THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 23 SEEKS TO BE SINCERE WITH WHAT HAPPENED TO ME

Actually, I am still not sincere to release Adi, but the highest level of loving someone by letting go and mengikhlaskan the departure of someone,and let someone be happy with his own choice.Although I still can not release Adi completely, and I, and I feel lost figure Adi, whatever this power.I should be able to mengikhlaskan Adi, Adi,if indeed Adi had to cut ties with me, and return with his wife and child.

And people say if we take someone who leaves us, then we will get a much better replacement than before,I tried to accept what happened to me.Even though I felt a deep heartache and trauma on myself, but I was sure if I could get through these phases.

But I am absolutely sure, if someday there will be a man2 who comes to me, then,because maybe God wants me to be more focused on improving myself and closer to him.And someday God will meet me and my soul mate who has been written in the far reaches of Mahfudz, maybe Allah has written my halal love with my soul mate, no one knows God's plan.I am sure that God's plan will be more beautiful than mine.

God knows what I need not what I want, and God knows the portion that his servant needs.It is true that sincere pronouncing is easy, but not with my heart,my mind and heart are not the same.My mind wants to quickly forget Adi, but not with my heart, my heart still expects and wants Adi Back to me.But I realize if I am not the one that Adi wants,but what Adi wants, but Adi still wants his wife and child.

Although I actually do not want Adi to go away from me, but I know it is not good to hold someone if indeed the person wants to leave us.Let the one who goes let go and the one who comes to welcome, let him,I'm sure there are still a lot of good men out there who want me, but I realized that I was not worthy of anyone, I once thought that I would not open my heart to anyone, because it was definitely just attention and care at the beginning,if he has been dating for a long time he will behave as usual and do the work and routine as before.I am really traumatized and do not want to open my heart again.

I don't want it to happen again, it's better for myself than to have to feel the heartbreak again like I used to,I will find it hard to open my heart again and hard to believe in new people.

I must be able to summarize what happened to me, maybe this is the best way for us, to take each path.I with my own life path and Adi with his life path with his wife and child, with his wife and children,Adi alone can be without me, my time cannot be without Adi.I also have to be without Adi, because I do not want to depend on Adi.I am afraid if I still do not immediately forget Adi, I am afraid if I still do not immediately forget Adi,it will torture me myself and not necessarily Adi remembers me, maybe for Adi I was a momentary impingement,but when Adi is happy and happy that his wife and child are looking for, I sincerely if I am the impingement of Adi, because I believe that karma exists