Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Womb 3

I opened my eyes, I was in a white room. There was Adzam beside me holding my hand. Mother-in-law was in this room sitting. There was anxiety on their faces.

I palpated my hand, there was an infusion hose attached.

" How did she feel? which one is sick?" ask me Adzam.

I nodded, my mother approached me.

he rubbed the top of my head that was covered in a veil.

" Don't be sad, God willing, there is a best way."

mama's words are like Water flowing in a barren field.

Tears began to roll one by one.

It's sad that my heart. Being in a very good family, but I cannot give happiness, especially to my husband.

" Whatever happens, my love never fades. We will age together" he said confidently.

I can only give you a bland smile.

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Today I can go home, my condition has started to improve. I was led by Adzam to the room. It has been two days since he took a day off work, he said he wanted to accompany me. My mother is still at my house.

" Don't be sad continue to dong. mas miss the same bawelnya you. Miss your cooking." Sad adzam mas sayings.

" Have you ever thought about this?" I try not to cry. " I'm trying to forget all this. But. Doctor's words last night always ring in my ear mas." It came out that stuck in my heart.

" As a woman, I feel imperfect."

Again my husband could only hold me tight. I cried in her face, until her clothes were soaked with tears.

Geck..Geck..Gts ..

the bedroom door is knocked.

" Come in ma!" said mas Adzam.

Mama came in with a bowl full of rice and water. Looks like the food was just cooked, because there is smoke still airing around the food.

The smell of your cooking filled this room. Makes anyone who kisses hungry.

" Eat first baby.mama today cook soup for you. Let you recover quickly." said mama while putting the food on the table.

" Oh yes Zam, help you bribe Afi yes. mama want to continue cleaning the house first ."

" don't be tired when your mom gets sick. Thank you for taking good care of Afi." I said sincerely.

" It's normal for mama Fi, the most important thing is that you can recover first." mama passed by leaving us.

I ate fed Mas Adzam. Next take the medicine. Drowsiness strikes me until I can't open my eyes.

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Huamm..! I glanced at the clock hanging on the wall.

It's two o'clock, today I took a nap of almost four hours. My body feels fresh.

I took a towel, I wanted to take a bath. My body feels sticky. Acid smell!

" That! There's a nyariin." Mas Adzam's voice called me.

" Yes, mas! soon ready." I said.

I also took a shower in a hurry. Wonder who came looking for me.

Done already, I pegged my look in the mirror.

I stepped out of the room.

From behind the wall I saw a hijab-wearing woman chatting with my mother.

I stepped closer to them.

" Danum!" call me.

" Hey.." He got up from his seat and hugged me.

" You're sick, aren't you? How come you're gonna get me?" Said pouting.

" I don't papa darling." I'm sure.

"If not papa why get treated? That's a sign you're sick." she argued again.

" yes.. Sorry yes." I raised you to look for me as a sign of apology.

" Mama go inside first. Want to rest." said Mama passed away leaving us.

" You got a problem?" Hanum investigated me like a detective.

I let out a breath. It's hard to talk about my problems.

" I'm your best friend, tell me! Hopefully I can help you" he said again.

" I'm BARREN!" i'm firm.

Even God won't let me get pregnant for a second like you" I said.

He hugged me, whispered in my ear. " The patient one.." He gave me spirit.

" I sometimes like to be surprised by this life" I said.

" why? Life in the world no one's perfect Fi."

I'm nodding. Suddenly, Mas Adzam came out in neat clothes carrying his briefcase.

" Where are you going?"

"I'm sorry, you have to go to work."

" But uda afternoons..?"

" There's a sudden metting." Speak hastily.

I pinched his waist slowly.

" Ih, no shame." I whispered in his ear

Then Mas Adzam greeted Hanum and passed away.

" So I want to have a job.." Syndir.

We laughed together too.

It did not feel like the day went by in the afternoon, Hanum said goodbye to go home. I drove my best friend home in front of the house.

" Don't think much, health is above everything." He hugged me tightly.

I smile. " Thank you for playing at my house. Careful yeah!"

The car drove off my yard.

I closed the door.

Sitting in front of the TV is my favorite.

While being relaxed, Mama seemed to be carrying a bag with neat clothes.

" Where are you going in the afternoon?" many wonder.

" Mommy wants to go to the hospital, Rina already wants to be born."

Rina is Adzam's second sister.

"Afi come with ya ma!" I got up to get ready.

" Don't come along you are not healthy, tomorrow it comes the same Adzam." Ban mom.

I frowned. Facing my mother-in-law I considered her my own mother. Sometimes I've spoiled with him. Makes Mas Adzam jealous of me.

" Your health is much more important dear." said mama softly.

I smiled shyly, "What do you want to ride? I ordered a taxi, right?"

" okay." Mom raised her thumb.

After a few minutes, our taxi arrived. I helped my mom with the bag.

Mama hugged me. " Keep your health!"

" Open boss." I said.

Mama disappeared with the passing of the taxi that was boarded by mama.

The huft! the sepinya of this house.

I closed the door and went into the room. I got bored playing with my phone.

To get rid of my boredom, I watched a video. Again what appears is a cuteness about children.

Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry.

I rarely rub my stomach. Imagined that there was a life growing inside my womb.

While watching the video, my phone rang. Mas Adzam's name is plastered on my phone screen.

(Assalamu'alaikum mas)

(waalaikumsalam, Fi soon to pick us up at the hospital.) Adzam's voice was heard on the phone.

(Okay mas)

Phone connection is closed.

I also started changing clothes. Do not forget to change clothes mas Adzam I prepared.

After waiting for almost thirty minutes, Adzam finally came home.

" I'd like to jamuran loh mas wait for you." I sulk.

" Where's the mushroom? Here mas cleanin." he said he did not want to lose.

" Wash for a minute, you smell sour." He hurried past in front of me.

After fifteen minutes, Mas Adzam came out of the room.

I was fascinated to look at him until I realized my mouth was gawking to form the letter O.

" Ordinary mouth that, later flies can enter berabe." Candanya teasing me.

" Ge-eR." I'm stealing not accept.

We're splitting a wet road watered drizzling this afternoon.

Songs from Andra the backbone accompanied our afternoon.

YOU'RE SO PERFECT, IN MY EYES YOU'RE SO PERFECT...

Adzam sang.

I was just smiling looking at her behavior.

" We eat first what directly?"

" Directly, I can't wait to see Rina and her debay." I said enthusiastically.

And we finally got to the hospital. My mother greeted us at the entrance.

We entered Rina's room together, looking like Rina was still weak.

I hugged my sister-in-law. " That dear?"

"Alhamdulillah.."

I was holding a tiny sleeping baby in a baby box.

I kissed her cheek gently. I held his hand. There is a sense of haru that envelops me. Until my sight became blurred. Shamelessly tears vying dripped down my cheeks.