Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Womb 5

Tired of crying, I fell asleep in the living room. My body hurts all.

I woke up late, lost fast with Adzam.

He was still angry with me, because he woke up so early this morning. Not even this morning did he greet me.

His face looked hard, not a single smile adorning his face.

I tried to say hello, "Mum, have breakfast chicken porridge this morning."

" I have breakfast at the office."

He usually refuses my offer.

He took his briefcase. No strings attached he passed with the sound of his car moving away.

I closed the door after he could no longer see me in my sight.

I entered the room, My head ached plus the unfriendly treatment of Adzam.

Lost my hunger, I laid my body on the bed and covered it with a blanket.

I want to sleep one day.

Just as my eyes fell asleep, I was suddenly shocked to realize that there was someone in my room.

My reflex sat down and I was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief. Because the one who entered my room was my mother-in-law.

The huft!

" Mama.."

" Shocky huh...?"

I'm nodding.

" You guys fighting again?" mama looked at me, but I didn't dare look at my mom's face.

" So this morning Adzam ate at my mom's house, he doesn't usually like that, right? Five years of marriage you took good care of Adzam." Obviously mama is long.

I was still silent, confused as to where to explain.

" Sum..? Call me.

" Let's say Fi, because you're a mama's son-in-law, not mama's daughter-in-law." Persuade mom.

That's true in fact.

There are two girls, but they are all treated the same.

" Mommy, can Adzam get married again?" Me ask carefully.

Mama's eyes are round. Shocked at my request. My mom held my forehead.

" You crazy Fi?" ask mama with a tone that goes up an octave.

" Seriously ma, mas Adzam must marry again." I tried to convince my mom.

" For what? Give me one reasonable reason for this crazy request of yours."

Looks like mom is as angry as Mas Adzam.

I clasped my mom's hand, "Mommy, Mas Adzam can have kids. But not with Afi, Afi barren ma. Mama wants a granddaughter from Adzam, right?" With all my might I spilled all my junk.

" All parents would want to have grandchildren from their children, but Mama realized that Afi was all settled. There is an all-powerful God in this life. If it was just a grandchild, Mama would have gotten it from Rina. The most important thing for your mama is that you can have a lasting marriage until your grandparents."

I was amazed to hear Mom's words. For five years of marriage, not once did my mother scratch my heart with her tongue.

" You know Fi, if our husband has a wife of two, not only is his time reduced for you, you also have to be ready if Adzam has to share a blanket with another woman, you should also be ready to share Adzam's income for other women. Are you ready? If mama as a woman is clearly not ready." explained mama at length.

I was silent, my mouth felt in the lock.

It is true what Mom said. If Mas Adzam has a wife of two, I must be prepared for an unpleasant situation. I should be ready if one day my eyes catch Adzam's hugging another woman. Or worse yet I also have to be ready mas Adzam happier with his new wife.

I shook my head, imagining that I was shuddering in horror.

" Fi.." Mama nudged my shoulder.

" Dreaming? Horrified to imagine Adzam had another woman?"

Why can you guess my mind.

" Think well, don't regret in the back of the day." mama's message as it passed away.

Mama closed my room door. Mama wants to go home, because in the afternoon there is a study at her friend's house.

Mama was like that, sometimes came and went, because she did hold the duplicate key of our house.

I'm back busy with my thoughts, Age mas Adzam has head 3, if I remain selfish with my marriage, when will mas Adzam be happy?

I rubbed my face, Allah why should the servant who gets this test?

I got out of my bed. Take our wedding album and flip through our wedding photos. Five years ago we were so happy that I did not shed any tears when Ijab kabul. There I am happy.

Our plan was to have two children. The first is male and the second female. Our children will call me Mother and call me Mas Adzam as Father.

Even my tears shed in memory of our plans. In fact, one child God did not give us.

Then should I be selfish to let Mas Adzam follow in my footsteps.

It's enough that I can't have children not for my husband.

I re-composed our wedding album in the closet. I picked up a handpone, I haven't heard from Hanum in a few days, my best friend.

The phone call was connected, and Hanum's voice greeted me cheerfully.

I took Hanum to meet at the cafe where we used to meet

Hanum agrees, later after school.

I rushed to take a shower after I made fun of it casually because there was still an hour left to meet Hanum.

The sound of Adzam's car entering our yard. I glanced at the hanging wall clock. Tumben he's home, what's up?

I stepped out to open the front door.

I have to welcome him home.

I opened the door, it looked like a tangled face of Adzam behind the door.

" Dad..." I grabbed his hand kissing with a notch.

He hugged me tightly. " I love you Fi. Don't force me to be double."

" Mommy, this is all for our good. This house will be crowded with the presence of your children."

" Who is your woman of choice Fi? Until you're sure she's willing to share a husband."

