesterday was not like for my parents and family ,,,,,,

turns out Asiung is more sensitive than me ,,,,,

I'm insensitive 'cause they're family,,,,,,, they're ,,,,,,,

with a feeling of disappointment and sadness I tidied up my clothes ,,,,,,

Toto always accompanied me he seemed to know I was sad and disappointed ,,,,,, he was ,,,,,,

I didn't tell her or anyone else lg ,,,,,,

but he knew and often saw what I was treated like, not infrequently I was yelled at ,,,,,

until I want to go home also the atmosphere at the home of the deceased wiwin is still hot not very comfortable ,,,,,,,

but because I want to go home I don't think about it very soon

it's in the middle of my own little family, ,,,,, it's ,,,,

I'm saying go home,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I shake hands with my family ,,,,,

Toto was crying while curling at me for a long time ,,,,,,

and repeatedly say thank you ,,,,

it's only natural that he's been so he knows since his wife got sick that I've been panting his wife's business,,,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

from the hospital fee to the doctor's fee all I take care of ,,,,,,,

while from the Toto family no one helped ,,,,,,,

I know he thinks Toto's just like me ,,,,,

and I also like Toto,,,,,,, and I, too,,,,,,,

stupid,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

finally the no-wearing event that my family presented ended was ,,,,,,,,,,

I've been in the middle of my little family again,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I'm starting to get busy taking care of warehouses and stores,,,,, I ,,,,

I'm trying to enjoy my day ',,,,,, I, uh ,,,,,,

and I try not to provoke a fuss with ,,,,,

I always succumbed and avoided any anger or emotion,,,,,,

Thank God it works to avoid arguments,,,,,,

I started to feel comfortable and could forget my brother's treatment

and pray that my marriage will last ,,,,,,,

and I hope Asiung turns ,,,,,

from then on I didn't dare to hope anymore with my brother like before,,,,,,, no, no,,,,,,

it is better that I hope with my husband alone,,,,,, because obviously I am his wife he is my husband, ,, rather than hoping with others ,,,,,,

it's true what people told me first,,,,,,, it's true ,,,,,,

seeing that reality is more painful than hearing ,,,,,,,,,,

I've been through that yesterday,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,,

ever since I came back to Lampung I never once called Bogor,,,,,, no, no,,,,,

arriving at the phone call, he asked for permission to take care of Wiwin's children in my house,,,,,, I answer whatever ,,,,,,,,, I answer ,,,,,,

I also suggested ,,,,, I ,,,,

to find a maid just to take care of her child Wiwin who is still a small child

"klo mbak Asih the same AA must be overwhelmed klo have to take care of children alone ,,,,,

5 Children instead of a little ,,,,,",

at first he objected to having to pay the maid,,,,,

but I said let me just pay the maid,,, buy milk for Wiwin's children

all pay for the pump and the electricity,,,,,, and,,,,,,

he just wants a,,,,,,, he wants a ,,,,,,

finally I set aside a month 1 million,,,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,,

make extra spending in Bogor,,,,,,,

yes, the sustenance has been arranged which is important Wiwin healthy child ,,,,,,,

a month has passed when Toto arrived on the phone

"how are you healthy "

"Alhamdulillah to be healthy,,,,,, you yourself how ,,,,,,????

tumben phone what's up to your son on healthy right ,,,,, pop in the barn again finish the barn ,,???"

"healthy mbak ,, just want to know. tahara mbak Dewi aja ,,,"

"ohhhh Alhamdulillah ,,,,, this again where is ,,,,,,????,'

"this wants the condangan,, the same family in Bogor where Ana's adeknya ",

"ohhhh yeah don't heart yes ,,,,,, don't flirt flirt just yet yeah, kasian Wiwin is still just dead ,,,, there haven't been a hundred days,,,,,,,,why did you marry lg ,,, ,,,?????

