Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Jaws 10

After eating, I don't want to be stale anymore.

" Hanum, may I borrow your womb? I asked seriously.

Mas Adzam nudged my leg. Maybe a little surprised by my slightly frontal attitude.

I just glanced at it using the tail of my eyes, that Adzam was flabbergasted with his mouth forming the letter o.

Forgive your wife now. I speak for myself in my heart.

Hanum remained silent. Sometimes he takes a breath and throws it away. I think he's gathering energy to talk about this important thing.

He looked at me and Adzam took turns. It makes me a little impatient with his decision.

" Can I ask Fi?"

" Please!"

" Are you happy if your husband remarries?"

" Yes alu ridho because this is all with my permission." Reply firmly.

" Look Num, you married my husband with permission of one hundred percent. The rights and obligations between me and you are equally no difference. Later you will also be married officially with mas Adzam." Obviously in detail.

" What's your decision then?" In my heart I was afraid, afraid that he would refuse to marry Adzam. If that happens then my dream of holding Adzam's son will not come true.

Long Hanum fell silent. Adzam and I glanced at each other and hoped to be anxious.

"Fi, I'm willing to marry Mas Adzam."

Finally came the words I was waiting for.

" Thank God...." I hugged Adzam.

It feels good because Hanum wants to share his happiness with us.

I also hugged Hanum, many times I thanked her.

Maybe some people will think I'm a crazy woman. Where there is a sane woman who allows her husband to remarry with his best friend.

But I don't care about other people's thoughts.

This is my household life, so the only ones who can make the decision are me and Adzam.

" Num, we don't have to think about anything. Simply provide the documents needed for the wedding only. Events and places let me and Mas Adzam take care of. Is it not mas?" I tried to get an opinion on Adzam.

Mas Adzam just nodded like a buffalo on his nose.

" When will the wedding take place?" ask Hanum kikuk .

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" Fastly." The ambanku quickly.

" Well, when it's over, I'll say goodbye."

" Eit, a moment. go home with Adzam and go to the office."

Adzam nodded nervously.

Hanum got into Adzam's car. There was pain in my chest. How can I willingly let Mas Adzam car with my own best friend.

Mas Adzam was still looking at me from a distance, hesitating to get into the car.

I gave her the code. Smiling at my husband.

He smiled wryly at me. Sorry for that... I wave my hand. Adzam's car passed leaving me alone.

I'm pinching my forehead. Lean on the strong walls. For a long time I sat on the floor. I looked up at the sky of this house so that my tears would not spill. That's how tight I think it is. I'm worried, back off or move on?

This body feels powerless, weak. What I have in mind is what my husband is doing in the car with my best friend?

One by one, my tears rolled. So fragile was I..

" Fi, conscious Fi.."

Someone is like calling - calling my name. But it's too far away that sound.

Until my body feels in a strong shake.

I realized, there was the face of Hajjah Halimah near me.

" What's wrong with you? Until you don't hear Ummi's call. Your eyes are empty, far ahead, son. You didn't even hear Ummi's call, only your tears were flowing. You even cried without a sound. What's the matter exactly?"

Ummi charged me with all kinds of questions.

I am still as much as I like, it feels like some of my soul is not welcome to see the togetherness of Adzam and Hanum.

" Ummi, would it be a sin if we told our husbands to remarry?"

Ummi looked at me deeply. It was like he wanted to read my mind.

" What's wrong with your house, son?"

Ummi wiped the corner of his eye.

" Ummi, I had Mas Adzam remarry with my best friend Ummi, but my heart was tight to see them both in the car." Answer sobbing.

Ummi stroked my head, swept my body into the house. Ummi passed into the kitchen to get water.

" Drink first."

I took the glass from Ummi's hand.

Ummi picked up the tissue on the table, and gently wiped my face.

" It's quiet?" ask Ummi.

I'm nodding.

" Dearly, if you are not ridho, do not sincerely should your plan to match with your best friend is canceled. If you ask for Ummi's opinion as a woman, of course Ummi will think that Ummi is not ready in honey." explained Ummi.

I was still pensively thinking about Ummi's words. Am I ridho?

" Ummi, among us there are no children, while I have been sentenced to barren doctor ummi."

" Patience is the medicine of all medicine. Istigfar begs for forgiveness from Allah. Ummi call Adzam yes..!" Tawar Ummi's.

" No need Ummi, Insha Allah Afi is better." I refused Ummi's offer.

However, Adzam cannot know about the worries of my heart.

Finally Ummi said goodbye home.

Oh Allah forgive me..

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It was late afternoon, Mas Adzam had just returned from the office. Mas Adzam was cleaning himself in the bathroom.

I went into the room, Adzam mas mobile phone is located on the table.Five years I never cared about Amas Adzam. somehow since Hanum received to be the second wife mas Adzam my heart was always filled with suspicion.

I put my ears on the bathroom wall and still heard water splashing. I walked around to pick up Adzam's mobile phone.

I checked Adzam's contacts. My eyes widened to see Hanum's number in the row of contacts belonging to Mas Adzam.

That's the Nelangsa I think. Just one day a car with my best friend, Mas Adzam has managed to ask for my best friend's number.

It is true that Cats will never refuse if given fish, Crocodiles also never refuse if given meat.

Adzam is like a cat and a crocodile. Enjoy all this.

I sat down on the edge of the bed. There is no passion in living this life. I think Adzam will be sad or thinking about everything...

Adzam is out of the bathroom. He was whistling, a very rare thing to do. Adzam are you this happy? My mind screams.

" Who are the tumben clothes not prepared?"

" huh? What mas" I was nervous and didn't hear what he said.

" Where's the shirt?" Adzam repeated his question.

I patted my eel, "I'm sorry I forgot it."

I opened the closet and got Adzam's clothes.

" Which, it turns out Hanum is a soupy person." said mas Adzam.

The deg! My heart stopped beating.

That fast was Adzam?