" Who is your chosen woman, Fi..?"

" Koro."

" Huh.. Hanum?" It was a shock when Adzam heard Hanum's name slide off my lips.

" Because Hanum is my best friend and I'm sure Hanum can be a good mother to our children." My answer is full of confidence.

Mas Adzam gently rubbed the top of my head covered with a veil.

" I'm afraid of hurting that heart."

I looked down at the glistening looking tiles. Mas, if you knew all I planned was for your own good my mind was busy talking to itself.

I rubbed the corner of my eyes that were melting.

" She, I'll go out first. There's an appointment with Hanum to see you."

" Want to be ushered in?" tawar mas Adzam's.

" Borrow the car." I refused.

" Okay then, I'm gonna take a break. Very tired today." said Mas Adzam while handing over the car keys.

I kissed her cheek and kissed her hand gently.

I used to go alone, so Adzam didn't worry.

Moreover, my agreement with Hanum only takes fifteen minutes.

And now the car I drive has arrived in front of the parking lot of our favorite cafe.

I was looking for someone I knew.

And there it is, my best friend is waving at me.

I stepped towards him. Don't forget we cipika cipiki, the thing we often do."

" Hey, old uda dear?" My toot.

" Uda, nih uda order orange ice." Hanum's face was scowled at me for waiting too long.

" Don't frown, the beauty will be gone." I said.

We laughed together too.

Since it was lunchtime we finally ordered food.

Chicken and orange ice, our favorite menu.

When I met him, I don't know why my mouth wouldn't stop talking.

Lunch is over. Now our stomachs are full.Dirty dishes have been brought to the back.

I took out my wallet to pay for our food earlier, but my hand was prevented by Hanum.

" I'll pay you." Hanum.

" The one who didn't meet me, so today I'm the one who's trained you. okay!"

He understood my nature, and did not dispute it at all.

We left the cafe. Now Hanum is in the car greetings mas Adzam.

" Where are we going?"

it seems like Hanum is curious.

I just kept quiet, I was looking for a safe and quiet place to talk about my plan.

I finally drove my car to the park.

My car engine shuts down.

Hanum was about to get out of the car, but I prevented it.

I think talking in the car is safer.

I was nervous to pass on my plan to Hanum. I'm afraid he's offended, or worse hurt me. My car air conditioner. I don't know why I feel like my body is flooded with sweat.

I glanced at Hanum, he noticed me.

" Why so nervous is this Fi..?" He held my hand.

I looked at him, I took a deep breath,. I try to relax for a moment. Back to the back of the car seat.

Closing your eyes for a moment. It expels the doubts that lurk in the heart.

" Hanum, will you marry my husband?"

Finally, my voice came out.

He was surprised, so he asked me to repeat the words I said earlier.

" Would you marry my husband?" I repeat with a slightly louder voice. I'm sure my voice won't make it out because this car is sealed.

Hanum laughed out loud, occasionally holding his stomach.

I looked at him seriously letting him laugh as much.

After he was satisfied to laugh, he held my forehead, "No fever but why mgawur darling..?" He raised both his eyebrows up and down.

" I'm serious Hanum, will you marry Mas Adzam? I need a woman who can give birth to our children." As much as possible I keep the tears from sliding freely.

" Don't worry ah, there's not a single woman on this earth who wants to share a husband with another woman. Me included. I do have the intention of getting married someday but not being a second wife, being an actor in someone else's household what else until becoming a wife le two of my best friends. Oh no! I don't want to ruin anyone's household. It was never in my dreams." he chanted at length.

" You are neither the actor nor the destroyer of my household. It is I who ask for your help. Aren't you gonna help me?" My firmness.

" It's not in a way to win your happiness!" Hanum threw out his face.

" Look at me!" I asked, "My life is almost perfect, my husband is good, my mother-in-law is like an angel even my sister-in-law I consider my own sister. I'm in a good family. It's just that I can't give a little angel to them. Do you still not want to help me?" My tears are back.

" I'm willing to share my husband for their happiness, Hanum." My voice is raucous.

We hugged her tightly.wept together.even her clothes were wet by my tears.

I feel pretty calm because I've been spilling all over with Hanum.

Now the atmosphere in the car is quiet, cold.

" Don't shut up, Hanum, I need your decision. I hope you understand my situation of not being able to have Hanum's children." Saying again.

" It took me a few days to think about this crazy thing."

I nodded, turned on the car engine and drove him home.

We finally got to the front of Hanum's house.

He got out of the car, I pulled his hand.

" Think carefully, I hope your decision doesn't disappoint me." I pleaded with my hands in my chest.

He smiled and got out of the car, waved to me and entered his apartment.

I also left Hanum's house. To be honest I'm not sure Hanum will accept my ridiculous request