,hehehe patiently yes to,,,,,""

my joke is with Toto

"insha Allah has, , , fear, I will marry lg "

Toto back my candain

"yes it is not necessarily your wife love the child JD do not hunt and I will not be bored ingetin you ,,"

"yes, I want to, yes, already greetings to Asiung mass ,,",

"yes to ntar I say",

from then on Toto called me,,,,,,, so often,,,,,,,,

Toto is always good even if we don't have any ties anymore because Wiwin died,,,,,,

until finally unexpected events and horror rada happen in my house ,,,,,,,

I've heard that dead people like to come to their parents' brother's house, to say something that makes him unsettled,,,,,,, to say something,,,,,

and this happened at my house,,,,,, this, this ,,,,,,,

it's been a couple of days this weird thing at my house,,,,,,, it's been ,,,,,,

often appears even his figure looks very clear ,,,,,

like my sister Wiwin she was

put on the nightgown I bought in blue,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

walk into the kitchen ,,,,,

that's a rich man's way just a casual way,,,,,, take a drink finished drinking put a glass in the kitchen ,,,,,, it looks very clear just his face I don't see ,,,,,,,,, it's, it's ,,,,,,

just the shape of the body is just ,,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,

trus sat on the pole that was in my kitchen,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,

sometimes in the living room sit ,,,,,,

the one who saw not only me but my husband and my servants also often saw ,,,,,,,,

we just haven't had time to tell each other,,,,,,, we have ,,,,,,

what's wrong with Wiwin's late house why he's so often Dateng ,,,,,,

is there anything that holds his heart ,,,,,,,,

I don't take the time to think long or talk about her ,,,,,,

I'm busy with the store and the things that come,,,,,,, things ,,,,,,,

days pass by almost 3 weeks, week after week the events happen ,,,,,,,

I haven't talked to Asiung yet,,,,, let alone looking for his answer ,,,,,,,,,,, , 'em ,,,,,,,,

because every one wants to say there is a constraint ,,,,,,

until the momentous event occurs ,,,,,

that afternoon somehow Asiung arrived to talk really bad ,,,,,

he doesn't usually talk so spicy about me ,,,,

unless he's fit for rage ,,,,,

but as I recall for a long time we have never been at odds with ,,,,,,, or ,,,,,,,,

why did he arrive like this.,,,,

"here the cave wants to talk about the important Ama you ,,,,,"

I'm coming up to her ,,,,,,,

I think there's an important issue for sure ,,,,,,

because usually if there's an important problem he's like that ,,,,,,,

"plan ,, cave want to make your own account ,,,, so the AI AI wants to send the inheritance of the cave part,,,,, he does not want to klo have to transfer money into your savings account ,,,,,

he's afraid of your money abisin ,,,,

he told me to buy land and houses ,,,, all this time you've seen a lot of money'nya ijo ,,,,,,,,, all this time ,,,,,,,

because this is the legacy of the cave mother,,,,, can not be exhausted ,,,,,,,,,

the cave's got 1 billion parts,,,,,,,, the,,,,,,

but AI AI wants to transfer 5 times,,, not at once at the most

every Monday ,,,,,,

so you don't mandate treasure,,,,

you don't have to take care of the cave's legacy money ,,,,,,,, yeah ,,,,,,,,

but don't know if you're crazy about inheritance,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,

under the pretext of the Mak cave urucin it turns out that you incer her inheritance ,,,,,,!!!????",

I was really surprised to hear Asiung say that,,,,,,

I looked at her face,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

he realized not talking rich is like me ,,,,,,,,??????

moreover, this in the store employees must have been horrified ,,,,,,

o Allah ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

how can it be ,,,,,,,,

by the way it's rich there's no burden,,,,,,,, no,,,,,,,

even looks a cynical smile at me ,,,,

while enjoying his cigarette ,,,,,,,

I was stunned to see his face ,,,,,,,

as if not believing ,,,,,,,

why is Asiung like this ,,,,,,

does he know what I've been doing all this time ,,,,,????

I'm starting to lose confidence ,,,,,,????

there's fear, shame, and disappointment ,,,,,,,,,

why when I started to choose to focus on taking care of Asiung and this little family

Asiung even like this ,,,,,,,,

then what difference does it make me live here with me living in the middle of my family,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,

I'm disappointed to be so disappointed ,,,,,,,

why when I knew my real brother Asiung also changed also ,,,,,,

actually I've seen Asiung's changes since I took care of Wiwin getting sick ,,,,,,,

and it continues until Wiwin dies ,,,,,,,,,

when I get home,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

if it's not wrong nightfall he borrowed my savings book because tomorrow to deposit money,,,,,,, he borrowed it ,,,,,

at first I was normal, but in the morning it was until the house he matched the notes on the paper

