MY HUSBAND STROKED BUT DID NOT DIE
Chapter 74 LEARNING TO BREASTFEED

Today my baby and I are allowed to go home. Since my condition and my baby are fine, there is no need to stay in the hospital for too long.

"The same mother the baby can go home today. Everything is good and healthy, Mom. In two weeks' time, I'm here again for mom and baby control. Including immunization of the baby. If you want to be somewhere else, that's okay. Just don't forget" said an obstetrician who visited my room this morning.

He's checked everything. And I was declared okay. My baby is healthy too.

Mas Teguh has finished taking care of his administration. Earlier I told Teguh mas, that I have health insurance.

But Teguh refused it. He said he was afraid his service was not optimal. Mas Teguh also registered me as a general patient. We even chose a vip room.

Mas Teguh said, the inheritance left by my in-laws will not run out just to pay for the birth of his grandson.

I just according. It was Teguh who managed everything.

When I got home, I was afraid to walk. Although the doctor has said it is safe to walk, as long as it is slow.

Even in the hospital I was able to walk to the bathroom by myself. But to walk into my sizable in-laws' house I was still scared.

"If you're afraid, let me carry you?" Teguh offered me. I hesitated, but out of fear, I was forced to agree to it.While my son was taken by bi Yati to my room.

Mas Teguh also carried me bridal style. I hugged Teguh's neck. His breath felt once in my face.

I closed my eyes. Besides I'm afraid of falling, I'm also actually embarrassed.

We even passed the Arka mas sitting in his wheelchair in the living room. I opened my eyes as I passed the Arka.

There's a little sinful feeling. But I can't do anything about it. I'm sorry, Mas. Whisper my heart.

He put me on the bed. While my son is in the crib that has been prepared by Mas Teguh and bi Yati.

"Thank you, Mum. Can you bring Arka's mas here?" I said when Teguh put me in bed.

Mas Teguh nodded then went out of the room to bring the Arka mas to my room. I miss him so much.

Two days without seeing each other, I felt so guilty. Leaving him alone at home.

Mas Teguh pushing Arka's car wheelchair. Then bring it closer to me.

I reached for Arka's hand. Then kiss him reve. I looked at his expressionless face.

"Mas, your son is born. The male. You kayak handsome, Mas. He's very healthy. Do you want to see it?" my many.

There was no reaction from the Arka. Then without me asking, Mas Teguh lifted my son from his box and closer to the Arka mas.

"Ka, this is your son. He is handsome like you" said Mas Teguh.

I brought the hand of the Arka mas that was still in my hand to my son. Let Mas Arka feel holding his son.

There was no reaction from the Arka. He is like a statue that is silent. I stuck Arka's hand on my son's body for a long time.

And I see, Arka's eyes are starting to fog. Then a drop of water came out from the corner of his eye. He reacted. She cried.

I also shed my tears. I can't stand it anymore.

The deep sadness. Even when my son was born, Arka mas still can not do anything. Then how will I live my life and my son, if Arka mas still can't do anything?

Suddenly my son was crying.

"You suckled your son first, Dek. Maybe he's thirsty" said Mas Teguh. Then put my son to my right.

I could feel the scent of Teguh mas as his body passed me. I'm staring. And yet, even Teguh looked at me.

Then she pushed Arka's wheelchair away from me who was about to breastfeed my son.

I'm having a little trouble breastfeeding my son. Because I'm not used to it. But I keep trying. Because I can't let my son be thirsty.

"Bi Yati's!" Call me from my room.

Bizarrely, bi Yati approached me.

"Please help me, Bi. This is even a straw" I said.

Then bi Yati helped me to sit down. And help put my son in my lap.

Bi Yati also kept my son from falling out of my lap.

"It doesn't hurt, does it, Mom? Better position like this. Later if you are used to it, you can only lie down" said bi Yati. I just follow it. Bi Yati is more experienced.

Finished breastfeeding, bi Yati helped put my son again in his crib. I was lying back down.

"Want me a massage, Mom? Let the stiffness decrease."

I nodded in agreement. My body still feels so sore.

Bi Yati spied from the tip of my foot, to the hand. It was so good in the massage, I didn't feel like I was asleep.

I woke up when I heard my son cry. Teguh was already at my door.

"Can I help you lift your son?" ask me Teguh.

I'm asserting. And I steadfastly lifted up my son. He looks good holding a baby, as if he's used to it.

"Mas, are you so good at holding a baby?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Then anyway? I think it's normal." replied Teguh.

He said it was just instinct. Because mas Teguh himself has not had time to hold his own child. His son died with his wife after giving birth.

"Well what name do you give me, your son?" ask me Teguh.

I forgot to think of a name for my son. There are so many important things I can't think of.

Because during my pregnancy too many sad events happened.

"I don't know yet, Mom. It should be Arka mas who gave a name to his son" I said slowly.

My son started crying. He seems thirsty again. Mas Teguh put my son in my lap.

"I'm out first. Can you suckle it yourself?" ask me Teguh.

Actually I can. But I'm still afraid that my son is falling. While I was still afraid also to get out of my bed, because it still felt the seams.

"Can you please call bi Yati?" my spoken.

"Bi Yati is on the market. He will make a small salutation he said. Make your son" said Teguh.

I swallowed my saliva. I'm really still scared. Steady looking at me. I looked at him too.

"Sorry, can you help me?" many doubt.

"Aren't you ashamed that I saw it?" ask back to Teguh. I had to shake my head.

Then Teguh helped hold my son in my lap. While I was issuing****** my susuku.

I bowed my face. So shy. But I had to do it.

My son's mouth, which was very small, made it a bit difficult for me to put my nipples in. My son is crying too. I'm getting confused.

Then Teguh helped hold...***** my milk in order to get into my little boy's mouth. My heart stopped beating.

"Sorry.." said Mas Teguh slowly while bowing his face.

"You gotta learn by yourself, Deck. If there is no one, then you will bother yourself" said Mas Teguh. I nodded in shame.

Mas Teguh still crouched in front of me holding my son so as not to fall. I covered some of my breasts with my shirt.

I hope I don't get out of my son's mouth again. My nipple period must be held again by Mas Teguh?