A Tattered Heart
chapter 16's

Thank goodness,,,,,,,

it's a good thing my husband came home so quickly that I wasn't too late in the grief,,,,,,,,, I was,,,,,,,,

honestly it's so hard to forget all the bitter memories that our loved ones,,,,, make, make,,,,,,

"when's the 'coming home,,,,, you're not gonna open the gate ????,,,,,",

papa smiled and sat down beside me

"mom again cool daydreaming,,,, until papa comes do not know,,,,,,, again think what is the dear ,,,,????"

"ah no ,,, just a little snot adek ,,,,",

"oh yes talking about the adek problem earlier Kokok Dateng to the office but

it just so happened that when he came to Dateng I just started meeting ,,,,,

so I just go into the room first,,,,, I ,,,,

I think he's gone home not knowing he's still waiting ,,,," ,

"oh time reward ,,, ask for help what is so important to be willing to wait ,,,,????",

"that's the divorce problem that's stuck in his office,,,, like his, there's a tackle so he can't get out "

", what's the problem to involve the relevant officials ???hmmm he means why get to the check and at the ,,,????"

"somewhat complicated also the ,,,,, his wife who sued Koko's divorce once the new process began to run according to the complaint of his wife turned out Koko has pny girl simpenan memati koko cheating,,,,,,, and,,,,that makes his wife disappointed ,,,,,,, whose wife had wanted to divorce for material reasons once Koko had a simple wife again in canceled her divorce suit,,,,,,,,, and so on,,,,,,

so confused is also the problem before divorce they have separated the house for 3, years,,,,, it's too.long ,,,,,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,

maybe here his wife's side changed their mind because they saw their son was 4,,,,,added the wife is not willing if the wife who became a mistress was the person who had caused the destruction of their household ,,,,,,",

the word papah at length ,,,,

" o Allah,,,,, there were only ,,, when one new child asked for a divorce did not want to even tell his wife continues now so already have 4 children,,,,,, and so on,,,,, even want a divorce is that easy to make a divorce decision ,,,,,,,

they think taking care of the child resulting from the divorce is easy ,,,???...",

",if I'm the real mah do not care let them want what was the problem mamak also called for please tell help to solve his business Koko ,,,,,,, please ,,,,,

want to deny how not to be honest I'm still hurt as well as koko,,,"

papah took a very long breath ,,,,,,,

"yes already pah klo papa can help you,,,, not good same mama ,,,,, yes ,,, the problem Koko ntar thanks or not inget or not ya justin aja,,,, let Allah repay him ,,,",

",oh yeah, I told you there's something you want to talk about, ,, how do you want to go there ,,,,,,,???",

"yeah pah klo papa who asked that indeed mama can refuse ,,,,,,,,???",

I pinched his cheek and papa hugged me again ,,,,,

that afternoon I went to see Mama ,,,,, I ,,,,

as usual, I brought you some food and money,,,,,,, and,,,,,,

wahhhh could be a trending topic,,,,

", the asalamualaikum ,,,,???

ma,,,,Ben,,nen,,,,",

I call the name of the resident of the house mama

"waalaikumsalam ohhhh mbak Dewi,,, tumben mbak here at noon ,,,,,,,

oh yeah how's it going????,"

Neno immediately kissed my hand, I went up to my mom and shook hands and hugged her,,,,,,,,, I, I hugged her ,,,,,,,,

mama looks happy to welcome my arrival ,,,,

not long after that my mother and mother came ,,,,,

there's an uncomfortable feeling of wanting to cuddle,,,, but there's no way ,,,,,

not done yet I think the two of them arrived they went in ,,,,,,

" o,,,,,, tumben together here his rich man covenant ya ,,,,,,,"

we hugged and sat down with me trying to get used to them

although sometimes pain and hate are still present in my heart,,,,

every time they meet the two of them want to feel cursing or go fast so don't have to meet them ,,,,,,

but how else would I still look at mama ,,,,,,

not good tip her later mama gets mad at me ,,,, I'm the maki maki ,,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I heard my husband talking about his arrival here ,,,

