A Tattered Heart
chapter 2's

now officially' I've become Asiung's mistress,, having a handsome husband, valiant ,with a typical heavy voice with a dream husband who is even more he is a prospective entrepreneur and descendant of a family that needs to be taken into account because all his brothers are successful in entrepreneurship,,,,,, and,,,,

Asiung has 9 sisters and 2 brothers and he's the youngest brother but he's got a sister one so right her she's the youngest consort ,

after we married our own lives she lived with her mom and I with my mom, she came home sometimes 2 or 3 days

understand our place is different he in Kotabumi and I in sukamaju about 12 km from his house to my house

not to mention she had to take care of her building,,,,,, definitely a cape ,,,,,,,,,,, for sure ,,,,,,,,

so I'm not gonna bother about that

it's important to me that I'm married ,,,

over a month we parted at first the gossip of the neighbors just a little longer and began to disturb my comfort ,,,, this is the beginning of the tempest began

this morning mama called me ,,,,

I know for sure it's a matter of neighborly talk ,,,,,

"wi was malem your father went to school asked the same education minister how the continuation of your marriage ??? what will be in boyong to Kotabumi or tetep stay here ,,,,,,,,??????Asiung is also rarely seen ,,,,???",

mama started opening papa's confidences,,,,,

", um when your papa came home from the RT group he was called RT sir he asked the problem of the continuation of your marriage ,,,,,,, they were afraid you were made a mistress or not ,,,,,,??? he also said that rich there are no more bachelors,,,,,, no, no more ,,,,,,

is the bachelor here less good than Asiung ,,,??????

,let alone mbak Dewi is beautiful, educated , looking for money is also pinter , the customer can also want to be used as a mistress ,????? do I need to reprimand his Asiung ,,,,,,, ???,,,,,,

you're a darling, what's it like to be rebuked so ,,,,,,,????must be shy ,,,, ,,,,,??????

now you want to ask the truth Asiung is actually to marry you or not to wi,,,,,,,,,

or you just become a mistress

like they've been saying all this time ,,,,,,,,,??????",

ask mama Rada angry,,,,,,,,,,

I take a breath,,,, there's a feeling of sprain,,,,,,,, there's ,,,,,,,,

the tip of the tip Asiung again blamed,,,,,,,,

not his mom and dad already know the problem of both of us ???

I answered mommy's question,,,,, I ,,,,

"ma,, not her mama and papa already knew the problem from the beginning between me and Asiung

,,,,,?????

who makes the marriage cepet cepet not all of you,,,,,,????? I told you Asiung is not ready yet ,,,,,,!!????but doesn't anyone want to hear ',,,,,, what ,,,,,,,???

he said it was important that a legal marriage was done ,,,,,,,,???? in fact it's not that easy, is it ma ,,,,,, all it takes process ,,,,,,,?????well, I don't want to be put here,,,,,,, you know, you know,,,,,,,,

but mama don't have to worry,,, because Asiung also made a shophouse for where I live ma, because the structure is not yet so while I'm here ,,,,,,???'",

I tried to be calm not to be lured ,,,,,,,

mama just kept quiet trying to hear ',,,, lantas

I continued

"it's just that I have to be patient,,,,, don't demand too much ,,,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,

for me while this is staying apart it doesn't matter ma ,,,,,,

because I already knew it was going to be like this eventually,,,,, because Asiung doesn't have a place,,,,,,,, yet,,,,,,

it's a shophouse that's not finished yet,,,,,,,, it's,,,,,,,

don't we all know, do we, uh ,,,,,???then why did papa's mother become restless and even laughed at the neighbor's speech ???"

I'm talking seriously,,,,, I ,,,,

mama took a deep breath and then spoke ,,,,,,,

"yes mama also understands,,,, but the neighbor always has papa you,,,?!?, we answered this already,,, is,,,,

just let them have your status why is it still tipped here ????,,,"

that's really the neighbor's talk,,,,,, that's ,,,,,

o Allah says neighbor again ,,,,

want to get to when this family always thinks about the words of people ,,,,,,

"ma I'm pregnant again Asiung's child ,,,,, there's no way Asiung can't think of my situation ,,,,,,, he's a prospective father ,,,,,???

oh yes tomorrow I want to check,,, next morning my husband will come and let this matter be told later

with Asiung ya ,,,,, all of you I also want to ask,,,,, does his family already know or have we married ,,,,,,,, mama who is patient huh?????",

done talking I'm standing straight in the room,,,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,

since marriage I've never been out of the most-washed house at home ,,,,,

males look at the face of a neighbor ,,,,,,

whose work ngerumpi ,,,,,

gossiping,,,,,,

hadeuhhhh less work ,,,,

this afternoon Asiung Dateng I was very fond of ,,,,, but he brought shocking news ,,,,,

he told his extended family to gather and wanted to meet me ,,,,,,

somebody wants to talk about it he said,,,,,,

there's a fear of ,,,,,,

her smile scared her a little, a lot,,,,,

kebayang face judes, galak, cynical, his brother udh make goosebumps

but how else is this process that I have to go through also ,,, you don't want to like not like ,,,,,,

