THE FUTILE STRUGGLE OF THE LDR
CHAPTER 10 I BALIKAN WITH ANGGA BUT I STILL SURVIVE WITH ADI

I ended up back with Angga, but I still stick with Adi because I want to select them both, I want to know who deserves to fight, defend and deserve me.

At first I was convinced by Angga, because Angga is a lodge child, and I already thought that I was reciprocated with Angga, I will be taught to teach with true tajwid.It turns out my guess is wrong, I was wrong,Angga even invited me to commit adultery in my house.

Actually I have known since Angga played to my house when he first came here.It has been seen from his face that Angga has a very big appetite.

I'm actually afraid of Angga, not afraid Angga doing more than that to me.

If Angga is caught while still in contact with me, Angga's mobile phone will be confiscated by his mother.

I am also in fact inferior to Angga, because Angga can cook, make cakes and many others.Angga has shortcomings namely; great lust and temperamental child.Angga helps his father to take care of the workshop.

If Angga say goodbye to my house, Angga always say goodbye to his mother playing to his friend's house in pepelegi.

If Angga say goodbye to my house certainly not allowed out of the house by his mother, because if still in contact with me, his mother will actually confiscate Angga's handpone.

I was afraid that Angga would only play tricks on me and only be an Anga's impingement for a moment.

I've been thinking if Angga does not need me and Angga will play to another woman's house, I suspect with Angga that Angga has other women besides me.

I was really very stupid at all why I had to choose Angga, turns out Angga only makes me for the impingement of Angga for a moment.Actually I had doubts with Angga from the beginning, because the nature of Angga has not changed from the first.

Because Angga wanted to get away from me and be able to play with other women without my knowledge.

Actually on Friday I should have gone out with Angga to find snacks, but I was afraid if Angga took me to his friend's house and did more than that to me,I was afraid Angga would ruin me because of Angga's improper treatment.

Angga came to my house and apologized to me, 'They also told me, "if we lost contact how?"

I said "yes, gapapa".

Because Angga took his mother to Surabaya to visit his brother who was sick at that time.

Actually my feelings are mixed between sad and disappointed because it does not come out, but I am relieved to hear that it does not come out with Angga, he said,honestly I was afraid that Angga would do more than that to me.

Actually I want to break the relationship with Angga I do not have the heart and feel sorry for Angga.

I was also uncomfortable with Angga, because Angga had done that to me.

I was really worried about having to choose between Adi or Angga, this is a very heavy election for me.If I decide Adi I do not have the heart, because Adi has sacrificed a lot for me, because Adi has sacrificed a lot for me,and if I choose Angga I am afraid if Angga will do more than that.