Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Womb 4

I kissed her cheek gently. I held his hand. There is a sense of haru enveloping me. Until my sight became blurred. Shamelessly tears vying dripped down my cheeks

Mas Adzam approached me. Rubbing my shoulder, I looked at her sadly.

" His tears got the baby's cut.." Said jokingly.

Mom Rina and her husband laughed at my husband's joke.

" Don't be sad Fi, pray a lot that next year can have like this" said Mama while menowel the cheeks puffed up adek baby.

I nodded while holding this beautiful, tiny baby.

Unexpectedly Raka and Ririn, Mas Adzam's sister came to the hospital.

" Sir Rina..." He hugged his only brother.

" Oh.."

" I'm sorry, is it sick? where's the baby grandpa, I want to carry dong..?"

Ririn approached me and grabbed the little baby that was the center of attention.

" Be careful Rin..!" exciting mama.

" Okay... very beautiful you. call me Aunt Ririn yes dear .. try it from the first mbak Afi have a child surely I meng seneng deh ngejagainnya." Ririn nyablak.

Everyone looked at me, including Ririn.

Unknowingly, he closed his mouth.

The deg! my heart was like hitting a big rock.

It hurts! I hurried out of the room. Closing the door slowly. After I ran, I didn't even care about being a spectacle. I leaned against the wall of the toilet, adjusting my breath. The huft! I exhaled slowly until I felt quite calm. I wipe these tears rough.

My phone rang, Adzam called me .

I push the green button.

(Where is that? I'm worried, you know)

(just go to the toilet, worry why?) I try to talk like usual.

(Yuk we go home and wait at the exit yes.)

(okay mas)

Phone calls are cut off.

I looked at my look in the mirror.

Semerawut with puffy eyes.

I take the powder, I wipe thinly disguising my face from crying.

Feeling good enough, I left the toilet and walked towards the exit

I looked for my husband, but I could not find him.

Suddenly my shoulder touched someone. I was surprised and looked, Mas Adzam!

I frowned.

" The beauty will be gone." she said.

" Let me." I replied indifferently.

I stepped into the car park, but was pulled by Mas Adzam.

" Wait a moment, Wait for Ririn he wants to come back together." said mas Adzam

From a distance Ririn seemed to be walking in a hurry.

His face looks gloomy.

Suddenly he hit me, kissed my hand and hugged me. " Ririn is sorry...Ririn didn't mean to hurt Afi. Ririn uda's mouth is brash, no morals." He hit his own mouth.

I took her hand, not seeing her hurt herself.

" Mom is not hurt really, it's true that you don't have children" I said seriously.

" Maybe I'm a baper again" I said again with a smile.

" Mom is my best sister-in-law, but I'm so heartbreaking to hurt mbak" he said as he pleased.

I can only hug her.

Ririn is also my best sister-in-law, her nature is a little nyeplos, in contrast to Rina who is indeed soft character.

" Would you cry what would you like to go home?" It always has been so.

Ririn punched Adzam's shoulder slowly.

I just shook my head at the behavior of this brother and sister.

Adzam and I got in the car, while Ririn was still looking for something in her bag.

" Want to go home?" ask Adzam not for patience.

Ririn shook her head, "it's like my phone left me in Rina's room." Lina ran away from us.

" Basic Cendolllll!!!" Shouted mas Adzam taut.

" What the hell mas, cendol brought around."

I opened the door, but Adzam was waiting at the door. I came out of the bathroom using a towel, Mas Adzam noticed me from Basar Cendolllllll!!!" Shouted mas Adzam taut.

" What the hell mas, cendol brought around."

Their basis is unclear.

This afternoon the streets are a little crowded, my stomach feels hungry, "Gold, eat rice anduk yuk!" Take me.

" Can. Where's?"

" In ordinary places, all the way home."

" okay baby." Joking.

After fifteen minutes of travel we finally arrived.

Hem... Which other delights do you deny?

After our stomachs were full, we finally went home.

When I got home I rushed to take a shower, my body felt sticky.

Again fun to enjoy a bath, the door kwmar shower in the gedor from the outside.

" Which took a long bath."

" A little while." I hurriedly accelerated my shower.

I head up to toe.

" Why mas?" many wonder.

" Beautiful." His eyes looked at me without blinking.

" Gombal" I passed leaving her.

I started wearing clothes, but Adzam hugged me from behind.

" Dude..?"

Unexpectedly, he kissed my lips softly.

" Never get tired of accompanying me.." Whisper in my ear.

" Yes, baby..." I turned around to hug him.

" Bath first yeah, Smells auzzy." I closed my nose.

Instead of leaving, he showered me with a kiss.

And this afternoon I went back to shower for the second time because of Adzam.

Adzam took me to take a bath with him. Things that make us always maintain harmony.

Finish the bath we immediately run a congregational magrib prayer.

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Adzam and I were chatting in our room. Room is our favorite place to unwind after a long day of work.

" Don't you have any intention of getting married again?" My toot.

He stopped his phone playing.

" No other questions?" Said firmly.

" I'm not perfect, I'm BARREN." I deliberately pressed the word barren so that he realized who I was.

He didn't touch my words.

" You can have a child, but not with me. If you are thinking of marrying again be honest with me. Don't play with fire behind me." My message

" When I've known you before, have I cheated on you behind your back?" Ask.

I shook my head, As long as we were dating, he never once glanced at another woman. I believe that.

" You know Fi... Everyone who is married is sure to hope to have children. But if God has not allowed us to do what? Marrying another woman is not Fi's solution." Adzam looked angry. He covered half of his body with a blanket.

I understand that, if he speaks my name and sleeps behind me, it means he is not good

I let out a breath. I also turned my body. Silence is a way for Adzam to avoid arguing with me.

Tears rolled down the cheeks. God, what am I wrong? My husband deserves to be happy.

This question has been kept in my head for a long time. I never had the guts to talk to Mas Adzam.

When it comes to loyalty, Adzam is the champion.

We slept without hugging tonight. Without warmth.

I tried to close my non-sleepy eyes.

Tired of being in this position.

I got up, got out of the room.

Sitting in the living room, alone together.

I look at the walls of this house. It's blank! Just filled with our wedding photos. Five years of marriage no photos of tiny babies adorning our home.

God, strengthen me!

I picked up the diary book stored in the closet.

I just wrote down all my complaints here. Because he's not talking to anyone.

God, I'm tired of this

I have good in-laws, though,

good husband, good brother-in-law

I feel like life is perfect

but it turns out I was wrong.

The child is everything,

I miss the baby crying in this house

I miss baby laughter as I often see in videos.

God, allow me to conceive, care for and have children..

That's all I ask God...

I'mtired..

I'm weak...

I cry, always cry...

Their basis is unclear.