THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 3 THE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR

Adi and I ended up running a long distance love LDR relationship.

Even though we run LDRs, we both still trust each other.

we both keep each other's feelings and maintain each other's loyalty.

Although I still doubt her love Adi, because I still have never met Adi in person.

Adi always told me."Have patience with you there", I will come to see you soon.

1-2 months we both run the LDR relationship, our joy and sorrow pass together.

Although Adi likes to make me upset and angry, thank God our relationship both remain lasting.

No matter the 3-4 months running LDR relationship, there is no meeting between Adi and me.

Although there was no meeting between the two of us, but we both still communicate and tell each other.

Thank God my communication and Adi went well, even though Adi likes to make me sebel and angry.

If we miss, we can only video call/vc because it is impossible for us to meet.

Because of the distance and time that separate us, I'm sure one day we'll both meet with each other over time

No matter the 5 months running this LDR relationship, thank God this relationship is fine and smooth.

Even though we both like to fight with trivial things, because Adi likes to make it sick and angry.

I was happy with Adi, because Adi cuekin I. Because Adi was busy with his work, Ati never cared and sensitive, if I was alone with Adi.

6 Months walk we are both grateful, because this relationship is still lasting.May we both be able to understand each other, even though we both have different problems.

Hopefully they both can solve the problem well.Bardar I am very angry with Adi, because Adi has been struggling me by blocking my whatsapp number.

Finally I sent a message to Adi, and called Adi, but Adi did not reply and did not pick up my phone.

I've been thinking a no-no about Adi, I think Adi is tired of facing my nature.

Not long after that Adi unblocked my whatsapp number.

I told Adi, "are you tired of facing my nature?"

"What's the truth you said to me?"

And Adi promised, if Adi would not repeat the same mistake.

7-8 months went well, though we liked not to understand each other, and there was a quarrel,but soon we improved again.If Adi is busy and there is no news I have thought about Adi who is not-no.I always prejudiced Adi, I always,did Adi there have other women and I always think that Adi cheated with other women.It turns out my guess is wrong, if Adi no news, means Adi is busy and his duck rice stall rame.

Not for 9 months running our relationship is fine, and even though we often quarrel because Adi does not give news to me.Adi is always busy with his work to forget to tell me.

10 Months running I am very happy until now my relationship is lasting, I am very grateful.Although I have felt tired of this relationship, I feel tired of this relationship,and I am also tired of the attitude of Adi is now increasingly indifferent and too busy with his work.

11-12 months running Adi more and more days are weak and there is no time when it is daytime,during the day Adi is busy to prepare for the sale of fried rice later tonight.But I am very happy to sell Adi and her older brother are always rame buyers.

And I am very grateful to get Adi, Adi is a hard worker I salute Adi.

13-14 months Adi new story to his mas if Adi already have a girlfriend and masnya do not believe that Adi already have a boyfriend, Adi has a boyfriend, and I'm sad once the mobile phone masnya usually in wear is lost and the mobile phone in use Adi in the mas taken because it's the phone masnya.Adi now uses his own mobile phone and now the cell phone Adi is damaged and service, but no money. Now Adi uses his older brother's mobile phone back, alhamdulillah his older brother is very good to Adi.And I plan to buy Adi a new handpone, he said,but Adi did not know that I would buy a new phone for Adi.

15-17 months running Thank God our LDR relationship is lasting, even though we often quarrel, but if we quarrel not long maybe 1-2 hours have improved again.And Adi who always apologized first to Sya, even though not necessarily Adi who was wrong, but not necessarily Adi,I salute Adi is still able to survive so far.I think this relationship will last up to 5-6 months because I am afraid that Adi feels saturated, I think,bored and not strong to run a LDR relationship.It turns out my guess has been wrong, In strong running this LDR relationship, be patient to face my nature like this.

No matter how our relationship has been going for 18-20 months, our sorrows passed together, I have felt tired and bored because I have never met at all since we dated.I am very grateful to have Adi, I have always been,because Adi always relented with me, and always supported me when I was down.Adi was the first to know when I was down, sad or sick, he said,because I know that my family will not care about my situation.I am sick Adi is the main person to know that I am no longer okay.

21-22 months this relationship still survives, I am very happy, because Adi still wants to survive with me so far.Adi is a patient child, he said,Adi is always patient with me if I am angry is not clear, Ati even silenced me if I am angry.Because Adi also want my emotions to ransack first,if my emotions have broken the new Adi will call me back, and ask that "your emotions are broken or not."If you have not yet istighfar it is so that you can be calmer and rummage your emotions.I am grateful to have Adi, who always understands my condition and condition, yes even though Adi is a little indifferent to the person.