I finally started to prepare myself,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I also dandan alakadarnya,,,,,,,

that night I went together to meet the Asiung family all the way I felt was was,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

it's not imagined what it would be like if I were dealing with Asiung's family,,,,,,, that, that ,,,,,,,,

o Allah

may God help me ,,,,,,,,

arriving at the big house I think this is Asiung's mom's house,,,,,, I think ,,,,,

this is the home of her sister named

Safe ,,,,,,,,

true as I thought

his face is not very friendly if he is not friendly ,,,,,,,,, he is ,,,,,,,,

kind of judes but not really,,,,,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,,

I started to prepare for feelings ,,,,,,,,

I met her bangs and she introduced me to this mbak qeiu qeiu Asiung,,,,,,

all see I'm afraid of fear ,,,,,,

I'm just a little smile,,,,,,,, I, you know,,,,,,,,,,

From Aman's house I proceed to Asiung's mommy's house,,,,,, I, you know ,,,,,,

the distance between Mami's house with Safe is quite far we ride the car Safe ,,,,,,

finally arrived at the house of Asiung's mother.,,,,,,, as well.,,,,,,

hmmmmm,,,, shop, too

this Asiung papa heritage house is quite neat big even though it is full of merchandise,,,,,

with a feeling of gurgling I climbed the stairs I saw the servants again huddled and pointed at me, ,,,,

on the third floor is a fairly wide living room ,,,,,,,,

here I am in court ,,,,,,,,,,

oh, God,,,,,, God, you ,,,,,,

I finally saw clearly the face of my sister-in-law ,,,,,,,

an unfriendly face is far from accepting ,,,,,,

asiung calmly introduced me as his wife ,,,,,,,

looks all silent not responding ,,,,,

not even a nod,,,,,, no ,,,,,

their faces are flat flat only ,,,,,,

all looking at each other and rigid ,,,,,

eventually one of them starts to open up the conversation,,,,, but stays with a cold eye ,,,,,,,, , but ,,,,,,,

I bowed and fell silent there was nothing I could do ,,,,, nothing ,,,,,

other than playing my finger ,,,,,,,

I never imagined I'd face any of this ,,,,,,

it came to my mind what if I had something wrong in front of them even if I had a little run through my life ,,,,,,

when her sister asked me questions, all eyes looked at me full of probes,,,,,,,, all eyes ,,,,,,,

making my heartbeat even more unbearable

between fear and was wastes blend into one ,,,,,,,

o Allah ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

there's such a deep sense of regret,,,,,,, there's,,,,,

millions of words and insults in my heart have condemned my foolishness,,,,, that.,,,,,

I was too rash in a game I created myself ,,,,,,

thought realizing the dream was like turning the palm of what ????

how stupid of me who considers it easy to make decisions living together with Asiung only with diligent capital and intention ,,,,

how stupid and stupid I was,,,,, how ,,,,,

just want to save the family's self-esteem ,,,,???

I've got to risk something this bad ',,,,,,,, I have to ,,,,,,,

oh, my God,,,, that, uh,,,,,

Goddess how innocent her mind is ,,,,,

I'm just sober,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

Asiung and you are like heaven and earth

like kings and servants,,,,, like ,,,,,

how reckless you are,,,,,,, you ,,,,,,

sure I can handle them ,,,,,,?????

sure I'm ready ,,,,,,,,?????

oh, God,,,,,, God, you ,,,,,,

it's really a crazy idea of suicide his name,,,,,, it's ,,,,,

I can only be stunned,,, sorry for sure

now the family I defend does he care ,,,,????.

did he feel what I was going through ,,,,,????

they were all just waiting for the end result ,,,,,,,

the benefits are only ,,,,,, the ,,,,

you are in the process of going through and feeling ,,,,,,

o Allah ,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

give me strength,,,,, give me ,,,,,

I'm sure this isn't how,,,,,,, it's just the beginning,,,,,,,, it's,,,,,,,

just the beginning of,,,,,, the ,,,,,

slowly my eyes began to see the faces of Asiung's brothers' faces one by one ,,,,,,

among the faces of Asiung's sister I saw ,,,,

there's one woman's face that's stuck in my heart ,,,,,

that woman was Asiung's third sister ,,,,,,,

he looks like he disagrees with me,,,,, he does ,,,,,

the look in her eyes hated me so much ,,,,,,

from the look in his eyes I saw him so suspicious of me,,,,,,, I saw,,,,,,

I've already decided ,,,,,

inevitably like not like I have to be ready ,,,,,,,

want to know how this has happened ,,,,,,

finished introducing themselves directly giving advice at length,,,,,,,

it has to be this way and so on ,,,,,,,, it has to be ,,,,,,,

I just yeah, I nodded, and shook the bird exactly,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,

I was in court for a long time ,

and finally we go home ,,,,,,

I feel so relieved ,,,,,,,,

can escape from the unfriendly view of Asiung's older sister ,,,,,,,,

even though along the way home I still imagined the face of the unfriendly Asiung family,,,,,,, the ,,,,,

I'm sure that after I got home they talked about the shortcomings I had ,,,

the patient, I hope all is well ,,,,,,

we can get through it,,,,, we can ,,,,,

I palpated my stomach ,,,,

once home I was immediately greeted by my family who did not lose his kepo,,,,,,,,