I saw the reaction of Asih and mbak kus ,,,

mbak Asih seemed to be seneng and agreed klo I helped Koko ,,,

face two sucks

inget I just came to my villa with my son enjel,,,,, I ,,,,

notya accepted me with a feeling of happiness and nurture as the oldest brother even participated in the spread of vile slander ,,,,,

it hurts a lot if you take ,,,,

instead she and her husband told the neighbors who lived around my house first

klo she wanted to leave my house in the old column ,,,,, she came over to my mom who was sitting around gathering,,,,,,,,, she was,,,,,,,

"teteh ,,, Bu Hajj maybe soon I move house because this house wants to be in the same place that has his ,,,,,,,,, this ,,,,,,,

she was divorced from her Chinese husband ,,,,,

and want to marry the same widower who recently left his wife,,,,,,, and,,,,,,

that's the father whose son I take care of ,,,,",

", eta saha mbak is not it's own adek ???",

",that's rich tea no Laen even though her husband is handsome rich and good but instead left chasing poor men who just left his wife",

",that's not the golden one who likes anther where is the rich driver, right ,,, adek period still want ????after all adek teteh right beautiful time want Ama difficult people ???if it is not wrong when his wife is sick he is also the one who ngobatin there???,,, why so died even her husband was taken yes ,,,,,",

"yes it was tea, maybe because often met so Bogoh ???who knows if he had a relationship from before his wife got sick or his wife got sick because they knew they had a relationship and found out his wife?,,,,,,, the situation is we don't know ,,,,,",

"ah time mbak said adek mbak good ???",

",yes, I don't know also tea,,, it's good, but if love affairs are hard not Mandang adek tea ,,,,",

"so that ngobatin here and there tea just pura aja tea so as not to be caught he cheated the same adek his brother-in-law ,,,,,,,, let's not be caught ,,,,,,

oh, God,,,,, God, is ,,,,,

there are yes brother and sister alike alone ,,,,,,,",

"eating it rather than me a splash of sin also mending me move ,,,"

" yes the mending tea is ,,,,"

since then all the neighbors have seen me cynical,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

it's often gossiping that I'm passing through ,,,,,,

at first I didn't care but long ago I told the same old maid ,,,,

and she started talking all her troubles,,, but strangely her after aunt told her all she immediately asked to stop ,,,,,,

the reason this family is troubled and aunty does not want to follow ,,,,,,,,

or fear the laughter bring it later,,,,,, or,,,,,

it doesn't make sense, but it does if it wants it ,,,,,, it does ,,,,,,

since aunt went automatic I took care of all three children papa child plus my son one so all four people ,,,,

but since aunt came out

now it's even stranger,,,,,,,, it's, it's,,,,,,,,

because every 5 o'clock in the morning ,,,,

mbak Asih went from his alesan house to help mbak kus ,,,

like dodging me, ,,,, like ,,,,

I know for sure this is because my family often talked about me and they were very unhappy with my decision to separate from Asiung,,,,,, and so on,,,,

but don't be like this what I expected ,,,,,,

should have a good talk ,,,,,

or admonish me like an older brother with his sister,,,,,, like ,,,,,,

perhaps with his maturity attitude in giving good input both wise and loving may be his circumstances different ,,,,,,

and back into my husband's arms Asiung ,,,,,,

but this is just the opposite of ,,,,,

until one day I accidentally waited for his arrival ,,,

I'm the little sister who's been talking to her, heart to heart ,,,,,

I think maybe this way I can still find the love and sincerity of a big brother and at least I know what the hell they want ,,,,,,

I definitely miss my sister's love

"why is it so different that I am now not rich first , used to be a good adult and understanding now mbak so stiff and look deliberately avoid if you want to meet me what is it ????,,,"

mbak Asih diem while smiling a smile

but his smile was not a friendly smile that was nice to see,,,,,,, that was,,,,,,,

