Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Grace 38

Again Raka broke the daydream.

You idiot! Why am I being a stupid woman? Let him live with Hanum. Most importantly, I have to make myself happy. I'm not alone. There are people around me who love me.

Ikhlaskan mas Adzam and Hanum happy. Maybe my destiny to live with Mas Adzam only got here. If God had written down destiny, what could I be as a human being?

after being satisfied to enjoy the beauty of this park, we immediately went home.

But when I was about to walk towards the car, my eyes looked at a figure I knew.

They were laughing happily, without any burden at all.

I don't know why my legs are so heavy to walk. Even my eyes were already wet staring at their happiness and affection.

Raka who had first gotten into the car finally came back out to see me.

He was just like me, no less surprised to see a pair of lovebirds laughing without burden.

Either because it was predestined by God to meet, until Adzam realized there was me who stood with a face already wet with tears.

Now he's just like me, staring and staring at me. No one expected Hanum to leave this place.

Raka nudged my hand, taking me away from this place. But I still survive in this place. I wonder, what was Adzam's reaction when he saw me? Do you remember he ever loved me? Do you remember that before this problem existed we were once in a legal marriage? Remember that before Hanum, I was the only woman who shared a blanket, shared everything. Do you remember, before the success of now, there was me who prayed for him to always be successful in achieving work?

Adzam came to step towards me. Instantly my heart was racing. There is a great longing.

Now our distance is just a few steps away. Hanum did not want to miss running after Mas Adzam. He was afraid that Adzam would be interested in me again.

Oops! Without shame, he held the hand of Mas Adzam. He stared cynically at me

Adzam's gaze descended on my stomach, it stopped right in the part of my stomach that seemed to be enlarged.

His gaze was sad, Does he miss our baby candidate.

I noticed Hanum's appearance which was like the appearance of a classy woman. The clothes attached to his body were famous branded clothes. Not good at Adzam. Does he not remember the word saving?

My eyes were as if I did not want to stare at Hanum, my gaze falling on her flat stomach. I think Adzam has managed to make Hanum, in fact his stomach is still slim and flat.

Mas Adzam looked cynically at Raka, he stepped back his feet closer towards us.

" So, after coming out with me, you're going to get close to my sister."

I swear, this is a very painful word for me. After a few months of not seeing each other, I thought he was sane. I was actually wrong. Once crazy is still crazy.

Raka started to clench her hands. It was as if he was holding back his anger.

" So this is why you don't want to marry another woman, Raka? I've never seen you close to another woman. You seem to like my wife?" Insincerity spicy.

" She, I think you're sane, but you're still crazy. You should be grateful to have a very good sister like Raka. Oh yes, you do not know if soon Raka will marry the woman of her choice? Please wash your brain often, so that there is not much garbage."

After I conveyed my heart, I quickly pulled Raka's hand to leave this place immediately.

I'm afraid that these brothers are fighting each other.

We have successfully left in the presence of Adzam and Hanum.

*****

Raka's car entered the mama's yard area, looking mama was casually sitting on the terrace.

I told Raka. We have to keep the feeling of Mom. Mas Adzam is the proud son of mama, I am sure mama must feel the loss of her child.

I got into the house first, while Raka put the car into the garage.

" Assalamu'alaikum, ma."

I kissed mama's wrinkled cheeks.

" Where's Fi?"

" Want to know what you want to know?" I laughed to myself because I had the courage to joke with my mom.

Mama just smiled as she shook her head, "It's up to you." Answer mama.

I sat next to my mom, "Afi was walking with Raka, ma "

" Well, once a cute boy tumben it would take the mbaknya a walk." Mama insinuates Raka who has come.

Raka just grinned and passed away leaving us.

" Thank God, Fi, you are now much better, much stronger. Sorry mama's son! Mama is sure at this time mama's children are just lost and forget to go home. Mama is also sure if in her heart there is still your name. Trusting my mom. And one pinta mama never divorced mama's son." There was a sad look and sincerity on my face.

" Doain Afi keep ya, ma." We hugged tightly.

*****

I looked at the ceiling of this room. Lonely! Every night I just lock up in this room. And our meeting was again presenting the face of Mas Adzam. I took the phone on the table. I haven't opened an app with a blue logo in a long time. I typed in Adzam's name, but I didn't find the account at all. Could it be that Mas Adzam blocked everything related to me? Even my number in the green logo application has been blocked. There is no access for me and Mas Adzam to send word to each other.

" Dad, are you sure you want to part with me? Mom asked that we be together. Give me certainty mas?" Gumamku.

As a treatment for my miss in Adzam, I took a t-shirt that had hung behind the door. The shirt still smells of Adzam's perfume. Even on purpose these few months I didn't wash those shirts. Let the shirt be my bedmate every night.

****

Time passed, my pregnancy grew. Now we are entering the ninth month. Yesterday my mom and I just got home from the clinic for a routine checkup,. Making sure me and my baby-to-be are in good shape.

There was a feeling of sadness, because every control I had was only with mama and Raka.

And happy my baby candidate is female.

I can't wait to see my little angel.

Today me, Mama and Ririn have made an appointment to shop for the needs of my baby.

And Raka will be our personal driver.

We are now in a baby shop.

We were so amazed to see girls' knickknacks.

Ririn also until Khilaf want to buy all baby equipment all pink.

While Mama and Ririn were busy choosing, an anonymous message came into my phone.

" The child you bear must be Raka's son"