I was so lazy to meet my family,,,,,,, I, I was ,,,,,,

I've had a lot of them let down ,,,,,,,

I'm sorry I wanted to make a change for this family ',,,,,, uh ,,,,,,

if they hadn't forced me to make a quick marriage, maybe the reality was different,,,,,,,,, maybe ,,,,,,,

there's anger,,,,, there's, uh ,,,,,

how about another ,,,,, what ,,,,

I finally gave up too ,,,,,

I started telling stories about Asiung's family,,,,, uh ,,,,

of course his good is good,,,,,,,

beautiful beautiful ,,,,,,,

and that is certainly far from the reality,,,,,, that is,,,,,,

where might I be the real story,,,,, which is ,,,,,

the ones my family hasn't met already hate each other

either way it's a risk of what I've planned ,,,,,,,,,

they look very happy

and began to praise with hope sweet hope ,,,,

that's what my family is,,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,

"Alhamdulillah yes wi it turns out that the Asiung family will accept you ,,,,,,

thank goodness when did you move house ,,,,,,?????

you want to be invited to live in Asiung's mother's house right ,,,,,,,,??? ,"

isn't it my guess,,,,, still, to be concerned about me staying ,,,,,,,????

jeez mah ,,,, mah ,,,,,,

rich this house is too small if I live here ,,,,,

and let me stay here

there are still many empty rooms

no one takes,,,,,, no, no,,,,,

oh, God,,,,, God, is ,,,,,

indeed our house is not as nice or grand as the house of brother Asiung ,,,,,

but quite wide and broad ,,,,,,,,

make the size of the house in my village ,,,,,,

our house is the largest and most spacious,,,,, and,,,,,

it's not perfect yet,,,,, it's, like, it's ,,,,,

because the floor's still ground ,,,,

the wall is still a red brick ,,,,,,,

if this house was perfect it would be magnificent too ,,,,,

but what makes it perfect

make a meal still fit fit an ,,,,,,,

this is the reason why I want to date Asiung ,,,,,,,

but after I found out my family was like this, it was,,,, it was, it was ,,,,,

I don't know how hard it is to express in words,,,,,, I don't know,,,,,,

half annoyed, I answered my mother's question

"yes I didn't ma,,,,, that's also Asiung's family said ,,,, they want Asiung to move directly to his own house,,,,,,,,,,, they want Asiung to move directly to his own house,,,,,,,,

let's be more independent because ,,,,,

because the house built by Asiung has not been completed ,,,,,,,

I was told to stay at my parents' house first ,,,,",

I looked at mama,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

mama was silent not to answer,,,,,,

I also don't know what you're thinking, what,,,,, what,,,,,,,????

suddenly our chatter stopped just like that,,,,,,

until we disperse each one,,,,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,,,

3 Months is my gestational age means already 4bln I was hitchhiking at the house of mama,,,,,,,,,, I was,,,,,,,

but there has been no sign of me in my boyong my husband ,,,,,,,

I wish ',,,,,, I ,,,,,

may my parents be patient

because I'm still living in her house ,,,,,,,

I'm afraid papa can't hear

the neighbor's talk about me,,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,,

moreover, mama always brings bad news delivered by my papa ,,,,,

this morning I woke up a little afternoon because I was sleep deprived last night ,,,,,,,

I always think about my fate honestly I don't feel at home at home mama ,,,,,, I don't ,,,,,,

this is all because mom is so hard to ignore the neighbor's talk ,,,,,,,,,,

always every where you go,,,,,, every,,,,,

definitely go home and bring the news not wearing ear ,,,,,,

o Allah,,,, why is it this complicated to build a household with Asiung,,,,,,, why,,,,,,

I'm tired of this 'bout,,,,, I ,,,,,

until until I had to suppress my feelings and desires as a pregnant mother young ,,,,,,,

boro Boro cravings,,,,,,,

not in touch with mom as papa the problem of residence just I was happy ,,,,,,

if you have faced a chaotic feeling like this flashed the face of the cyan mas in my eyes ,,,,,

and I cried while scolding her ,,,,,,

I turned him on for everything that happened to me ,,,,,

if it wasn't for his behavior I wouldn't have suffered this seoerti,,,,,,, I wouldn't have ,,,,,,

I often cry and get angry alone when I arrive

her face was present as if she were in front of me ,,,,,,

I always said

"never have I asked you for more - mas,,,, the important thing is that you love me - it's enough to take me far away from my family ,,,,, it's made me happy ,,,,,, it's ,,,,,,you already know my true situation than Asiung but you're playing with my feelings ,,,,,, you ,,,,,

you always make me cry bitterly,,,,,, you ,,,,,,

now look at me ,,,,

I who should have been happy was pregnant but now have to suffer the harsh reality of this marriage ,,,,,,.

it's all because of you, because you're ,,,,

you forced me to choose a stranger who was a stranger to me,,,,,, or a stranger ,,,,,,

you're the one who forced me to do this,,,,,,,, you ,,,,,,,

had we been married and you took me away I would never have thought of sacrificing my feelings for a family's self-esteem would never have been mas ,,,,,,

because I'm so far away living with you ,,,,,

I hate you because you hate you,,,, you make me love you, but you also make me hate you,,,,,"

I finally cried bitterly,,,,,, I ,,,,,

it hurts so much,,,,,,, it ,,,,,

o Allah

it's the fault of who ,,,,,,,

should I blame others ,,,,,,,

and after that I fell asleep with a patter of tears ,,,,

this often happens every.I hit the problem of residence ,,,,,,,

but thank God it's been a long time that my parents didn't mention me ,,,,,,, no ,,,,,,

hopefully until I move house ,,,,,,

I was busy thinking about my household,,,,,,, I, I,,,,,,,

suddenly I was startled by the voice of an angry father angry with a loud voice,,,,,

and once in a while I heard you walking around the kitchen table,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,

not to mention the voice of the mother who did not lose her loud while shouting,,,,,,,

o God what else is this,,,,,,,, what is this,,,,,,,

why is morning like this already a mouth war ,,,,,???

is there a very serious problem ,,,,,?????

why fight like this ,,,,,????

