A Tattered Heart
chapter 13's

After the incident Bagas was no longer spirit ,,,,

I noticed that he did not do zikir he did ,sholat also origin ,,,,, , 'em ,,,,

it's different when he wants a list of stars,,,,, or ,,,,

diligent prayer finished praying zikir ,,,,,

so nothing goes past that ,,,,,

hadeuhhhh diligent worship klo no want aja aja ,,,,

Bagas emang rather different from other children ,,,,,

his style is rancid let alone the same his sister ,,,,

how to dress while still in school did not want to be the same as other children ,,,,,,

want to look klimist,,,,,, you,,,,,

if the matter of appearance he really pays attention to ,,,

from the hair ,

clothes, 'em ,

his face was treated so that he could be climatic

clothes if he wants to wear even though it has been rubbed by someone else

he will not fit and be satisfied once he wants to use for sure he rub again until slippery and very fragrant,,,,,,, he said,,,,,

rich pansy through ,,,,,,,

the size of the shirt should also pres the body leeway bit only go directly to the seamstress bersilin,,,,,,,, just go ,,,,,

wear pants also it should be pres body ,

he doesn't want to be a little loose a little bit ,,,,,,,

in the eyes of her friend she always wants to look perfect ,,,,,,,

unlike his two brothers ,,,,

sisulung and sibungsu,,,

wear a uniform is natural even klo loose it feels free to move ,,,,,,,

same with Bagas

in the school Bagas also want to be said wahhhh,,,,,,

rich man's son,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,

the pocket money must be more,,,, not the same as his brother,,,,,, not the same,,,,,,

if not followed

end of his end he stole his brother's money,,,,,, he stole his brother's money ,,,,,

if asked to shop his money back is never in love ,,,, ,,,

if the shopping money can not be taken, take the money in the canteen drawer ,,,,,,,,,,

if he's not going to lie, it's important to make money for his school management treat, hang out at school,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,

it's all to support her style in front of her friends hanging out her ,,,,,,,,,,

a bad reputation,,,,,, a ,,,,,,

it's bad to be reprimanded for his mistakes, that,,,, that ,,,,,

he immediately shouted,,,, angry,,,,, ,

berserk,,,,,,

nonjok wall

or abstinence anyway all his behavior is not good and make people to ,,,,,

her seneng angled us to make a mosquito ,,,,,,,,

I sometimes think this is lucky that someone else's daughter has kicked me out of the house ,,,,,,,,,, , ' I've been kicked out of the house ,,,,,,,,

his mouth is that geez not strong,,,,, that's ,,,,

though the boy but the pedesnya rich chili ,,,,,

that's why I also so often mengeluarin word bad yes because he who maksa ,,,,,

her style is ,,,,

look at your own family ,,,,,

,but friendly and courteous is great if with others,,,,, his imagery is a whiz ,,,,,,,

and other people outside the house don't expect,,,,,,

don't even believe that Bagas is what we complain about,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

so it's not as good as if we're looking for the fault of the child ,,,,,,

in the past the husband also so often do not accept if we talk about the shortcomings especially until angry Bagas ,,,,,,

even sometimes ngajakin noisier and talk as if we slander Bagas ,,,,, not infrequently defend and turn to look for our ugliness ,,,,,

that way Bagas feel victorious and relaxed if doing wrong ,,,, makes us feel papa favoritism ,,,,,,

I think it's only natural that papa doesn't see you and sees you in person,,,,, you know ,,,,,

at reasonable papa always never believe if the behavior of Bagas as we complain ,,,,

want to not want us to be a frequent fight because of the lack of Bagas ,,,,

sometimes papa often brings up my past mistakes ,,,,,,

this went on for years,,,,,, this ,,,,,

until finally the employee lives one and the work of papa in the office is not as busy as it used to be,,,,,,, and ,,,,,

papa started helping in the canteen anything more after papa came home from education at that time had not been poured into the office so his status was still a central member while waiting for the spill ,,,,,

papa is unemployed for quite a long time and automatically every day from morning to go home in the canteen ,,,,,

from there finally know for yourself what the behavior of Bagas actually ,,,,,,

coincidentally

that afternoon papa just came home from the apple office ,,,,,,

looks so rich cape, so I told him to rest first sleep behind ,,,,

,all of a sudden the bagas came home from school late,,,,,, uh,,,,

when I called the teacher and his friend today there was no lesson ,,,,,,

so go home early ,,,,,, I'm starting to worry about this kid going where ,,,,????