I accidentally saw that there was a balance account,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,

obviously I'm surprised ,,,,

what does Asiung mean ,,,,,?????,

just because I'm still hurt by my brother's treatment I don't take it seriously ,,,,,,

even my two children were taught to say I was a waster ,,,,,,,,

there's a bad taste ,,,,,

what's up with Asiung ,,,,,,,

now it's not just my brothers and my parents,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,

but my husband too,,,,,,, is, uh,,,,,,,

oh God why is it all like this ,,,,,,,?????

my thoughts suddenly got messed up ,,,,

I'm stressss ,,,,,,

I'm kaluttt ,,,,,,

I'm disappointed ,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,

I kept quiet and answered not a word,,,,, no, no ,,,,,

I went straight to him

I'm going upstairs,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

and sit crying like it happens,,,,,, and,,,,

I don't know who else to talk to,,,,,,,, I don't know, who else to talk to,,,, or,,,,,,,,

I don't have any more friends to share,,,,,, I, you know,,,,,,

I just told Ama Wiwin once and now Wiwin has been gone for a long time ,,,,,,,

right now I'm really ruined ,,,,,,,,

Tampa I guess arrived my HP rang I saw my HP turned out to be Toto who phone ,,,,,,,,, I, I saw ,,,,,,,,

there's a sense of happiness,,,,,,, there's a sense of happiness,,,,,

and peace,,,, the,,,

there was a feeling of pleasure in Toto's story,,,,,,, but there was a feeling of doubt as well ,,,,,,,, , , , ' but ,,,,,,,

what if Toto was the same as all of them ,,,,,,??????

I thought and hesitated to tell the story of my troubles with Toto ,,,,,

I haven't picked up the phone in a long time

after I raised the first stale I asked the news of his son

until I became somewhat calm I ventured

confide in Toto what just happened ,,,,,,,,,,

at that time I happened to be at home alone my son went to Serly's house,,,,,,, my son ,,,,,

and Asiung is under ,,,,,,,,

I told briefly the beginning of my goal of getting married until just now Asiung's painful talk,,,,,,

"i'm tired,,,,, I'm saturated with,,,,, I'm tired,,,,,,,, I'm,,,,,,,

but all this time I've only been holding my own

I don't care about my own situation which is important my extended family is happy, but what I received yesterday made me cry to ,,,,,,

maybe that's how I feel,,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,,

may they help and accept me yes to ,,,,,,

honestly I do not.kuakin the behavior of Asiung and his family ,,,,, but I also doubt with

my brother after the incident in your house to",,,,,,,,,

from across Toto just hear

sometimes I sob because I think this burden is very heavy,,,,,, I think,,,,,,

"i'm going to Bogor to,,,, I cape I want to go first,,,,,,,,, I want to,,,,,,,

lacing for the sake of lacing makes me not strong to ,,,",

"yes already klo it for mbak calm mbak no need to be afraid

I have a house here ,,,,

except for their hitchhikers,,,,, it's, it's already been there all set yes ,,,,,, don't be afraid I pray the best for mbak Dewi ,,,,"

I felt a little relieved hearing his advice and spirit ,,,,,,,,

"but I can't pick you up

it's not 40 days so it can't go where it used to be, so I don't care just I have to not be able to ,,,,, don't get angry ya mbak ,,,,,, be careful if you make a decision ,,,,,,, not ,,,,,_,"

"not what to I understand anyway let me talk mama aja klo I'm not strong face Asiung I cape to ,,,,,, klo ,,,

klo mate still yes Alhamdulillah ,,,, but klo yep no,,,,,,,,, but,,,,,

the important thing is I'm not cheating on this to ",

I hung up from Toto ,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

there was a feeling of relief and steadiness in my heart ,,,,,,

it was only Toto talking all along

so all my problemshe kind of knows,,,,, uh,,,,

Thank God he has so much love for my spirit,,,,,,, he has,,,,,,,

this afternoon a major event happened ,,,,,,,

my throat is round

I say Asiung wants to calm himself

he immediately looked at me in shock and sharply ,,,,

I thought Asiung would be angry but beyond my expectations he calmly said,,,,,

"yes your son has brought one,,, bring the little one because he is still stubborn ,,, only you mama can take care of him ,,,,, let her taste the same me ,,,,,,the taste buds are bigger than you can talk,,,,,,, you want to go just ,,,,,, but you don't bring what ???",

he said that while laughing mocking there was a sense of annoyance and anger ,,,,,,,,,

I threw the bag I was carrying,,,, I, I ,,,,,

I took out the contents while I said ,,,,,

"yes, I'm sure I didn't bring anything

it's an ATM,,,,, this is a house key,,,,,, this is a bankbook,,,,,,,, I don't carry anything ,,",