I heard papa was angry ,,,,,,

but mama was more angry,,,,,,,

what is the problem ????,

my curiosity got me out of room ,,,,,,

I ventured to ask ,,,,,,

I didn't think I'd even get snapped,,,,,,, I guess,,,,,,,

got maki ,,,,,,

out loud and full of anger papa scolded and insulted me ,,,,,,

and it made me startle and cry ,,,,,,,

"this is the source of her problems,,,,, having girls is worthless,,,,,,,,, it's, it's,,,,,,,

just want to be a mistress,,,,,, bikin shy parents just,,,,,,,, have 4 months you live separated from the husband,,,,

, what is it called household,,??????

still want some more reason ????? it's been 4 months you know,,,,, my son if married no one lives at home anymore all brought her husband ,,,, that's the name responsible husband ,,,,,, that's, the husband ,,,,,,

you cheap girl ,,,,!!!!!do not know yourself,,,,,tega how to throw the face of the parents using dirt,,,,,,,

proud of you being a Chinese mistress ,,,,"

I bowed as I continued to cry,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,,

don't dare say a word,,,,,

from the little me I am most afraid that papa has spoken what else is angry like this ,,,,,,

not yet there's papa's anger,,,,,, that's ,,,,,

with a sharp look, my father pointed at me

"you don't want to get out of this house

let papa with the mama who went ,,,,,

place this house I can't afford to live with a Chinese mistress,,,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,

I'm ashamed of the same village people ,,,,,,

basic women have no self-esteem,,,,,,,,, no, no,,,,,,,

sorry you have a daughter like you ,,,,!!!!!!"

finished talking papa invites mom to take care of clothes

before long , straight out of the house ride the angkot and go,,,,,

I know I must have gone to Bogor,,,,,, I know,,,,,

I was left so alone in a state of bitter tears and a heart so broken,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

I could only watch my parents' departure from window ,,,,,,,,,,, you see ,,,,,,,,

tampa can do a lot of ,,,,,,,,

I finally screamed,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

I'm really not strong anymore ,,,,,, I ,,,,,

I don't care about the kid I'm born with,,,,,, I do ,,,,,,

I don't care about my life anymore ,,,,,,,

with a feeling of disintegration and despair I took the scissors ,,,,,,,

I wish I could just end this life ,,,,,,,

good thing there's my sister Wiwin,,,,,, uh,,,,,

Wiwin quick quick grab his scissors ,,,,,,

and it was me who started to lose my mind,,,,,,,

I cried.,,,,, cried and cried,,,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,,,

I heard Wiwin directly call Asiung at the house ,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,

" mum go home first,,,, take the goddess nangis nangis nangis,,, thesoal abis storm Ama mama Now mama papa go kebogor,,,,,,,,, the,,,,,

we are home only three mas Asiung must Dateng kasian mbak Dewi almost aja suicide thankfully there is me ,,,???",

Asiung was shocked ,,,,, like his shock ,,,,,,

heard I was about to kill myself ,,,,,,,

"do you know what is win ??????

you tell me try ,,,,, but you don't why won ,,,,,,, it's, it's already home you calm down ya ,,,"

"yes to ",,,, uh ",,,

the Asiung Dateng,,,,,,, the,,,,,,,

sounds like his favorite bike stopped in front of the house ,,,,,,,

I used to be the coolest when this bike turned into my house ,,,,

but that was before I thought about fiancee let alone getting married ,,,,,

I never thought and imagined this would eventually ,,,,,, be ,,,,,

I didn't go out of the room

I'm tired of,,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,,,

so limp this body ,,,,,,,

on the table I put paper for Asiung

I know he'll read it,,,,,, I know, he'll read it,,,,,

the expression of my heart ,,,,,,

don't you ko ,,,,,

distant and do not understand

by my circumstances ,,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,

and my neighbors have already sentenced me,,,,,,,,,,, you know,,,,,,,,,

don't you ko,,,,,,,

which is not there when I need ,,,,,,,,,

my parents don't care about my situation, either,,,, or, or ,,,,,,,

let this affliction be only me and my son who feel it ,,,,

I love you ,,,,

I felt Asiung pat me on the shoulder and hug me

I turned my body around and saw his face,,,,,,

who's so worried about my situation,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,

she softly said ,,,,,,

"patience yes I will take you home to our house,,,, , , tomorrow pack your clothes we go from this house ,,,,,,,,I won't let anyone make fun of you lg,,,, and

