Can I borrow your womb?
May I Borrow Your Womb 42

While Ririn and Raka are busy with their respective activities.

After eating, I saw Adzam and Hanum discussing in the living room.

Not wanting to add to the pain, I immediately went into the room and closed it. Before long I heard the sound of the car leaving the yard of my mother's house.

I walked to the window. Mas Adzam and Hanum had gone home.

" Well, once there is Bintari, you still cannot refuse Hanum's request. It turns out that your love for Hanum is greater than for Bintari.

I noticed Bintari's face, her lips, her nose, she leaned more like Adzam.

" Never be sad baby, there's a mother who's always by your side." Whisper in Bintari's ear.

I lay my body beside Bintari.

There is a sense of fatigue so that my eyes also ask to be closed for a moment.

I woke up when I heard the sound of Bintari crying, my eyes were wide when I saw Adzam had made milk for Bintari.

Since when did he enter this room? Didn't he come home before I closed my eyes.

I rubbed my face, "The diapers are full of mas?" I asked stale bases.

" No, it seems like he's thirsty. Shelf needs to make milk again mas, Bintari will drink ASI."

I told Mas Adzam.

" Oh, sorry. Mas don't know. Then immediately give your ASI to Bintari, ASI is better than susy formula." The Adzam order.

I brought Bintari in my arms. I stared at Mas Adzam for a moment, wanting to throw him out of this room because I will give ASI to Bintari.

" Come right away! Bintari is thirsty." Say to me Adzam.

" Please come out for a minute, Mas!"

He glared at me, his face reddened by my words.

" What's the matter?"

Adzam asked me back.

" I don't want you to see me breastfeeding Bintari." I was obviously again in Adzam.

After a few months of not being together, it was like there was a wall between us.

With a red face he came out of the room. I locked the door to feel safer.

Finally I can give breast milk to my little daughter, Bintari Iswara. I noticed her face flutter because my water was plentiful.

He was full and asleep again. I put it back on his soft bed. I don't want Bintari always in the carrying, who feared he would smell the hands and always ask in the carrying.

This plain face sleeps without burden. I smiled as I rubbed his cheeks.

After giving ASI to Bintari somehow I was so hungry. Is it like this when you are breastfeeding?

I opened the door and walked into the kitchen. Mas Adzam is heating something up. For a moment I stood in front of the kitchen door. Pay attention to all the movements of Mas Adzam. He also looks like he's frying something.

He was surprised to find me in the kitchen.

" Eh, Afi. Want what?" Ask me about Adzam.

He wiped the sweat off his face with his hands. He seemed overwhelmed when he was in the kitchen.

" Want to eat?"

" Yes, yeah." I took the plate from the plate rack.

" Ehm, the vegetables are not cooked. You wait in the room for the food to come."

"Where is Ririn really?"

" Ririn, mama and Raka were at grandma's house for a few days. So I'm in charge of looking after you and Bintari." Mas Adzam.

" Wait ten more minutes in the room, mas will come bring food for you.Okay?" he blinked his eyes next to. Next he pushed my body slowly away from the kitchen area.

Now I was in the room waiting for Bintari to sleep.

" The food is ready.." Mas Adzam entered the room with his hands filled with trays.

The aroma of Mas Adzam's cooking made my stomach even louder.

Mas Adzam put a tray containing food on the table.

" Eat a lot!" The Adzam order.

I also ate at the dresser.

My appetite is so tempestuous. Until I stopped the mouthful in my mouth.

" What's up? Not delicious?" Ask Adzam curious.

" When have you been good at cooking?" I asked Adzam back.

He didn't answer my question. He just carried Bintari and took her to the family room.

Ever since I got married to me, I haven't allowed Adzam to slice an onion in the kitchen. Especially when cooking. When I was with him, Adzam was king to me. So that all the needs I always prepare neatly. now?

I sped up my meal, there was nothing left.

The ringtone of Mas Adzam's phone reads. Mas Adzam who was with Bintari like he did not hear.

I secretly looked at the phone of Mas Adzam. There's a name Hanum plastered on the phone screen. There are three messages in the green logo application.

I opened the message.

One image is in process of being opened.

And once it appears, I can only stroke the chest. The challenging photo of Hanum in super-thin clothes revealed a cleavage.

I'm not surprised anymore, I'm not angry anymore. And I now understand why Mas Adzam could forget me and his family. It turns out that Hanum is good at pleasing the bottom of Adzam's stomach.

I closed Adzam's cell phone. I kept the dirty dishes and immediately washed them with the cookware.

Finished, I immediately took a bath not yet afternoon and Bintari was still calm in his father's lap.

I stared at the clock hanging on the wall. still at four in the afternoon, I immediately prepared warm water to bathe Bintari.

Bintari clothes have also been stacked on the bed so that later easier.

After everything is done I prepare me to take Bintari from Mas Adzam. When my skin came into contact with Adzam's mas, there was something I felt.

Do I still love him?

I tried to throw that feeling away. Maybe I was just getting carried away.

I busied myself not to get involved with the feelings of Mas Adzam.

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Bintari is asleep, Mas Adzam just finished bathing. I see Adzam's performance is much worse now. The clothes he took out of the bag were almost like hair running out on rollers or more extreme like clothes that had been eaten by cows.

Didn't Hanum take good care of Adzam's mas? Adzam was sitting in front of the television. In his hand was a cigarette that was burning. When did Adzam become a smoker? Is he being shaken? From where I sat, it seemed that he had run out of a few cigarettes.

I chose to lie next to Bintari. The blanket I pulled shut my body. My eyes also began to close.

Sayup-sayup heard footsteps of Adzam entering our room.

" fi's... Already sleeping?"

I who was not yet soundly opened my eyes.

" Can we have a chat for a second?"

I woke up from my sleep. Sitting next to Adzam.

" What's wrong?"

Adzam held my hand tightly,

" Can we be like we used to be?"