THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 18 ADI IS A BIG LIAR

From the beginning I was suspicious of Adi, it was seen from his eyes there was a lie hidden from me,but I still think positive maybe this is just my feeling.Time continues to go on until we both have a relationship for three months, Adi finally told me the truth and honestly,that Adi is married and already has children.After Adi told me, I was there immediately sad and disappointed, I made a decision while still emotional.In the end I broke off the relationship with Adi, I decided,but I broke up with Adi just one day, the next day Adi asked to return with me and finally we both reversed again.

Well here we both have a long relationship, here I ask certainty to Adi, but Adi said

"yes I will propose to you soon."

But in reality no, it was just a word that calmed me down for a moment,from his eyes it has been discovered that Adi is not serious with me and I was made an impingement by Adi only.And I also saw from his eyes Adi has not been able to make peace with his mass until in the end I became an impingement Adi for a moment, after his relationship improved with the people of his mass, I was left alone and Adi chose to be with people in his mass.It turns out true that new people will still lose to the people of his past, often first,I was really disappointed to hear that Adi chose to be with his people.

Here I still think positively that, indeed Adi is not my soul mate, surely God will replace it much better than Adi.Allah certainly knows what his servant needs, maybe God wants the best for his servant.

until now I still hope Adi will come back to me again, but it will not be possible Adi returned to me, because Adi already has a wife and children.Dan Adi once told me, because Adi never told me, because Adi,if Adi still loves and loves his wife and child.I also told Adi, "if the wife still likes cheating, I ask Adi to give one more chance."If his wife still wants to change lead back to the path of God, and if her mistake is repeated again better separate, do what if it persists but always in pain continue.Adi also ernah told me, I will not forget,if his wife like that continues, then he has betrayed me for the second time.If he is still like that pity his son if his wife still likes to betray and play behind from Adi.

Sometimes when I think of Adi, I always cry because I really lost Adi.I also still think of Adi if it is night, I always cry because I really lost Adi,whether Adi there is okay or again Why-why yes.But I always think positive, maybe this is just my feeling, and I dream Adi suddenly my WhatsApp.After I answered WhatsApp Adi, I will answer,Adi live my video call, and the position of Adi when my video call with a state of crying.So that I immediately wake up because it has shown at:03.00 in the morning,I immediately rushed to the bathroom to take ablution water and perform tahajud prayer two rakaat.After finishing the tahajud prayer I prayed to Allah,so that I was given strength and patience to face the trials that will come to me.Had prayed I continued by reading the Qur'an and all waiting for the morning prayer to reverberate.Finally the morning adhan was reverberating,after the reverberating adhan I immediately performed the morning qobliyah prayer service, because the morning qobliyah prayer is like the world and the rest.I here pray that the best soul mate for me.In order to get a partner as soon as possible.because I can no longer live in my parents' house.Because in the my parents' house, I'm here as if I were a maid only, I've been thinking like this

"don't I just get married."

because I am still traumatized by what I experienced in my parents' home.