I don't want your parents to make you suffer any more ,,,, we're gonna prove we can be more than they think ,,,,,,,,",

there's a shiver in every word he says ,,,,,

whether it's emotion or pain that's deep in ,,,,,,

I don't understand ,,,,,,

the next day I'm in the boyong to his house ,,,,,,

there's no bed yet,,,,,,,, there's no bed,,,,,,

closet,,,,,,,,

chair ,,,,,,,,

,and the dining table,,,,,, this house is completely empty,,,,,,,,,, this,,,,,,,

there's already my in-laws and my in-laws waiting for me,,,,,,,, there, who's waiting for me,,,,,,,

as soon as I saw him coming he immediately

"oh yes Goddess of this house is still a mess in the neat first yes yes ,,,,, a clean wild ,,,, because Asiung moved her suddenly,,,,,,

impatient ,,,,,, ''bout ,,,,

yeah, well, accept the risk that the house is still a mess,,,"

he gave me a mop and a broom,,,,,,

I gladly received the mop and the broom I began to clean and clean my house,,,,,

now I feel relieved living in my own home ,,,,,

it is better to live here than

to live in my old man's house but like hell ,,,,,, like ,,,,,

Officially I've been living at the sling times I've been a neighbor Aman's older sister she's ,,,,

I was acting normal and being nice

in all the Asiung extended family ,,,,,,

although his family's attitude is not good but I try to understand ,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

my day goes full of sharp pebbles but it's better than living in my mother's house,,,,,,,, it's, it's better than living in my mother's house,,,,,,

Asiung started busy making shelves for stores .

because we want to be quick

have your own business ,,,,,,,

I also helped Asiung to do a little 'grain ,,,,,,

Working asiung

every day until the mallem ngerjain shelf ,,,,,,

finally finished also ,,,,,,

we can start to open a shop ,?

originally deserted ,,,,,

long time all goes well ,,,,,

life starts there's a new rush of keeping stores ,,,,,,,

it makes us often fuss and disagree

but I always try to understand,,,, and give in

although sometimes Asiung angled to get angry ,,,,,,

but I was determined to have a harmonious household,,,,, that, that,,,,,,

with what we have been through so far full of struggle ,,,,,,

for that I want to make my household peaceful

and want to give birth to my first child in a happy state ,,,,,,

I've forgotten about my big family problems ,,,,

I've forgotten my old silly mind ,,,,,

months go by ,,,,,,

my gestational age entering her month is ,,,,,,

I'm happy and ready to welcome my first child,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,

my day today is pretty happy we never were

storm ,,,,,,

or fight ,,,,, or ,,,,,,

I've always tried to be romantic,,,,, I, uh,,,,,

maybe Asiung feels my attention and treatment on his ,,,,,

and he started to turn,,,,,, and ,,,,,,

every milk I've finished

or if I want to eat what Asiung immediately go buy his ,,,,,,

where we both went,,,,, where ,,,,,

the pain, the hurt, and the pain that once existed are gone, and the happiness,,,,,, is,,,,,

eventually my relationship with my parents got better, and, and, of course, my neighbors began to be friendly and polite to me,,,, and, of course, my neighbors began to be friendly and polite to me,,,,

what I'm waiting for comes ,,,,,

my first son was born but through Cesar's operation,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,

because the amniotic already in the scissors first and fear of dry hunting will not be helped ,,,,,,,

that night I entered the operating room,,,,

I was half conscious,,,,, I saw Asiung crying when I entered the White room,,,,, I,,,,

tak.lama heard the sound of her son's cries

she's so happy ,,,,,,

done out of the operating room I was put into the treatment room in VIP ,,,,,,

because by chance it's just that room that's empty,,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,,

Asiung treated me so special ,,,,,,

all night he didn't sleep and was always faithful to guard me with anxiety because I wasn't conscious yet ,,,,,

as soon as I saw her she immediately cried happily ,,,,,,

a moving moment,,,,,,, a,,,,,,

immediately he shouted to call the doctor, to check my condition ,,,,,,,

I'm so moved,,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,,,

My son turned out to be a girl ,,,,,

beautiful and cute, really,

some say it looks like me and some say it looks like Asiung ,,,,, some say ,,,,,,

what's for sure is your pretty son I love him so much ,,,,,

I named her Chinthia Pratama

a pretty name as pretty as her guy ,,,

years have passed since Chintia was born, my shop has been getting more and more customers ,,,,,,

and my life began to settle down

in the store we began to busy serving the buyer,,,,,

because subscriptions start a lot ,,,,,,

all of this made us both focus more on taking care of the store

I can't feel my little girl Chintia growing up to be a pretty little girl,,,,,,,,

but the harmony doesn't last long,,,,, the,,,,,

fights started happening ,,,,,,,,

Asiung began to put out words that did not pantes said ,,,,,,,

favoritism began to be seen, between my family and his family,,,,,, he was so attentive with his family ,,,,,,,,, he was ,,,,,,

being with my family doesn't matter at all,,,,,,

he's more ignorant and stupid ,,,,,,, he's ,,,,,,

every time I protest he's more fierce and brings up everything my family's ever done ,,,,

I can't avoid,,,,,,, I,,,,,

because everything Asiung says is true is ,,,,,,,

when I was despised and in people's corners,,,,

but my parents didn't defend me ,,,,

and help me,,,,, and,,,,

they even blaspheme me,,,,,,, you,,,,,

naturally Asiung is hurt

asiung told me

the problem I was having with both my parents, but still they didn't want to know,,,,,,, anyway ,,,,,,

so it was natural that Asiung was angry

more precisely his heartache ,,,,,

Finally Lebaran arrived ,,,,,,

lebaran this time I intend to come to my mother's house by chance all my brothers get together,,,,,

but I'm afraid Asiung's treatment doesn't care anymore like the year he was ,,,,,,

