THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 14 ANGGA WILL PREPARE MONEY TO PROPOSE TO ME

In addition to Angga focus on his job application, Angga also focus on preparing money to apply for me, and Angga has promised to apply for me as soon as possible.Since Angga does not want me to be applied for by others.

But I am still amazed by Angga

"If I talk about my application and my marriage soon."

Angga always answered, "married it's not just about lust."

But the responsibilities of the husband are great, rather than the responsibilities of being a wife, because if I fail to guide you to the right path and be guided by God, Allah will hold me accountable for your sins in the Hereafter.There is a truth also said by Angga .

I was afraid that I would only be the impingement of Angga for a moment, because Angga has done nothing to me.Bila Angga really loves and loves me, surely Angga will keep my honor until it is legitimate,not even in broken.

Almost I was damaged by Angga, but fortunately my parents, my brother and sister came out of his room.And saved me from the treatment of Angga is not right

Finally I believe in the talk of Angga earlier, too,though I already knew from the beginning that Angga lied to me.Angga talked about the future with me later.I also believe without any words that came out of my mouth.I am very stupid why I immediately believe the talk of Angga, if Angga will propose to me and marry me.I really still doubt the talk of Angga.

Angga uses the word

"I will propose to you", to ruin me, but fortunately I did not become damaged by Angga.Because I tried to fight Angga with all my strength, until finally released from the arms of Angga earlier.

I once thought that I still stuck with Angga, I was afraid for sure Angga would do more than that against me. But the truth is I still hang on with Angga until this second and continue the relationship with Angga.

After I was honest with Adi that I was still expecting Angga, Adi immediately broke off the relationship with me, and in the end I still stayed with Angga for 2 years over 5 months.

It turns out Angga is a big liar, I have been waiting for Angga for 2 years to propose to me, but in fact until now Angga still has no news and has not proposed to me until this moment.

I am afraid that this is only Angga's wits, if all this time lost-contact, because Angga's mobile phone is checked every night.And I am very afraid that Angga will cheat behind me,and playing with other women without my knowledge.But I've promised Angga,I will be loyal and patient waiting for Angga.Angga for the last 2 years there is no news at all to me.Angga has never sent a message and called me for the last 2 years.

I am really very worried about the state of Angga at this time, I try to contact Angga, but Angga's phone number is not active and it is difficult to contact Angga.On the other hand I am very grateful, very grateful,because God has helped me to get away from Angga.I am very happy, because I have not communicated anymore with Angga, but I am still dating Angga.I am confused to choose between Angga or Adi, because on the other hand I still love and love Angga,on the other hand also I am already comfortable with Adi and I consider Adi my second home place if my first home fails.I am really very confused and worried, I am very worried,though I have also been very uncomfortable towards the attitude of Angga to me.I am currently really confused, I have to say what and I have to choose Adi or Angga.

I was initially very confident in Angga, because Angga graduated from the cottage, it turns out my guess is wrong.It turns out Angga has a very big appetite and it is very dangerous for me.Indeed I am a stupid woman why I believe in the false promise Angga to.Should I still choose Adi, I still choose Adi,because Adi loves and loves me with all her heart, and Adi keep my honor.Why I even wasted Adi, indeed I am a woman who is very, very stupid in choosing a partner, in front of my eyes, he has also sacrificed a lot for me and sincerely accept me as I am.

I feel that I am not worthy of anyone, because Angga has done nothing against me.I am now really very down, very down,but fortunately there is Adi who is always there for me, and invites joking me to the extent that I forget my problems.Padahat Adi is nobody I,Adi is only my friend, I am,but Adi is always there for me.Yes even though Adi is only my friend, but like my own girlfriend.Adi always relented to me,Adi also attention to me and fast response to me.Different with Angga,Angga my girlfriend but slow response to me, you do not want to give up and never love attention to me.

Actually it's my girlfriend who is Angga or Adi, because Angga is not always there for me when I am down and sad,while Adi as my friend is always there for me when I am down and sad.

I've been absolutely convinced again with Adi, because Adi kept my honor and Adi did not want to touch me before I legitimate Adi's wife.

Although Adi is not a lodging child, but Adi knows how to treat his woman before becoming his legal wife and Adi will appreciate her woman.Because Adi is afraid of sin, because Adi is afraid of sin,because Adi was rebuked by God and sick for 2 months. And if Adi sins surely Adi's parents will be held accountable in the hereafter for Adi's treatment, because Adi's parents did not educate Adi properly.