THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 12 I HAD TO LOSE - CONTACT WITH ANGGA

I had to lose contact with Angga, because every night Angga's mobile phone is checked by his mother. Actually I suspect with Angga, that every night Angga mobile phone in check his mother was only the reason Angga only.

I have to be sad or happy because I have no contact with Angga anymore.I am sad to have lost contact with Angga, and I am happy also because it is not related to Angga anymore, I am not comfortable with Angga.

I am very happy, because I am free from Angga. When Angga first said "lost contact", my feelings were very sad but only for a moment and I had to cry because I had to lose contact with Angga.

But on the other hand I am already uncomfortable with Angga, I am also comfortable and affectionate with Adi.I am very happy because I have not communicated with Angga,and I'm so happy that I'm back in touch with Adi, that he always appreciates, respects, and keeps my honor, to the extent that Adi does not want to hug me when I meet later and keep a distance with me.Adi also does not want to kiss me, because if Adi does that it is the same Adi damage me, according to Adi.

I am so thankful now that I have a friend like Adi. Always take care of me, always have time for me. And Adi always supported and encouraged me in my moments down. Although Adi was far away but at least Adi took time for me every night, and Adi every night read me short letters before I went to bed.

But tonight, I told Adi to recite the letter Al-Mulk, Adi was even angry not clear to me, it turns out Adi wanted to be alone, he said,but Adi wants to always be there for me and does not want to make me sebel and disappointed.And at the end of the day Adi still make me sebel, I am the last but why Adi always block my whatsapp number.

I really hate if Adi suddenly blocks my whatsapp number, and I am very upset and bete same Adi.I am confused to do what if Adi blocks my number.I send a message and call Adi, I am confused,but Adi did not reply to my message and did not pick up my phone.

Adi has been two days this makes me bete and bete, all night Adi did not video call me, because Adi again accompanied his mas who was sick.And Adi today told me,"that the next few days Adi not vc and phone for a while", I immediately thought that Adi would accompany his mas again.

I also thought I was sick, but Adi did not accompany me, I think that I should not be selfish.Since Adi also rarely accompany his mas, too,I was accompanied every day Adi when he wanted to sleep and his phone was deliberately not turned off so that Adi accompanied me to sleep.Sometimes his phone died alone at midnight.Although Adi is still my friend, but Adi always accompanied me to sleep and was always there for me.