I don't want Asiung to keep going on and on with my niece again ,,,,,,

very different klo Imlek certainly Asiung very spirit klo want to wrap an envelope to be shared for his nephew ,,,,,,,,, klo ,,,,,,

sometimes it runs out to tens of millions,,,,, he's just plain

but it is much different if the celebration is broad,,,,,,

Just come to the house rich people play ,,,,,

just for a moment it's permission to go home on the grounds there is a business,,,,,,, is ,,,,,,

boro boro relax while chatting or for angpao ,,,,

salaman aja rich just formality aja ,,,,,,

anyway far in comparison with his family ,,,,,

though I want it that already yes already ,,,,, do not need to remember remember again ,,,,,,

anyway at the time I gave birth to my mom was also attention ,,,,,

still love the fridge and baby utensils ,,,,

and to take care of my son and me after giving birth ,,,,,

up to 40 days ,,,,,

from bathing me my baby all the mama and papa who did her ,,,,,,

yeah I think that people are that good ,,,,,, I think ,,,,,,

yeah there's no harm in us giving up ',,,,,,, yeah ,,,,,,

honestly, I've been thinking ,,,,,,,

is Asiung vengeful with them ????

because it was always done for years

I had to protest ,,,,,,,

but what I got was inappropriate profanity and profanity that I finally had to accept ,,,,,,

makes me shut up and shut up ,,

"asal you know yes you were a person kere trus ascended the throne so many wishes ,,,,

glare when you look at money,,,,, you see,,,,,

confused to share,,,,,

that's why you're busy managing the cave family,,,,, the cave treasure ,,,,,,",,

o God of evil is very, very, very, very, very, very, very, his mouth ,,,,,,,,

for me people have no ,,, but not the slightest intention to morotin his treasure ,,,,,,,,, but ,,,,,

since that great event I began to sincerely love him ,,,, Asiung could accept me and love me I already like Bagir ,,,,,,

it is unthinkable for parents,,,,, let alone for the money for my family ,,,,,,,, , , ''', ''let's say ,,,,,,

I could be his wife and already have my own house just I'm so grateful ,,,,,

let my son live well,,,,,,, let,,,,,

don't be like I used to live in poverty and lack ,,,,,

but how could Asiung bear to accuse me with such an evil word to me ,,,,,,,????

and that's what I hear a lot,,,,,, that's ,,,,,

every time I touch his family who always meddles in our family affairs ,,,,,

sometimes bad thoughts come to my heart,,,,,,,, sometimes ,,,,,,,

rather than just suspecting Tampa the evidence that there is heartache ,,,,

I'd better prove all his accusations, ',,,,,,,, ', uh ,,,,,,,

later pity came to him who had helped me

the insults of my parents and neighbors

that feeling often rages

on the other hand,,,,, I want to be a trustworthy wife,,,,, on the other hand Asiung's word is very painful and it's often said ,,,,,,

finally I was not strong and could not maintain the trust he gave me ,,,,,,

that's why I decided to keep quiet giving money or valuables to my family,,,,,,,,

I think instead of asking well, ', that there I am in maki in blasphemy exhausted ,,,,,,,,

and being accused that is not better I realized his accusations to be reality ,,,,,,

my money is managed ,,,,, , anyway ,,,,,

I'm in control,,,,,, I ,,,,,

all the keys are the same I who told you to have a mouth as sharp as a razor ,,,,,,,

what I lacked all this time ,,, I feel indebted to you

because you already let me know when I was forced by my parents to get married fast ,,,,,

all I did was because of Budi's debt ,,,,,,

since marriage, I have always given up,

if you're angry already yell out I choose silence and silence ,,,,,,,,

dare not argue or chimed in his talk ,,,,,,

my religion is also my religion Bhuda,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,

all the prayer activities I participated in even until I was willing to eat food

which is forbidden by my religion ,,,,,,

even cooking at home is often ,,,, all for your sake

I really want totality to be his wife

I don't think sin or haram anymore ,,,,

what matters is that I'm calm and not noisy,,,,,,,, I, uh,,,,,,,

living happily with you is enough,,,,,,,, that's enough ,,,,,

as long as your mom and brother still want to see and do not hate me I am grateful ,,,,,,,, , ' I am ,,,,,,

because I know his brother even though in front of us nice and looks like but behind his incredible talk ,,,,,,,

painful and evil ,,,,,,

until all my gestures are monitored,,,, and watched, ,,,,,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,

because their minds have always been so to me ,,,,,,

I became challenged to do what they were accused of ,,,,,,

and what they fear,,,,,, is,,,,,,,.

even though they're monitoring me,,,,,,, even,,,,,,

but still lose pinter with me ,,,,,

they don't know,,,, if I had any intention of doing ,,

this is a form of my disappointment in the behavior of my husband and his brother,,,,,, and,,,,,,

those who want me to be like this ,,,,,???

hold the wrong who ,,,,??????

who started who ?????

who taught who ,,,,?????

all because there is a cause and effect ,,,,,,,,

now I'm a liar,,,,,, I ,,,,,

start looking for happiness beyond the ,,,,,,,

I'm going to be two-faced,,,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,,,

and I really changed

I'm not who I used to be,,,,, I am ,,,,,

I was too cunning and clever to trick them,,,,,,,,,,,

proved Asiung did not know my mother's house that funds to be overhauled and in nagarin,,,,,,, the,,,,,

