Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Grace 52

Tonight I'm presenting stew chicken and kale sauteing.

After eating, Mama and Ririn decided to rest in my room. While Tari wants to sleep close to her father.

Maybe because it was too far away, Mama and the other family had fallen asleep.

I and Adzam are still awake. There's a clumsy feeling. I handed the pillows and the makeshift blankets to Adzam.

" Fi, can we talk for a minute up front?"

" Speak what?"

He pulled my hand out.

I'm already beside him.

" How are you?"

" Good mas."

" Tomorrow we'll go home! Your place and my son aren't here."

I stared at him in the light of my porch.

" It's the most comfortable place for me now, Mom. And for your son too. I don't have a home to go to."

" Who said you have nowhere to go? Our home will forever be our home. And tomorrow we'll be home."

From his voice, Adzam tried to dampen his anger.

" God, be happy with your present marriage. I'm also here trying to be happy, trying to move on, trying to get up from the slump of our household. Don't ever think that our home is going to be back to how it was. It's been over for five years." Soft words.

"Because of Mr Rizky?" Mas Adzam began to intimidate.

I shook my head with a smile, "This has nothing to do with Mr. Rizky, mas."

" He loves you and wants to marry you."

" What's wrong if I start a new life with another man?" I asked him back.

" Do you like it?"

" If so why? If not why?" I asked him back.

" You're still my wife and you have no right to marry any man."

You freak!

" I never divorced you." Say Mas Adzam with the pedal.

The vow! I want to give a raw bogem on the face of Mas Adzam.

I got up from my seat and was about to leave it. But I did not succeed, because my hand was pulled by Mas Adzam.

" Oh!" I fell in the arms of Adzam.

" Never be separated from me, forever you are mine and will be mine." The whisper of Adzam's car is right in my ear.

" Take off the mas." I tried to avoid it when Mas Adzam brought his face closer to me.

It's locking me up. My strength is not in proportion to the strength of Mas Adzam.

I don't know what demon possessed Adzam mas until Adzam's lips successfully touched my lips.

Even now I enjoy every touch given by mas Adzam. My heart seemed to want to refuse, but my body missed this touch.

Long enough our lips touch each other, even now I return the touch. Adzam's hands began to spread to the chest area.

Even that hand had slipped into the shirt. The dimly lit porch lights made Adzam so free to taste me.

When Adzam's hand touched my chest, I suddenly regained my senses and pushed Adzam.

" Enough of the mas!" I justify my clothes starting to get ruffled.

" Why?" The sound of Mas Adzam is hoarse, probably because it holds something that has not been channeled.

" Aren't you enjoying? I know you miss." Adzam tried to take me back.

But I swiftly refused.

" I said enough mas!" I left him alone outside.

I put my daughter's body into the room. I forgot to lock the room. Now I've been running a thin carpet as my bed with Dance downstairs.

I didn't let Mas Adzam sleep near my daughter. I'm afraid he's ruining my daughter's future. Even if it is dad

own birth.

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The morning came, my mother and the other family began to get ready. He said they'd be home today.

Dance also today does not go to school. He was busy with his father.

" Mommy's home today?"

" It's not just mama who came home, you and Tari also have to come home today." Mama answered with anger.

"Ma.."

" When did you fight my mother? Until whenever you remain Adzam's wife and remain a mother's child. Mom is old, Afi. Mama just wants to enjoy life with my granddaughter." Mama asked me to pity her.

I left my mom, and started making breakfast this morning.

" Let's eat!"

We started to enjoy the meal this morning. The atmosphere this morning was cold, no one spoke during the meal this morning.

After finishing enjoying breakfast this morning I began to take care of all the rest of our meal earlier.

When all was ahead, I was alone in the kitchen.

I sat at the kitchen door. I wiped my tears that were dripping. I'm confused about staying here or going back to my mama's palace.

" Fii.." Mas Adzam touched my shoulder.

He sits near me.

" Why cry?" ask again.

I am getting more and more excited because of the presence of Mas Adzam.

He rubbed my shoulder many times.

" I'm sorry that coming here makes you sad. Sorry if my mom's request is too much for you to follow."

" Gold, I've been through these five years so hard just being alone with Dance. As much as possible I'll erase all our memories."

" You don't have to erase our memories, because you never try to erase our memories. All our good memories are stored here." He patted his own chest.

" But ask for one thing with you, once you come with us. If you don't want to stay there, you can come back here."

I stared at Adzam, looking for the truth in every word.

" Make today like you're coming home." Adzam sage.

Adzam hugged me tightly.

" Get ready! So that we leave immediately." said Mas Adzam.

I got up from my seat and immediately arranged some of my clothes and Dance.

Dance has also taken a shower.

Now we are ready to leave.

mas Adzam and Tari got in the car.

While Mama and Ririn had also gotten into the car Raka was driving.

I was trying to lock the house, until Mr. Rizky came in front of my house and stopped.

He got off his bike.

" Where are you going?" Ask wonder.

"Ehm I want to.."

" Want to go back to town with your husband?"

Mr. Rizky's words are so striking to me.

" I'd like to go to Mama's house, sir." Briefly said. Because right now there's nothing I need to explain to Mr. Rizky. Me and Mr. Rizky have no special bond.

" How long?" Ask Mr. Rizky.

" Did Afi tell you how long he was gone?"

Suddenly Adzam was between the two of us.

Mas Adzam stared intently at Mr. Rizky.

Afraid something might happen, I pulled Adzam to get in the car.

After Mas Adzam got into the car, I also say goodbye to Mr. Rizky.

" Sir, I'll excuse you." I said polite to Mr. Rizky.

" Be careful." Say again.

I nodded and smiled then stepped into the car.

The next second the car drove away my village.

" Dad, the car's cold." Say Happy dance.

" Dance of cold?" Ask me about Adzam.

I took out my jacket and gave it to Tari.

" Well, Dari seneng can ride a car. There are songs not like mom's train. Ugly!" Laughing dance giggling on the back bench.

Mas Adzam smiled when he heard his daughter's words.

" Later if it's the same grandma's house, father will take you to the Mall." Promise of Adzam.

" The mall has its own staircase, huh?"

" Yes, it's called the Escalator dear." Mas Adzam patiently gave an explanation to Tari.

Now they laugh together.

Mas Adzam played Tari's favorite song, and Tari really enjoyed her first trip.

" He's missed too much." Mas Adzam.

I did not respond to Adzam's remarks. Right now I want to close my eyes because I am sleepy because I think about Adzam who almost did the same to me.