I'm calling here and there I happen to have his friend's phone number,,,,,,, I happen to have ,,,,,,

they said Klo was home from 9 a.m

today there is no lesson ,,,,,,, no ,,,,,,,

kok Bagas has not come home yet I began to tell papa Bagas behavior,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

we all wait with please worry ,,,,,,,, please ,,,,,,,

about 3 and a half hours Bagas just came home with the style of Tampa sin I've been waiting for him immediately I rebuked ,,,,, ,,,,,, I ,,,,,, ,,,,

her style nyelow so ,,, sook innocent ,,,,,

in fact he said he ran away because he was afraid of being scolded by mama ,,,,,, 'cause ,,,,,

I wait for him to finish talking,,, I start talking his truth ,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,

not his shameful thinking of apologizing ,,,,

yeah as usual ,,,,,,, yeah ,,,,,

the style comes out

insistent,,,

angry,,,,

and an oath of oaths ,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,

he started yelling and lower me ,,,,,,,,

papah who had known from the beginning of his blood rise ,,,,,

finally papa came out ,,,,,,,,

Bagas was very surprised to see that there was his papa ,,,,,,

missing his imaging of the same papa now

you know everything from the beginning to the end ,,,,,,,,

withstanding the overwhelming anger at his approach Bagas unexpectedly Bagas in slap,,,

in kick , at ,,,,

there is compassion but on the other hand I am grateful now that papa knows what exactly it is like,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,

so don't think I'm being unfair and always looking for faults Bagas kept ,,,,,

after papa found out and was often in.Kantin I was often a fool

if Bagas do the most I talk to papa later papa who says he is at length,,,,,,,,, papa who says he is at length,,,,,,

even always wrong in the eyes of papa ,,,,,

apparently papa penitenti nature Bagas ,,,,,,

if Bagas was a playful,,,,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,,

thank goodness the truth finally unfolds itself ,,,,,,,,,

papa words that are often said like to find out the Bagas problem,,,, not heard anymore now replace the child kok JD continued problems ,,,,, and ,,,,

if in time I think I'm looking for my own son's faults,,,,,,,, I'm looking for ,,,,,,,

the three of them who they are my son ,,,,

I took care of them from childhood

of them can't yet be anything ,,,,,,

When I was a kid, it was stuttering when I said,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,,

even though he was two years old, he often cried at his brother's teasing,,,,,,,, he said ,,,,,,,

finally teach me to talk until I say 'pinter ,,,,,,

inget time adek her to talk

"sir Bagas thought first if you talk about it don't say it first just think ,,,,,,"

that's the word adeknya so Bagas that if you talk really long,,,, every talk we ingetin ,,,,,,, every ,,,,,

ee after the pinter talked instead to her mama 'volunteer ,,,,,,

children are still in small childhood when the mother left ,,,

jd I take care of them still bothered her ,,,,

rich kids themselves

until now also my treatment with the three of them is the same ,,,,,,,

but yes only Bagas who always be impolite with me ,,,,,,

did she never think of me as her mother huh ,,,,,,,

it hurts my heart too often.,,,

The chart changes from Junior High School until the graduation of SMA ,,,,,,

sometimes if I'm lazy he wants me to cuekin aja,,,,,, he wants ,,,,

it's up to him,,,,, it's up to him ,,,,

especially if the Bagas food problem selects ,,,,,,,

klo only cook vegetables only ,,,,,,

he doesn't want to touch,,,,,, he doesn't want to touch ,,,,,

once twice papa did not pay attention to long time also found ,,,,,

Papa nagged again but Bagas didn't care,,,,,

it's strange that the omelin every day does not change ,,,,,,

taken to a hajj sir who has boarding already,,,,,

pinter licked tongue ,,,,,

different speech pinter turn the talk makes us sprain,,,,, sometimes embarrassed as if we made ,,,,,,,,, sometimes ,,,,,

