THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 11 I WAS CONFUSED AS TO WHO TO CHOOSE

I am currently really very confused and indecisive, having to choose between Angga or Adi, this is a very heavy choice for me .

I have to make my choice from now on, actually I am comfortable with Adi, and I am also still affectionate and in love with Angga.I still keep this feeling for Angga, he said,though I already have Adi who is always there for me and patiently face my attitude like this.

If I choose Angga, I am also not comfortable with Angga, because Angga has a very big appetite.Angga also does not want to sacrifice for me, Angga really do not have time for me.

While Adi has sacrificed a lot for me, Adi always takes time for me and Adi is always there in my moments of down and sad.

I really hope that Adi will be my soul mate and the last man for me, because I do not want to lose Adi.

I was tired of getting acquainted with new men, and began to tell about each other's shortcomings,I better improve my relationship with Adi who already know the bad.I think not necessarily if I get acquainted with new men will accept me as I am and my shortcomings, I think not necessarily if I get acquainted with new men will accept me as I am, not necessarily also the new man can be patient to face my attitude like this.

Adi always relented when again quarrelling with me, He was very patient to face my selfish attitude and sometimes I also often angry indistinctly to Adi.

Adi tried to make me happy in his own way, even if it was in a simple way.

Now I began to appear again fear, if Adi's mother did not approve of my relationship with Adi, and I was afraid that Adi's mother told Adi to leave me and be told to come back again with his wife.

Adi suddenly had a thought that I would leave him like his wife now, I tried to convince Adi that I would not leave Adi I told Adi

"I will not leave you no matter what, I will accompany you to the end of my life."

Because Adi is afraid that I will leave Adi like his wife who left Adi at this time.

I also have a fear that Adi will leave me when Adi succeeds, and I am afraid of Adi, because Adi used to like to be rude and drunk. I was afraid if Adi was angry with me, Adi would hit me.Hopefully my guess has been wrong, and hopefully Adi has really turned into a much better and more patient person.

I can now only pray and hope that Adi's mother will bless this relationship, because I am afraid that Adi's mother will not approve of this relationship and I am afraid that Adi's mother, Adi's mother, will be in the first place,told Adi ninggalin me.I was afraid if later in told the household destroyer people or actors

May my guess against Ibu Adi be wrong, may mother Adi bless me with Adi.I hope Adi's mother will be my mother-in-law, may Adi's mother be good with me, may Adi's mother be good with me,hopefully Adi's mother thinks of me like her own biological child.

And hopefully, the Adi family can accept me as I am and be well received in the Adi family.