THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 24 I REMEMBER ADI THERE WAS A SENSE OF DISAPPOINTMENT AND SADNESS IN MY HEART

I want to quickly forget Adi, because if I remember Adi, there is a race of disappointment and sadness in my heart.I am disappointed because what was spoken is not in accordance with the reality, he said,I am sad because Adi has lied to me and chose to be with his wife and child, even though I have been with him for 24 months, when he was at his lowest point,I am always accompanying and supporting him.But yes it is indeed me and Adi are not paired, I am also grateful because God has seen his nature to me, before heading to the next level.

Allah will not take it away, and will replace it much better than before, God knows what is best for his servant,there will be a man who will accept me as I am, accept my shortcomings and cover my shortcomings with the advantages he has.

Every day I always remember Adi, if you have remembered Adi, there is a deep disappointment in me.I also feel sad in my heart, I think until when I like this.If I like this continue, I feel sad in my heart, for a long time I will stress myself, think of Adi who is not necessarily Adi think of me too.

Adi was so heartless towards me and Adi had also often lied to me, but stupidly I, I still believe in Adi.Because I love Adi sincerely and I also consider Adi as my second home,because I can tell random things without fear in the judge, Adi will listen to me until the new finish Adi will give advice and solutions to my problems.But now if I remember Adi I do not want to,because I don't want to linger in a long sadness.I have to be able to rise again even without Adi, because my journey is still quite long and have to think about my future.

Now I want to focus on my career first, I want to become a famous writer, that's my goal.Hopefully in the near future my ideals can be achieved.I have to immediately forget Adi, I have to forget Adi,because I do not want to be in a long sadness, I also still have goals that I have to reach and make my family happy.

I have to be able to recite Adi, because if I remember it it will torture myself, so I must be able to forget Adi as soon as possible.

Now I can only pray that my feelings and thoughts about Adi be removed immediately, let me calm down without thinking about Adi, But why until now I still can not forget Adi, Adi,what because I still love Adi so much until now, but on the other hand I must be able to forget adi.But I do not want to add to the sadness and heartache of Adi.I am really down at this time, but I do not know who to tell, but I do not know who to tell,because I also need the support of the people I care about.But currently there is no one I can tell about my life problems.

I was afraid that if I told someone about my life problems, they would tell everyone and vilify me behind my back, I didn't want that to happen