like yesterday ,,,,,,, like ,,,,,,

this is the boy coming to see the real ,,,,,

"Ma Bagas do not need to be happy in coconut two yes make a list tomorrow ,, , ,,,,,,, make a list ,,, ,,,,,

kasian mama ntar mama hard to find her fee ,,,,,

moreover, the canteen has closed,,,,, and ,,,,,,

let Bagas own physical exercise klo want to learn to learn by yourself can also make what waste money nyari money is also again difficult ",

the three of us are surprised how Bagas tumben can think real ,,, Alhamdulillah has changed ,,,,,,

that afternoon I happened to talk about the preparation for Bagas bimbel ,,,,,

I say again the Bagas talk with the three of us yesterday ,,,,,,,

"sorry, the four of us just kept talking

by the way he does not want bebel ,,,,,, the power if the bimbel is only ngabisin money only ,,,,,,,",

I see papa was a bit surprised ,,,,,

and I started to continue

"said Bagas ngapain bimbel if only for the preparation of a list,,,,,,, if only for the preparation of a list,,,,

he himself is also able to say that bimbel is just a waste of money,, mending to really teeth,,,,,, bodies,,,,, feet ,,,,,aja,,,,

Bagas said it was "

beyond suspicion papa was immediately angry,,,,

"this is old child long time no cemin only if I sprain ,,, it's up to want to be a person or not ,, call his child ,,,,,,",

as soon as Bagas down papa instantly angry ,,,,,

"want you what ????you want to arrange yourself,, you want to,,,, yes it's up to you,, but if you fail this year don't turn on the parents,,,,,, you know,,,,because this is all you want ,, you want to repeat yourself I don't know because , next year papa has focused on taking care of you again and he can't slide ,,,, and ,,,,

so the time you stay this year if you don't want to be directed is already ,, your own risk,,,,,",

good finish answering ,,,,,

and the answer was for me shock,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,

"not so good Bagas said so because his mom who was neken Bagas ,,,,",,,

astagfirullah,,,,, the,,,,

I'm in such a shock why blame me ,,,,,,,????

o Allah this is a more insolent child,,,,,,,,

how can you talk like this,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,

I gotta talk

"you know your mom who is neken you are,,,,,, you are ,,,,,,

you're not thinking about talking?????

call brother and ask him to come here as a witness ,,, ,,,

What did you just say ,,,,

from the first also if talking is always so to other mama to papa also other you are very outrageous yes so the child ,,,,,,,you realize that your words are already slanderous mama telek is gas ,,,,,,??????

at that time you also talked at the place of the Hajj sir ,,,,,,,

you said,,, have a mama, how does her work with the Ama father's lamb,,,,,!!!!?????

klo like this the incident means who likes to ngadu sheep ?????

prove whose mouth is evil ,,, ,,,,,,,

inget you are still a burden parents,,,,, your mouth and behavior is this how will you try ?????,

papa seemed to doubt me and began to believe ,,,,,,

o Allah ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

how is it that Bagas his son and papa always boast Bagas to everyone,,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,,

o Allah ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

why that child

I foster from small,,,,,, I,,,,,

from not being able to talk until I've been talking now chiseling me ,,,,

fortunately, her sister

just take the attitude ,,,,,,

it tells us all good words from beginning to end ,,,,,,,,

it all makes the bagas can't wart anymore ,,,,,

finally papa really angry same Bagas ,,,,

but the tip of his tip Bagas said different again ,,,

just turn me on ,,,,,,,,

"then if Bagas join the billboard if Bagas does not pass must be in the wrong of the same mama ,,,,,

rich time brother did not pass STSN yesterday ",

I'm a head bobble,,,,,, I,,,,,

papa too

"that's natural right pa his name is also parents want his son pinter, just that the parents are in fact children if you fail to mean you are not serious about learning????