",let me get it wrong I'm sorry, ,, I want us to be like we used to be ????",

mbak Asih diem and took a breath for a moment and spoke ",

",yes, I must avoid you I don't want to get involved and end up being blamed ,,,honestly I also still want your treatment the same Wiwin first and every time I want that incident I really hurt the same you ,,,,,,,I feel guilty for following you in support of that time ,,,,,, especially when you drive Wiwin out of my house ,,,,,,because you threatened mama and papa also finally did not want to be occupied Wiwin emang wrong yes he married bang SAN,, you still remember how you treated to Wiwin at that time ,,,,,,????!,

and if now I do the same thing with you or our family doing the same thing as you did with Wiwin first,,,,, yes you have to accept it's just,,,,"

I'm surprised to be really surprised ,,,,

oh, my God,, that's, uh,,,,

so I have a grudge with me ,,,,, because Wiwin ,,,, and you are really hurt because my behavior with Wiwin first ,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,

oh, God,,,,,, God, you ,,,,,,

it turns out this is because of revenge in the past when the event was 8 years ago maybe more ,,,,,, and yet the problem is different ???,,,

lost my hope ,,,,,

lost my wishful thinking ,,,

missing my guess ,,,,,,

all destroyed ,,,,,,, all ,,,,,

my only hope is a dream during the day ,,,,,,,

I haven't lost my shock because I'm still feeling compassion ,,,,,,,

"you didn't have a kasian kasian with Wiwin,,,,,, that ,,,,,

he can't stay at my place,,,, even, you threaten me if I still want to put Wiwin all the help from you you will stop ,,,,, you know ,,,, finally I had to talk to Wiwin .,,,,,,,,, I .,,,,,,,,

turns out that Wiwin's malem miscarry directly do not know what to drink,,,,,,, I'm saddened to see the SAN cry ,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,

for losing his son-in-law,,,,, for ,,,,

Wiwin his face was so pale I cried guilty to Wiwin ,,,,, this is all because of you ,,,,,,,,,, this ,,,,,,,

finally in the morning he came home to Lampung ,,,,

just so you know it turns out he didn't come home to the SAN bang but he left SAN,,,,,,,, he did,,,,

on the road because of a fight ,,,,,

and Wiwin became a bum on the streets,,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,

two days sleeping on the road fortunately he pinter he came by the police station by phone to the house of mama if you do not know how his fate ,,,,, how evil you used to fit again jaya ,,,,,"

like being struck by lightning I was in shock sitting down staring down at the icy floor ,,,,

o Allah

it turns out all this was out of a vendetta ,,,,,

a grudge that saved years,,,,

or maybe decades,,,,,, maybe, decades ,,,,,,,,

o Allah it turns out to be ,,,,,,,

like this, it's actually ,,,, it's, like ,,,,,

all this time all I saw was pseudo it turns out that I was kind to the outside in my heart still disliked me ,,,,,,,, by trying to calm down I tried to explain the real problem,,,,why do I act like that ,

" ,let me explain the truth ,,,,,, as long as I know my problem with Wiwin's problem is different ,,,everyone knows that Wiwin is working because it replaced my job and my position in the office ,,,,,,,,, because I was married ,,, , , 'Asiung told me to stop working ,,,,,,,

automatically the office will look for the person who replaced me ,,,,,,

so from my position in place of someone else I proposed Wiwin to replace my position in the office and I promised to teach him until he could ,,,,,, I promised ,,,,,

coincidentally, I was still living as one mom,,,,,, and the office guy agreed,,,,, after I gave my job, my position, the same salary ,

but Wiwin even did the inappropriate ,,,,",

I paused for a moment to see the reaction of the pity at that time,,,,, but why was his face flat without expression,,,,,,,,, but,,,,,,,

yes it's important that I have explained ,,,,, that ,,,,,

then I went on again ,,,,,

"in Bang san's office it used to be regional manager,,,, I used to be very close to him,,,,,,,, I was,,,,,

that's why I put Wiwin same bang SAN ,,,,, Wiwin also know that if the SAN bang is the husband of the person ,,,,,,, Wiwin also know that if the SAN bang is the husband of the person ,,,,