I went in the driver's drive,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I was still looking towards Asiung and I.looks like he doesn't care at all ,,,,,,,,, look, it seems ,,,,,,,,

there is a sense of sadness and disappointment ,,,,,,,

finally I went from Asiung,,,,, I stopped by mama's house there I told her my problem and I wanted to calm down first in Bogor ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

at first papa was angry and mama did not agree after mama I gave money 6 million and I said after I arrived in Bogor I transferred again they just allowed ,,,,,,,,,, and I said ,,,,,,,

tonight I'm sleeping at my mom's house because tomorrow I'm leaving in the morning for Bogor,,,,,,,,, tomorrow,,,,,,,

but as soon as midnight he followed me on crying, telling me to go home,,,,,,,

but baby I've been heartbroken ,,,,,,,

I don't have any respect for my husband anymore,,,,,,,, I do,,,,,,,

I was really disappointed,,,,,,, ,,

along the way I still vividly remembered ,,, the way Asiung laughed as I left ,,,,,,,, , the way ,,,,,,

I was really upset but I strengthened my heart ,,,,

along the way I always comforted myself ,,,,,,

because I still have a brother in Bogor who loves me ,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

my big brother would accept me,,,,,, of course ,,,,,

after what I've been doing for them all this time ,,,,,,,

I'm sure my brother is supporting me,,,,,,,, I'm,,,,,,,,

more than anything,,,,,, any ,,,,,

I steadily came to the villa,,,,,,,,

in the hope that they will welcome me ,,,,, lovingly ,,,,

it turned out that all my hopes and fantasies were falling apart and falling to pieces,,,,,

my brother's treatment was incredibly evil,,,,,,,,

don't be welcomed to be rebuked not ,,,,,, no ,,,,,,

,there I was excommunicated ,,,,,,,

and in hate ,,,,,,,,

they were in groups to excommunicate me and my son ,,,,,,,

sad and sad about what I've done for my family ,,,,,,

I'm reminded of the time when Tuty wanted to minjem money 19jt,,,, I, I kept the money nailed to my underwear,,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

because I'm afraid of getting caught by my husband,,,,,, I.,,,,,,

I keep on being so, too ,,,,,

Koko too,,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,

my panty bag was a witness to how I fought for my family to make them happy ,,,,,,,

but what do they do when I need them ,,,,,?????

I'm tired I want them to embrace and calm my soul ,,,,,,,,

but what are they doing with me and my son ,,,,,,,???

like a piece of trash,,,,,,, like ,,,,,

oh, my God,,,,, that's, uh,,,,,,

this is the nature of my real brother,,,,,, this,,,,,,

where the softness that was once ,,,,, is ,,,,,,

where's the love he showed me where ',,,,,, where ,,,,,

now I'm poor I have nothing and they run,,,, evade,,,,

suddenly I realized,,,,,,, that ,,,,,

I cursed myself,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I'm a hypocrite ,,,,,

didn't I already know from yesterday ,,,,,,,

all my brothers have changed ,,,,,,,

it's not that I've known from yesterday about their true nature ,,,,,,, 'em ,,,,,,,

trus why still pretended not to know,,,,,,,, why,,,,,,

why are you still trying to close your eyes ,,,,,,

how stupid of me I am ,,,,,,,

why do I still cry over them ,,,,,,,

pura pura doesn't believe ,,,,,

hypocritical ,,,,,,,

I quickly wiped away my tears ,,,,,

I have to accept reality ,,,,,,,

and for sure I have to be ready from now on ,,,,,,

must be prepared with the reality that I will accept as bitter as anything ,,,,,,,,

good thing I got my own house??????

how come I don't have a house ??????

does anyone want to catch me ?????

