Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Womb 30

I began to clean up all the equipment in this room. I forgot to order a taxi online.

After all the administration is done I walk out carrying my gear.

My mother forbade me to go many times.

" Ma, Afi needs time to be alone." I said while wiping my tears.

I walked out of the hospital in a hurry. I don't care about the prohibition of Adzam's mas also the cry of mama.

" I'm sorry Afi, ma." I murmured in my heart.

My online taxi has arrived. I went inside, my hand was stopped by Mas Adzam, "Where are you going?" Mas Adzam asked with a reddened face because it held back anger.

" It's none of your business! Take off or I scream! " Tape me.

The grip is weakened, I managed to escape from mama and mas Adzam. Sometimes I look back, maybe Adzam followed me.

" Where are we going, ma'am?" Ask the driver.

I was silent for a moment. Honestly, I don't know where to go. Obviously coming home is impossible for me. And now I have no definite purpose in my life. I opened the wallet, counting the contents. There are only three million rupiahs. I'll stay for a while at the hotel. Maybe parting a few days with Mas Adzam can make me better.

" Sir, please find a hotel near here, sir!" I said to the driver.

It didn't take long, finally the taxi I was riding stopped at a simple hotel. I went down, and after paying, I entered the hotel.

I went to the receptionist of this hotel, but he didn't give me a room right away, he noticed my appearance from top to toe."How bad do I look?" I rubbed my face a few times.

After waiting for a few minutes I finally got a hotel key. I helped the hotel staff to get into my room. In front of the hotel room, the employee left me.

I was hesitating to enter. All my life, this is the first time I've stayed alone. My voice shrieked, but I decided to go in. The pain of Adzam's treatment occasionally overcame my fears.

I turned on the room lights. Don't forget to lock the door first. I just want my security to be completely safe here. After that I cleaned myself up. I mustn't be selfish, I'm not alone for now. There's a fetus in my stomach that I have to ensure his health.

After the shower, I ordered food. As I feared, I had to keep eating for the sake of the fetus I was carrying.

I'm resting in this hotel room.I'm straightening my legs. I feel like my body and feet are sore. I want to feel tired moments like this there is mas Adzam who is on my foot.

The huft! I exhaled my breath. Why else would Adzam? Can't think of him anymore. I took a cell phone, so many phone calls from Mas Adzam, mama, Raka, Ririn, Rina too.. Hanuman.

I opened a message from Mas Adzam

(Afi, where are you? Don't reck.

(Back of Afi!)

(I'm sorry, mas.)

Forgive my heart's hardness this time...

I just need to calm down for a second.

I turned off my phone. Then enjoy my dinner with my son.

Be full! I rubbed my stomach a little more.

" I'm sorry, mommy, baby. It's made you this way. I promise you, I'll always be by your side." I asked my baby to talk. Sometimes he reacts by kicking my stomach.

Oh Allah... It's so beautiful to feel my fetal movements.

I took the blanket, covered half my body. Drowsiness came against me.

******

The alarm on my phone rang, this indicates it was five o'clock. But I still don't want to get out of this comfortable bed.

I rubbed my stomach, there was a little kick there. " Patient ones, son. God willing, everything will be fine." I encouraged myself.

(Where is she? Please, don't be weird. I am not alone to face this. There's Mama, Rina, Raka and Ririn.)

" Raka, you care about your mom too." I murmured in my heart.

The second message from Ririn, he no longer types directly using voice messages. I listened to her vague voice messages. Still heard the sound of crying full of worry ( Ma'am has to go home, we'll face Hanum together.).

Ririn, I'm sorry, you shouldn't have gone along to hate Hanum. Let Hanum be mbak's dependents.

*****

Now that I've been in a hotel for almost three days, my mind is much calmer. I turn off more cellphones. Every day I just eat and sleep. I have no other activities. Sometimes I still miss Adzam. This should be the beginning of our happiness.

" What are you doing?" Bathinku feels nelangsa.

This is the toughest year for me and Mas Adzam. How can Mas Adzam take care of himself if there is no me?

During the wedding, he almost never took his own clothes from the cupboard. He never wanted to know where socks, shoes, briefcase and even car keys were tied.

Mas Adzam kulayani like a king. Every morning he wears what I have to provide. Then now?

Ah, you fool! Now there is Hanum. Hanum is better at pleasing Adzam. Don't be stupid Afi! I hit my head repeatedly.

The man's name is definitely a crocodile. And Mas Adzam has now transformed into a land crocodile.

I chose to sleep and lay my body on the bed. I can't stress, for your sake, son! I repeatedly stroked my stomach.

My eyes felt heavy until I fell asleep.

****

I jumped out of my sleep, and there was a loud knock on the door of the hotel room I was in.

" Who?" Inner wondering.

What is the hotel manager? why not be polite.

The longer the blow on the door gets stronger.

I was pacing back and forth confused. What am I supposed to do?

" Mr. mbak Afi.. This is Ririn mbak.."

There was a female voice, mentioning Ririn's name. Is that really Ririn? How does he know where I am?

" Sir, open the door! Ririn knew it wasn't inside." The sound is getting louder.

I walked closer to the door. I opened the door lock, and...

Ririn hit me.

" Sir.. huhuuuu." She was crying hugging me.

I returned my sister-in-law's embrace.

" Don't go anymore, Ririn's worried about me."Her speech sniffled.

I brought them into the room. Raka, the boy just kept quiet.

After Ririn had calmed down a bit, I asked Ririn, "Where do you know where you're going?"

Ririn pointed towards Raka, while Raka did not accept being pushed by Ririn. He looked at Ririn sharply.

I looked at Raka, she threw away her face not looking at me.

What's wrong with you Raka?