THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 20 I MISS THE OLD ADI

At this time I am really in the phase of missing someone without asking for news or meeting in person, now I realize that Adi is no one I am anymore,so I have no right to sue Adi to tell me or to take time for me as I used to.

I always remember with Adi, when every night, after Adi closed his duck stall.We always sleep call to sleep or mobile phone between us both dead, we are dead,because his phone died because the battery between the two of us was exhausted, I also still remember when I was sick.Adi was always attentive to me, to the extent that Adi willingly did not sleep just to keep me,I salute Adi.Adi so attention to me, although Adi at that time tired because it just closed the store selling.I was worried that Adi was looking after me who was sick, I was worried,fear Adi will be sleepy at the sale tomorrow because of lack of sleep.

I really can not move on from Adi, because when it is down or down, surely Adi always gives motivation and enthusiasm to me.I miss with Adi who used to be, I miss Adi,whenever I think about Adi, I immediately feel sad and worried about the existence of Adi currently there.I always pray that Adi is always given health and in his protection wherever Adi is, I always pray that Adi is, sometimes I think until when I keep this up and not necessarily Adi thinks of me here.

Until now I still miss Adi, even though I have broken up with Adi for four months and lost contact.But why still think of Adi who is definitely not who I am now,and I still hope Adi will treat me like I used to; attention, always there for me when I'm down,and accompany me to sleep.But it used to be now the situation is different I am no longer anyone Adi.I am just a former Adi, it is just my hallucination, it is just my hallucination,if Adi will treat me like I used to.Kini only remains memories that are difficult to forget, if I try to forget Adi, then I will remember more with Adi.Now I only try to mengikhlaskan Adi, if I try to forget Adi,and enjoy this heartache sincerely, and live it with chest space to be able to accept the ordeal I am experiencing now.

I believe it, though,one day I will be happy and meet a great man who can accept me for who I am and guide me to the path that God is happy.Today my task is only to improve myself better,in order to meet the good men2 and Sholeh, and if I make a mistake in nasehati well neither in angrurin nor in a way snapped.In order to be closer to the creator, I am closer to the creator,and pray that in the meeting a good soul mate and can guide me in the way of God.