I hugged my son Enjel when he was 4, 'th ,,,,

"mama promised me I'd do what's best for you my son,,, don't be afraid ya ,,,",

me and my son both cried,,,,,,, and,,,,,

I was finally ready to face all the bitterness I was about to accept ,,,,,

it's true it hasn't been here in a week

the gossip that says I have a relationship with Toto is spread ,,,,,,

even they have the heart of slander me if I date Ama Toto from a nice little girl,,,,,,

every ask to pick up from Lampung to Bogor I enter the hotel first ,,,,,, I ,,,,,

,Clo just in the hotel out of the hotel it's normal ,,,,,

even more sad he said I had the heart to conspire Ama Toto to find a witch doctor,,,,,,, to kill Wiwin so that I could marry Ama Toto ,,,,, ,,,

Astagfirullah is very strong, yes,,,,, yes,,,,,,

and the slander was spread in the dormitory of the deceased's house first ,,,,,,

,automatic impact with Toto right he still lives there,,,,,,, he's,,,,,,

still not satisfied until there they came to Toto's brother,,,,, the,,,,

kasian must be ashamed and irritated Toto ,,,,,,

even these two days mbak Asih ,AA began to change even their permission to leave to move to contract ,,,,,,,,

they said they didn't want to risk me still living with me here ,,,,, you know ,,,,,

the maid also asked to stop work because it was not comfortable ,,,,,,,

finally, the only thing left is Wiwin's son and I'm the same enjel ,,,,,,,

lucky school's still off so I don't bother,,,,,, uh,,,,,

the more the day the more the hate speech they exhale,,,,,, the,,,,,,

Toto's starting to feel bad like he called me this morning

"how is this brother, and parents can't bear to slander so everyone's wrong me what could be ,,,,,,?????",

" tremendous time yes ,,,,,,,

I'm sorry I don't know if you're not the one who said,,,,,, sorry

my family yes to , maybe they suspect klo we have a relationship "

" can't I be so wronged, 'I, ,,, , what's the shame ????? it was in the dormitory already on the gossip, sometimes I became lazy to go home mbak

instead of having to look them in the eye,,,,,, I'm rich in having no more price - mbak,,,,,,,,, I, you know,,,,,,,

this is all the mbak family that comes to my neighbors one by one,,,,,, one by one ,,,,,

I don't think you're really mean, really bad brother mbak ,,,',

I can't say what's ,,,,,

cause I don't know what to say,,,,,,,, that's what ,,,,,,,

I've never been out of my own house,,,,,,,, I, I never got out ,,,,,,,

shop also at the greengrocer ,,,,,

I heard Toto hang up like he was mad ,,,, ,,,,

two days later he was talking the same ,,,,,,

not if he comes to visit see his son,,,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,

even if only for a moment but every Sunday routine visit,,,,,,

if he comes I'm really happy that he's my only friend all along,,,,,,,, I'm,,,,,,

my brother no one cares about,,,,, which is hostile to me ,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,

and that's been going on for months ',,,,,,,,, ', uh ,,,,,,,,,

every day they scold me,,, blaspheme me and insult me,,,,, he says he sometimes makes me want to kill myself

a week I hold a month and two months and it's not the third ,,,, it's ,,,,,

and that he does every day sometimes even a day many times ,,,,,

long time ago I was not strong also live in terror I remember Toto ,,,,,, I ,,,,,

he's the only friend I share ,,,,,

but it's been two weeks he's never come again ,,,,,,,

where ya ,,,,,,, where ,,,,,,,

I finally tried calling him,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,

but not lifted ,,,,,

tomorrow I try again the same not raised ,,,,,,,

every day I try to call always the same ,,,,,,, I, you know ,,,,,,,

I'm starting to get sad ,,,,,,

terror often I get

but no friends share ,,,,,,

I finally wrote an SMS for Toto

" asalamualaikum ,,,,,,

to mbak don't want to talk long just tell you,,,,, if you don't pick up your son's phone I live in a cave with your son's son ,,,,,,,, I live ,,,,,,

you think the cave maid what ,,,,"

I cry after SMS Toto there is a sense of loss of a friend,,,,, I don't know who to be with,,,,,,,, I don't know ,,,,,,

while Asiung more and more days even make me more hate ,,,,,,,, even more ,,,,,,,

though my intention is only to nenangin themselves but because of his act even make me intend to divorce ,,,,,,,

it turns out Asiung did not grow up how many times I heard her talk in TLP Tampa deliberately no hape I squeeze ,,,,,

he doesn't talk but instead talks to that Laen,,,,,, he, he talks,,,,,,

and his talk is so evil,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,

I heard he wants to be betrothed to a Chinese equivalent,,,,,, that ,,,,,

"The goddess is just BEMO you can find Mercedes,, lose you cry and think she already ntar we mate you equal ,,,,"

all this time I've only been considered BEMO,,,,,, I,,,,

true that I have no meaning in the eyes of his family,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,

