Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Jaws 40

My eyes are starting to blur. My energy was exhausted too. Even now I feel sleepy until mama and Ririn repeatedly shake my face so that I realize.

" Come on, mom, a little more!" doctor's orders.

As I began to despair, Adzam's face and Hanum's smile insulted me reflected in my eyes.

With all my might I pushed back, and...

Oek...

The sound of a baby crying so loud filled this room...

My tears broke, The three of us cried together...

There is happiness, sadness in the process of giving birth to me. The first child without a husband, even since he was five months old, his father did not stand beside us.

" Thank God, ma'am, baby girl, healthy, beautiful again like her mother." Answer sister.

I'm done giving birth, and now I'm going to be hospitalized for recovery and tomorrow we can go home.

When the door of the room opened, there was a familiar face standing in front of the door where I had given birth. His face was so tense, and now it turned cheerful when the door was already open.

Not to be left next to him, there was the figure of my best friend who held his arm tightly, like fear of loss.

He looked me in the face, but I threw away my eyes.

He took his hand off Hanum's grip. Now he's pushing me into the inpatient room.

We are already in the room.

My baby was placed next to me but separated by the baby box.

Mas Adzam came back to me, Cup! one kiss landed on my forehead.

He put his lips on my forehead for a long time.

I who suddenly received such treatment was immediately shocked, Is he ashamed to do this in front of his family?

Then, was he afraid of Hanum being jealous?

You weird guy!

After kissing me, he approached our baby, he was holding our baby full of love.

Next he called for the sound of the adhan in the ears of our little girl.

There is a sense of haru, because Mas Adzam still comes to this place to meet his daughter.

I wiped my spilled tears. The road of marriage is winding and ends drama like this.

Mas Adzam kissed our little princess many times.

Until a nurse came into our room,

" I'm sorry ma'am, what's her daughter's name because we're going to make a birth certificate." Obviously the sister.

Mas Adzam looked at me, the atmosphere became silent.

" Bintari Iswara."

The sister wrote the name I mentioned, then she showed me the book so I could check the letters she wrote

" It's right, sus."

after saying thank you, the nurse said goodbye and passed from before us.

" Why did you name our son without asking me for advice?"

No rain, no wind, suddenly Adzam did not accept the name I gave my little daughter.

I smiled cynically at Adzam's mas, you ignorant man.

"Where have you been all this time?" I asked him a good question.

" Aren't you too busy with your second wife? Didn't I pass through it every night by myself? Even these few months you never send money for the needs of me and our future baby. Now you feel unconfessed? ck...." I shook my head as a sign of not understanding.

Mas Adzam's face hardened, even Hanum snorted.

I was tired of seeing the faces of both of them.

Mas Adzam is still holding our baby. Maybe he was already hooked on the charm of Bintari.

Night has come, the clock on the wall shows ten o'clock.

Mas Adzam insisted on staying here with his flesh and blood.

While Hanum seemed agitated, he might not be here.

Mas Adzam could read the anxiety of his wife,

Without many words also without saying goodbye hanum passed from before us.

" Basic jelangkung, come not picked up home not delivered." Syndicate Ririn while giggling.

Mas Adzam glared at Ririn. Suddenly, Ririn shut her mouth.

The atmosphere was silent again, until a nurse came in, "Mom, the clock is up. So the rule in this hospital is there's only one person accompanying the patient." Answer and go away.

We look at each other. Mama got up from her seat, "Raka, Ririn, let's go home!" Mom started packing.

" Sir..?"

Mama seems to know I do not want to be accompanied by mas Adzam.

Mama approaches, "Fi, Adzam Bintari's father. It's worth it to keep you here. So that he knows the weight of being a parent." Mama hugged me kissing my forehead.

" Zam, take good care of your family. Remember that! there is already Bintari, this baby that you are waiting for a long time. Is there already? There's nothing you'd expect from Hanum. Please listen to my mom!"

Mas Adzam takes mom ahead.

I looked at our little princess, Bintari Iswara.

I held her gently in my arms.

Until I was unconscious, Mas Adzam had already noticed me at the door.

He approached me, now there are only three of us. Me, Mas Adzam and also Bintari. This should be a complete formation for our family. But unfortunately our family has been disabled since I put Hanum into our household.

" Fi, sleep!" Mas Adzam took Bintari from my lap.

He put the sleeping Bintari into the baby box next to me.

How can I sleep if he stays sitting next to me. There was no conversation between the two of us. The atmosphere between us was cold. Even the sound of chasing was heard by my ears.

" Fi, how are you?"

Honestly I laughed in my heart to hear the phrase alkaline from mas Adzam.

He smiled to himself, probably feeling awkward after a few months of not talking to me.

" Fi, thank you for keeping Bintari in the womb." Say again.

" Bintari the strong boy. That's why he was born into this world." I insinuate mas Adzam.

Again, he could only smile to himself.

" Yes, I know that. Sorry for my mistake all this time because..."

Adzam's words were interrupted by the sound of crying from Bintari.

Without me asking him to check Bintari's diaper, "Wet huh, baby?"

Slowly he opened the Bintari diapers, then replaced them with new ones.

" Honey, Dance thirsty?" He took Bintari from the box and handed it to me.

He then made milk for Bintari, he read the instructions on the milk packaging.

Whether touched or still in love, my lips smile at the alertness of Adzam in looking after us. Even the ringing sound of the phone that sounded was completely ignored.

He took Bintari from my lap, then he took Bintari and gave her milk.

Good job!

" Well, dad's son is great! Thirsty is that why? After drinking milk.." Mas Adzam spoke for himself, as if Bintari could be invited to communicate.

The clock showed at one in the morning. I started yawning, my eyes heavy.

Bintari was fast asleep.

I pulled the blanket over half my body. Beyond my expectations, Mas Adzam helped me. " Good night." Whisper it and land a kiss on my forehead.

I glared at him, He just laughed crisply without feeling guilty.

" The crocodile!" My grave is in Adzam.

I started to close my eyes.

Sayup-sayup still heard the sound of Mas Adzam. Looks like he's getting a call.

" What's wrong with accompanying Afi? Is there still less time to be with you? Your request is out of bounds, Num."

The atmosphere was quiet again, it seemed like Adzam decided to talk to Hanum.

I feel stupid about them. It's time to close my eyes and sleep well.