23-24 months of our relationship remained lasting and although we often fought only trivial problems, for example Adi did not give me news one day,I must have been angry or upset because Adi did not give me news. I explained to Adi even though you are busy, just let me know for a moment, because communication is important especially the LDR.LDR relationship that must need smooth communication so that his partner does not worry,moreover, far away and can not meet in person.For the couple is happy even though a short message, and the couple is not suspicious or overthinking, although Adi did not tell me.But Adi remained faithful and kept his feelings for me, I am very grateful to have a loyal partner and know how to keep his woman's feelings.

Adi plans to go to work abroad, but I do not allow to go abroad, but Adi still wants to go abroad.

I had forbidden it but Adi was angry with me, and gave me a choice, namely,

"you choose let me go abroad or I will leave you."I was forced to let go abroad than I was left behind by Adi, because I already loved and loved Adi and was afraid of losing Adi. Although I am not willing to go abroad, Adi,I was forced to give up so that Adi achieved his goals that have been for a long time but have not been fulfilled also until now.Not that I should not but I am afraid if Adi why-why, why,what I am worried about is that when Adi gets on the plane, I believe that Adi will remain loyal to me.What I fear is that Adi why there and I am far from Adi, Adi said, hopefully Adi took care of his health there, and did not forget me here.

25-26 months we both still do not believe that our relationship has lasted all this time, we are grateful that our relationship is durable until now, although sometimes Adi does not give news to me.

But I keep thinking positive thingking, who knows Adi is busy, because many who buy duck rice and roasted chicken rice.I salute with Adi, even though Adi is still young but Adi already has his own business, sometimes his income is a little Adi remains grateful no matter how much he gets.

Now Adi does not have much time for me,Adi is now also studying at LPK(WORKING CHANNELING INSTITUTION), because Adi will work abroad.After Adi closed the shop, Adi,Adi immediately went to LPK to learn Japanese.

Because before the departure to Japan, Ati must be able to speak Japanese first, because there Adi Will speak using Japanese.If Adi mispronounces the letters then the meaning is also different, because there Adi will speak Japanese,Adi must be careful in speaking Japanese, I will definitely worry about Adi's situation there.

Maybe Adi will not be much time for me anymore, because Adi will work in Japan, I am very sad because I have to let Adi go to Japan to find work there.

I yesterday gave Adi advice, to work outside what city outside the island, just,but Adi does not want because Adi wants to work abroad.This is Adi's dream from the past but has not been fulfilled until now, I can only pray that Adi there is fine, okay,and pray for safety to Japan and to return to Indonesia again.

27-28 months did not feel I could survive until now, because we fought together to achieve our goals both of us are united in a legitimate bond,I know it is difficult for both of us to live it.Because running a LDR relationship it must have unlimited patience and if there is no news from Adi, because Adi must be busy with his work, because Adi must be busy with his work,and to be able to propose to me and marry me.

29-30 months our relationship is going well and thankfully our relationship is both durable until now, I am very happy to find Adi, she said,not necessarily other men can survive in a relationship LDR during this time without any meetings.Only can chatan, phone and video call, only,I salute with Adi because Adi can be as patient as this facing my nature like this.Other men are not necessarily able to be as patient as Adi, other men are not necessarily patient to face my nature like this, as well as other men,surely other men will be ilfil with my nature like this.I am afraid that Adi will be ilfil with my nature like this constantly.

31-32 months we run the LDR, without any meeting between us, thankfully our relationship lasted until the moment.But I am now very sad, because Adi has no time for me anymore, because there is no time for me,now Adi is increasingly indifferent to me.Because Adi now after closing the stall Adi directly leave for LPK (JOB CHANNELING INSTITUTION), and, now Adi really no longer have time for me.Now Adi really focus on learning Japanese so that Adi can quickly and directly in the flight to Japan to work.I am very sad because Adi will go abroad, but how else because it's the ideals of Adi since a long time ago, I can only support and support Adi to be more enthusiastic again.If Adi has left for Japan, I can only support Adi,surely Adi won't have time for me anymore,if there is time for me it is only on working holidays Adi only.Besides on holidays surely Adi will not be able to accompany me for phone or video call.

33-34 months thank God I am very happy and grateful, this relationship can last a long time to this day,because it is greater love and fear of loss than their respective egos.Alhamdulillah Adi to this extent is still patient with my nature like this, anger-loving is not clear, but,sometimes also like spoiled unclear and out of my childish nature to Adi.