because the bimbel is not a little money you know tens of millions of ,,,

natural klo mama nudet you to escape ,,, where is it wrong???? the important thing is you seriously learn if you fail the second or third test mama not how disappointed really ?????but if rich brother new nongol already kendang natural dong mama not satisfied mama angry humane it ,,,,,,,,,, mama ,,,,,,,

moreover, what you join the bill corresponds to what you want to list,,,,

it's natural that mama salahin you ,,,

yes at least you fall it's tested next don't start early already fall out ,"

I explained at length his reasons ,,,,

as usual, the end of Bagas diem can not say ,,,,

papa looks really annoyed at Bagas ,,,,,,,

the end if you really have gone ,,,,,,

oh, my God,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,

having a child feels like having a rival ,,,,

even worse ,,,

since that incident, papa has never discussed the problem of Bagas again ,,,,,,

I don't know if I don't understand it either, because the registration time is next year,,,,,,,,, maybe,,,,,,,

free is also discussed now ,,,,,,,

finally time passed

poltekkes entrance test time has started ,,,

brother is ready to take the test ,,,,,,

happened to be in Bogor ,,,,,

all of his participants there were 1530 pretty much ,,,

I pray that the last brother is,,,,, I pray ,,,,,

the time of announcement arrived

Thank God no sister there she entered 10,

big ,,,

berati continued the test kebandung ,,,,,,,

we and our family went to Bandung to make anther sister health test,,,,,

coming home from there we were waiting for the next test result ,,,,, we were ,,,,,

may God pass again ,,,,,

the day we are waiting for arrives

Thank goodness,,,,,,,

brother escaped again

from the top 10 up to the top 5 ,,,,

wow, I'm so calm ,,,,

stay one more interview test ,,,,,

this time I don't want to bring papa

I'm at home waiting for the story,,,,,,, I'm,,,,,,

"ma time the brother participated in the interview very soon the new feeling came in already out again ,, whereas the older brother temen there who first entered aja not out yet out mah"

papa looks excited ,,,,,,

why I'm so scared, ',,,,, uh ,,,,,

sister accepted what not really cepet really interview her ,,,,

o Allah may you be the best brother in Poltekkes Negri ,,

let me finish my one task and one lead my son to success ,,,,,,,

long time also this announcement papa looks impatient waiting ,,,,, this time ,,,,

",brother has come out yet his announcement????" asked papa to brother kemarenar

",not yet the reward ",

brother nyamperin I'm sitting watching tv,, _, I,

",mah papa kok can not wait very yes it continues ,,,, every day you know the big brother to be confused "

sister started talking ,,,,,,

",why trus ?????is it natural that sister ????",

brother shrugged his shoulders and continued to smile ,,,,,,

I also really can't wait for the announcement of brother ,,, enter not ya ?????

but if I'm just waiting for them to tell me,,,,,,,, they're, you know ,,,,,,,

different from the same papa here and there, papa nyari again through hp ,,,,,,,,,

the day that is always awaited finally comes also ,,,,

announcement of the results of the exit interview test ,,,

Thank God my brother escaped again and I got into Poltekkes ,,,,, and ,,,,,

tuesday we and the family were re-listing,,,,, and ,,,,

all of you pay UKT,,,,,5,2jt,,,,, you,,,,,

Thank God my son finally entered ,,,,,,,

it feels like ,,,,, ''bout ,,,,

it doesn't matter the money in WH is forfeited,,,,,,, it does,,,,,

the important thing is that he got caught in Poltekkes ,,,,,,,

next year just take care of Bagas ,,,,,,,

but if you look at the personal stuff like this. I'm not even sure I can follow the rules that

it's there later on,,,,,,,,,, it's, it's there later on ,,,,,,,,,

hopefully when the time comes the bagas can turn out to be good,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,,

and hopefully we can get through and be accepted as we both hoped,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,