THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 19 HAVING YOU IS JUST MY WISH
From the beginning of my courtship I had high hopes of having you all, and I hope Adi will be my last companion,I also imagined Adi would marry me and live forever.I also imagined that Adi married me, surely my life will be happy, I will be happy,and increase our happiness if the gift of a child Sholeh and Sholehah.
But it was all just my imagination, but in reality I was wrong to suspect, turns out Adi came back again with his wife and child.I was too hoping for more and had such a big wish to Adi, he said,I imagined that Adi would be with me, but in fact not.Adi would prefer to return with his wife and child, he said,until breaking up with me.I still dream if Adi will be back with me someday.But that will not be possible, because Adi would definitely prefer to be with his wife and child, he said,because Adi still loves and loves his wife and child.Adi still persevere and patient with the nature of his wife, because his wife had cheated on Adi, but Adi still forgave his wife and in the opportunity to change.
Adi was very confident with his wife, if his wife would change with time,Adi is really very patient to face the nature of his wife.Adi pity with his son because his wife's thinking is still like a child and his mind is not so mature, he said,because his wife still likes to cheat and turn away from Adi.Disaat his wife away from Adi or run LDR.
What his wife does not pity his son, if his nature is still like a child, when his wife is very lucky to get Adi.Adi's man is very royal or not stingy, Adi used to buy me the things I want, he said,but that was when I was his girlfriend Adi.Adi also often buy the food I want, and if at home there is no food Adi directly buy a side dish for me to eat, although Adi looks cute but the original Adi is attention.
It turns out my wish is too high to make me traumatized and afraid to open my heart Back.I am afraid if I open my heart again, the ending will be the same and I will be left so alone, as I am now experiencing.
It turns out that it is true not to expect more with humans, because humans can change at any time, if you expect more with humans, surely we will feel a very deep disappointment to someone.Love someone appropriately, just love someone,and do not expect more if you do not want to feel a very great heartbreak, if the status is still dating.So do not be afraid to lose someone, fear if you lose God in your heart,it could be that God distanced him and replaced him who was much better than him.
Because God knows what we need is not what we want, God only we want to be closer to him, God wants us to pray and strive.