Wiwin knows his son there are two and the same age as Wiwin,,,, I also once gave a warning when I heard from his office temen saying that I should nasehati Wiwin not disturb the husband of people ,,,,, and try to warn them not to continue the forbidden relationship ,,,,,,,,

I have also advised Wiwin I say you are beautiful,,,,,, young ,,,,,,, home is also already luxurious ,,,,,,,,,,,,,, you ,,,,,,,

want to find a rich and respectable man you can ',,,,,,, you can ,,,,,,,

why bother the husband of a man mbak ,,, ,,,, just so you know that Bang SAN's wife came to my complex and told me about Wiwin's behavior and said that her brother was in this complex married to a Chinese man who had a iron shop how I am not ashamed why would you put this face where ,,,,,,???? I used to have a lot of girlfriends, but never before has the name bothered people's husbands ",

I told a long story explaining why I did that

"i've often advised klo to make a disgrace not in his own village shame kasian there are parents, please think your brother is also ,,,,,,,,, please ,,,,,, please do you want to do anything original in the region so not until your family and so embarrassed because of your actions ,,,,,,???if I were strict with Wiwin, would I be wrong,,,,,,????ya nyari my work that makes her pass the job langsng yes I,,,, she instead said aki envious of a duck for fear in her beauty rival ,,,,,,,?????it's weird ,,,,",

I took a deep breath,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

suddenly I was talking,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,

.

"the problem is that the cave does not know, the cave knows the cave feels guilty and regrets ngusir Wiwin

from the cave house in a sick state and I did that because of pressure from you.",

",okay mbak klo emang In your eyes I'm a terrible monster,,,,, yes it's up to ,,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,

nice and lucky to be Wiwin yes even though the mistake is fatal but a big family still want to help and love and love and protect her ,,,,, and ,,,, wiwin never did anything for this family ,,, but I'm the one who's lost sacrificing for the family ,,,,,

as soon as I make a mistake that's not severe,,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,,

even I think I'm not guilty at all ,,,, let alone to destroy the happiness of other people's households ,,,,,,,

but why was I treated like a man so despicable and so disgraceful, that I had to be cast out and ostracized,,,,,,, and,,,,

how different your treatment between me and Wiwin but yes I have accepted it still does not matter if you want to move from this house please mbak I am okay let this be possible it's my destiny to be thrown out of the family,,,,,",

I got up and went into room ,,,,,,

I was crying so ',,,,, I was ,,,,

I thought I'd like to persuade me to make it back and calm my mind,,,, hug me lovingly ,,,,,, it turns out to be far roasted from Fire ,,,,,,,,,,,, it turns out ,,,,,,,,.

and now every time he sees her he wants to escape it's like ,,,,,,

if I can avoid it I avoid ,,,,,, if I can ,,,,,

let's not meet ',,,,,,, let's ,,,,,,

not content to hurt me with his grudges he also Dateng to my husband's dormitory to spread evil slander between me and my husband before we get married ,,,,,,,,

long time ago I didn't see her arriving to meet ,,,,,,,

it doesn't feel strong,,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,,

suddenly my shoulders arrived like someone was patting,,,

",the bucket from earlier bengong ,,, what's the matter ????",

I was so shocked that he was so shocked that he jumped ,,,,,

papah turned his head and like his papa knew klo I was thinking of something not wearing,,,, I was trying to smile ,,,,,,,, I was ,,,,,,,

"trus how else to see Koko's children already here all ,,, now who take care of mama all ,,,,,,, all ,,,,,kasian right old mama Udah klo still have to take care of the little boy again mending if giving money

boro boro,,, all that money mama"

oh it turns out they're still discussing the problem of Koko ya ,,,,,,

I quickly mastered myself and my feelings ,,,,

so that they don't suspect ,,,,,