why do I keep this marriage ,,,,,,,

better get divorced,,,,,,, better ,,,,,,

I patiently heard Aman say

"already chia mama you're not a good mother don't think of her anymore ,,,,, she's been looking for another man,,,,, she's not loyal ,,,,,,, she's been looking for another man ,,,,,,she's not a good mom don't want her ya ,,,,,, Asiung keep chia watch out kidnapped her Mak ,,",,

and it's the same with my mom and mom

",iya chia it's not your mama anymore she's a man's madness

mending you with the word your nails yes ,, don't look for your mama ,,",

oh Allah I am so sad to hear , ,tega my mama so much Ama I said that , ,,,,,

and all this time I've been fighting to die for my family ,,,,,,,

they can live a decent life because of whose sacrifice????

why is it that when I need a defense even like this he does to me ,,,

in the afternoon, Toto calls her apologies and she tells him that it is too much of a moral burden to bear

I shut up and tried to hear, right,,,,,

"yeah, you've come here, yes, we've spoken well

I am also sad to , I am every day in terror in

phone in maki maki,,,,,

asiung's words were very painful right, I said seductress,,, I, I

A monster that killed his sister

smoothing out our affair, ', he said we had a special relationship from a nice little girl ,"

I cry and ask Toto to come to my house ,,,,, please ,,,,,

but basic Toto semprul already know I cry talking nice cake ,, let me be relieved eeee even talk that makes the cave even sadder

"sorry mbak I can't go there I don't want to get involved too far ,,,, because it's a family problem mbak ,,,,, except my wife mbak until whenever I will protect mbak Dewi_,"

geez Toto even halu again,,,,, this will even create a new problem ,, what does it mean to say that

he doesn't understand what's happened because they think we have a relationship,,,,, that ,,,,,

this is what I want to prove,,,,,,, this is,,,,,,

mean their conjecture was right dong,,,,,,,,

all this time we've been cheating,,,,,,,

no longer understand the way of mind of this child do not let him start there is the same heart I waduh sang ,,,,,,, no ,,,,,

klo really guess I can add runyam ,,,

oh Allah, there is a problem ,,,

god, if I could ask

can't matter that Dateng one one ,,,,

why isn't there yet another new problem ,,,,

but instead of him Dateng I also runt serem at home alone ,,,,, the aunt he told me to work yesterday again asking for a holiday

"yes it's more than talking on the phone mending here talking directly from the on

on the phone is not clear to ,,, fear Jaka watch later ,,, maybe klo you Dateng trus talk directly who knows we can get the best way out ,,,,, maybe ,,,,and complement each other",

answer me with a laugh,,,,, you know,,,,

"yes it's obvious that I can complete the ,,, the name is also the police ",

unexpectedly Toto's answer became chaotic,,,,,,

"it's up to you to the important thing you like Dateng trus here my good adek handsome ,,,"

heard Toto laughing crispy rich rempeyek ,,,,,

"ohhhh sorry mbak now still adek insha Allah soon so your faith hahahaha ???"

"delight to ,very intention, I don't ma ,,",

finished talking I even thought ,,, and the thought I expressed with Toto so it's not too late who knows he can rethink ,,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,

" to dread ya I'm serious if we really have a relationship especially until married means that the accused to us is true ????

don't get any more runyam so her,,,,,,,

you're not afraid????

that means we're cheating,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,

actually have a relationship,,,,,, a ,,,,,

actually get into the hotel ,,,,,

let me ask you to think again that your proposal is ,,,,,,,

do not let you mengesel,,,,, klo need you to pray istikharah first to ,,,??"

I said half-advise ,

" yes really who can say that ,,,,,,, but who knows and who lives our way mbak and if we get married also we who know what kind of journey our story ,,,,,,

I don't care anymore about those who matter God is always with us ",,,

o God of Toto's foundation he still aja ngeyel,,, while taking a breath I said

"yes it's been here aja mumpung still afternoon we talk so it can be long, I wait ya me ",,, I'll wait ",,

"yes wife-to-be ,,,",

I hung up his phone and waited for him to come,,,,, Toto's true clo proved his wahhhh speech can this great war,,

and for sure I'm his target ,,,,, the ,,,,

because neither of my parents would be silent ,,,,

they must be furious and will punish me in any way from rude to subtle from kyai to shaman ,,,,

sure it's gonna happen,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,

and I'm definitely going to be his target ,,,,

o Allah, do not forsake me, May Allah give strength, for the war has not yet begun ,,,,,,