I installed the home ceramics and the door to the house in a better dressing ,,,,,

mom's house is so far from being as slum and simple as ever,, ,,,,,

and every time I go there I give money rations to mama and papa,,,,,, and,,,,

all I've done is Tampa to Asiung's knowledge,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

Because of what I did ,,,,,,

my heart is like empty and dry ,,,,,

on the other side,,,,, the ,,,,,

I'm vengeful for my family's past treatment ,,,,,,

I want them

depending and according to me ,,,,,

and on the other hand I also took revenge with the Asiung family because they could not accept me and always considered me one eye,,,,,,,, and so on ,,,,,,

as suspicious as if I was going to spend the treasure of Asiung alone,,,,,,, as if ,,,,,,

while Asiung never once defended me ,,,,,,

as his wife ,,,,,, as ,,,,,

I was poisoned by this marriage

poisoned by resentment and heartache ,,,,,,

I always obey what my family asks ,,,,,,,,,

from gold,,,,,, money ,,,,,,,,

up to the expensive stuff ,,,,,,,

actually this does not have to happen if Asiung can treat me more like a wife ,,,,,,,,

and brother Asiung treats me like a sister-in-law,,,,,, like, like ,,,,,,,

not a maid who seems to want to steal,,,,, or,,,,,

for years I endured trying to be patient and know myself ,,,,

but over time this pain deepened

especially since my second child was born everything hasn't changed,,,,,,, that,,,,,,

even worse their treatment of me ,,,,,,,

And that made my family

living with the treasures of my lies

and my mind managed to make them depend on me and look dear to me,,, even pseudo

I'm like an angel to my family,,,,, I,,,,

every word that comes out of my mouth is a command ,,,,,,,,,

and they're following,,,,,,,,, and ,,,,,,,,

I'm like the queen of happiness for my family,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

and this makes me say,,,,,,,,, this ,,,,,,,,

I'm still seen as a human,,,,,,, I'm still seen as a human being,,,,,,,

years passed my family always proud of me,,,,

stories about my success,,,,,,,,,, the ,,,,,,,,

my name is well known around my sister's neighbors in Bogor,,,,,,,,, uh,,,,,,,

but for a long time I was troubled also by their behavior ,,,,,,,

honestly, I'm on my own

bosen lives like this ,,,,,,

it really contrasts with the real situation,,,,,,,,,

how not

in the eyes of my husband's family I was like a servant who was so obedient and so minimal-looking,,,,,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,,

but in front of my husband like useless garbage always cry if he is scorned and scolded always begs if he berserk ,,,,,,,,,

but in my family's eyes I'm the queen of happiness to them amazing,,,,,

they were so proud and happy to always show off

get here and there,,,,,, get,,,,,,

feeling a lot of ease makes them arrogant and always scattering money ,,,,,,

for a long time I was so worried why they didn't use money well but instead it was getting better and better ,,,,,,,

and the more I notice I'm like a money tree or just an ATM running for them,,,,,,,,,, that ,,,,,,,,

I'm disappointed obviously ,,,,,,!!!!

turns out my family is like this????

but it's weird that I know my family's bad rigidity but I don't care ,,,,,,,,

I keep pampering them,,,,,, I ,,,,,,

I was really trying to close my eyes,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,,

I set aside the boring and heartbreaking situation that my extended family presents ,,,,,,,,,

I don't care,,,,,,,,, I don't care,,,,,,,,

while I work every day hard,,,,,, Dateng stuff has to go to the warehouse stacking stuff,,,,,,,, and,,,,,,,

not to mention the morning must be taken care of the school child,,,,,

keep cooking,,,,,,, keep cooking,,,,,,

done all I have to keep shop ,,,,,,, I have to ,,,,,,

amazing cape ,,,,,,

not to mention that Asiung is not in the mood,,,,,,,, no,,,,,,,

must have gotten angry and the vocabulary of the animals came out all ,,,,,,

it's not very sad

that's why I don't care about my family's behavior,,,,,, that, that's what makes me care about my family's behavior,,, that, that, that, that, that, that, that,,,,,,,

the important thing is that every time I come to Dateng kebogor they welcome me like a queen ,,,,,

that makes me happy ,,,,,,,,

after the second child began to grow up I was like in hell ,,,,,,

I'm always starting to be in the spotlight of his family ,,

they say I'm a spender ,,,,,,,

can't spend money ,,,,,,,,

open the store from the old days the warehouse was still hitchhiking,,,,,,,

haven't bought the land where the money went ,,,,,,,,,,

I finally got so hard to hold onto money,,,,,,,, I, I ,,,,,,,,,

because Asiung started counting every rupiah in savings ,,,,,,,

detailing every single money that comes out,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,

I'm getting cornered ',,,,,,,, I'm ,,,,,,,,

I'm starting to have a bad feeling like this marriage is going to end ,,,,,,,

sooner or later ,,,,,,,

that means from now on I'm ready to be ,,,,,,, I'm ready ,,,,,,,

grateful my family udh started to settle all ,,,,,,

they already have a home and a business ,,,,,,,

I'm calm just take care of the old man,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,

but my mom's house is also good ,,,,,,

and I see that gold and money savings are already pretty much,,,,,,,,, that's,,,,,,,,

the important thing is that they can irit,,,,,,, they can ,,,,,,,

tipper,,,, my worries answered,,,,,,,

one day my sister-in-law offered me cheap land in Bogor City,,,,,, uh,,,,,

I was interested and accepted the offer to have an investment,,,,,,, that, that,,,,,,,

