THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 15 IN THE END THEY ALL SUPPORTED ME WITH ADI

I am very grateful and relieved, finally they have realized that Angga is not as good as they think and think , as well as they support us both again.I have told you all about Angga's disrespectful attitude, Angga said,I also told my friends and family that Angga had done nothing to me.

And suddenly they all supported me with Adi again, having told all of Angga's attitude to them all. In the end they all supported me with Adi. And they all say,

"virtual mending is okay", than you are dating Angga who has a very big appetite. As a result I tried to approach Adi again, and thought that I could break off the relationship with Angga. Actually I feel sorry and do not have the heart to break the relationship with Angga, but I have to keep severing the relationship with Angga, before Angga do more than that.You or not want me will still cut off the relationship with Angga, Angga,because I've been really uncomfortable with the attitude of Angga like that.I have to find the right time to decide Angga and bring back Adi.

Now I am really confused what to do, want to break the relationship with Angga, but I feel sorry and do not have the heart to break the relationship with Angga.And if I ask for a return with Adi, I feel sorry,I was afraid that Adi would no longer want to be with me

They all told me to immediately break with Angga and return with Adi, I still think long there,between breaking up with Angga or staying with Angga.And I have to stick with Angga's attitude like that and I have to be patient with Angga's indifferent attitude, he said,not attentive and must be lost-contact for the duration of the relationship with Angga.

Angga and I had to hide this relationship from the Angga family, if the Angga family knew that Angga had a girlfriend, he said,surely the Angga family will be furious and Angga must be expelled from his parents' house.Because Angga can not date, before getting a permanent job.

I must immediately think, Because I quickly detached from Angga.I am still confused to talk to Angga, if I want to break up from Angga, even though I am dating Angga.I still smoothly communicate, with Adi, if I want to break up from Angga,even if it's just my friend.

Adi willingly sacrificed his time to accompany me, the fact I still survive with Angga for four years and five months.But Angga still has not kept his promise to propose me and marry me.I wait for Angga until now, Angga,but there is still no news from Angga, I am very, very patient waiting for Angga.But it does not produce results, he said,I am afraid that my wait is in vain.The evidence until now there has been no sign of Angga going to my house to propose to me.I really doubt with Angga, so far,because the wait of four years and five months is still no good news from Angga, I am afraid if Angga only makes me impinge on Angga for a moment.

"why can I choose Angga over Adi?"

Because I think Angga's house with me is close, while Adi's house is very far away.Even different cities and different provinces if my house is close to my boyfriend for sure I can meet once a week with my girlfriend.

I really hope that the neighbors will not tell Angga behavior towards me, hopefully this secret is safe, Samapi anytime and hopefully my neighbors forget what I told at that time.

Hopefully all my family does not suspect me, Angga and my neighbors, because it has been secret about the behavior of Angga against me.Adi also already know the behavior of Angga to me, because it has been secretive about the behavior of Angga,only my family does not know that Angga's depraved behavior.

Hopefully they all do not change their minds anymore, to tell me to reciprocate with Angga.Finally me and Adi close again, we are both close again for three months, he said,but I have not yet reciprocated with Adi we are both just ordinary friends, I pray that I can immediately return it to Adi.Because Adi is patient, he said,always there for me and always support and support what I like.

I am very grateful, it turns out that Adi still wants to be friends with me, if Adi does not want to be friends, I am sad and lonely, because I at home do not have friends, my friends are just one ,njai's friend first.

I am still confused, how to invite Adi back, because I am still embarrassed and insecure with Adi.Because I am self-aware too, I am a woman who is not right.I am very sorry.why did not always just survive the same Adi, because I was also aware of myself,if I still survive with Adi surely this incident could not have happened to me.Why I used to choose a good Angga,but in fact the best even I wasted.Untung good Adi still want to be friends with me, I still think long ,whether Adi still wants to return to me and accept me as I am.I am afraid if Adi is not willing to accept me, because I have been treated by Angga who is not-no.

Not because we both made friends for a year and more three months, but we still have not reciprocated, I am afraid if I do not invite Adi to reciprocate first, later with each other girl, I am afraid,what I asked Adi back Adi first was still in my mind.

We were friends for up to two years and 5 months, but I am very grateful, because my friendship with Adi is still fine.Although friendship through online or virtual, because,Adi was always there for me.Unlike my girlfriend named Angga.Until finally we were friends for four years and five months,I did not expect that I would be friends all this time with Adi.For four years and five months Adi was always there when I was down, sad and at my lowest point, he said,while Angga did not give news for four years and five months and Angga never cared about my situation.

I am really fed up with Angga's attitude and I am also already uncomfortable with Angga's treatment of me.I will break off with Angga in March, on Wednesday, he said,on the 23rd I will speak to Angga.