I cuddled a little money,,,,, slowly to build a house whose land I had bought ,,,,, , , ''' slowly ,,,,,

I want to have a little villa ,,,,,,

take care that I'm completely separated,,,,,,,

at least I have my own house,,,,,, I ,,,,,

don't want to hitch a ride in my family ,,,,,,,,

Or if I don't part if I want to take a vacation, I go home to my own house,,,,,,,,, I ,,,,,,,,

the furniture I started buying, from the bed, the cupboard, the chair, the dining table, it's all complete,,,,,,, it's, it's,,,,,,

I started going home to the villa when I was running,,,,,,,, I was,,,,,,,

don't go to my brother's house anymore,,,,,,,,, no, no, no,,,,,,

I'm , fun and grateful ,,,,,,,,

my sacrifice was not in vain,,,,,,, my patience is now sweet ,,,,,,,

now I have a dream house in Bogor,,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,,

by full letter and in my own name ,,,,,,,

I really feel happy and grateful ,,,,,,,,,,, you know ,,,,,,,,,

the moon changed years mother-in-law who I always looked at and I noticed during this time sick and because I saw the closeness of my family Asiung

appoint me to take care of him ,,,,,,

from his eating, to washing his clothes, clean up his vomit and his shit ,,,,

yes according to some people this is the work of a maid ,,,

but I do it with sincerity and pleasure ,,,,,

while her daughter is shopping and having fun,,,,, I don't care what matters I love helping my in-laws ,,,,, I, I ,,,,,I think I want the same child should be willing also with his mother especially his mother for now is in need of my care and attention,,,,,,,,, for now,,,,,

it just so happened that the ghost that took care of my in-laws was just me ,,,,,

maybe they think I come from a poor family and I'm not a Chinese either,,,,, yes, it's the reason this makes Popo happy I'm willing to ,,,,,,

because I was happy to do the task that Asiung gave me was proud ,,,,,

2 bln Popo is sick and I take care of myself ,,, have a lot of expenses incurred but the condition is not healed also ,,,,,

finally, Popo went home to bay ,,,,,,, Popo ,,,,,,

and I'm coming back to the earth city, which means I don't take care of popo anymore,,,,,,,, uh ,,,,,,

replace the one who takes care of her biological child ,,,,,,,,

sometimes when I feel so upset and so sad I like stories with my sister Wiwin,,,,,,, I love ,,,,,,

compared to my other brothers I do count close to him ,,,,,,

hearing my curses Wiwin was surprised and instead cried he tried to strengthen me and many times Istighfar,,,,,,, he tried to strengthen me,,,,,

I think Wiwin is really sincere and sympathetic to the problems I'm facing ,,,,,

until I feel grateful to have a little bit as understanding as he ,,,,,,,

even the time Wiwin said

if I wanted to tell her a story,,,,,,,, I,,,,,,

don't be with another family,,,,,,,, no, no,,,,,,,,

fear later becomes a trending topic ,,,,,,

I was relieved to hear Wiwin saying that,,,,,,,,,, that,,,,,,,,,

only at last did my admiration for her disappear,,,,,,,,

I didn't think it turned out to be nonsense ,,,,

the curse that I got with her she told me again with my brother that's Laen ,,,,,,,

not so trending topic but so material for quarreling and storming fellow brothers even to mother and child ,,,,,,,

it's true that until mama participated in the hasadeuhhhh ,,,,

Wiwin ,,,,, Wiwin,,,,,

there is a sense of resentment and disappointment ,,,,,,

but compared to the other brothers he's kind of better ,,,

even all this time I've been asking her husband for help,,,,,,, she, she said,,,,,,,,

to pick up klo I want kebogor ,,,,,,

even though I also paid ,,,,,, ''bout ,,,,,,

and it's more expensive than other people's pay,,,,,, it's, it's ,,,,,,

but it's okay to also enjoy my sister and niece as well ,,,,,,,,,

so it doesn't matter to me,,,,,,,, it, it does,,,,,,,,

and my closeness compared to Wiwin I'm more Deket with my brother-in-law her husband Wiwin because she's more trustworthy,,,,,,,,,,, she said,,,,,,

Toto also often confided in problems with my sister,,,,,

Toto confided about Wiwin's shortcomings as I ,,,,,,

sometimes Wiwin I advise even that if I feel the need and do not offend Wiwin ,,,,,,,, if ,,,,,,

if I think it's too deep I don't dare to interfere ,,,,,,,

that's their privacy,,,,,, that's ,,,,,,,

I'm just a listener,,,,,, I'm, uh ,,,,,,

it once crossed my mind like their marriage was unhealthy ,,,,,,,,

but yes I am also confused ,,,,,,

no matter how I'm an outsider I can't go too far in his family affairs ,,,,,,,,,

on the other hand I was confused thinking about the journey of my life, ,,,,

I feel like I'm a zombie myself,,,,,,, I, like ,,,,,,,

it seems alive but it's actually dead ,,,,,,,,,, actually ,,,,,,,,,

people only see me smiling, I'm always happy when they don't know every time these tears of pain always flow ,,,,,,,,,,,