MY HUSBAND STROKED BUT DID NOT DIE
Chapter 125 I'M NOT DEAD YET

I met Doni in the apartment he used to say to me. But the truth is, Doni never gave me proof of ownership. I refuse to ask.

Especially after now I choose to resign from Doni's life. I don't want Doni to tie me up with his gift.

I am also not like Mila who easily looks to profit from the man who approached her. And will leave it easily after getting what he wants.

I used to adore Doni so much. It was like finding something missing from my life. Yeah, I lost my husband's figure after a stroke took his life. My husband is like an undead.

But now, I'm beginning to realize my mistake. I want to correct the mistake I made on purpose. There will be a wounded heart. Doni's Heart.

"Hey, Don. How are you?" my Sapu is trying to be ordinary. So that Doni doesn't seduce me anymore. Because frankly I haven't been able to forget Doni completely.

"As you can see. Not too good, is it?" answer Doni.

I saw Doni's looks like nothing he used to. The jamb grows wild like unkempt. Usually Doni always diligently shave his jaw, so it does not make me nervous when Doni fondle me.

Her hair was getting longer and not combed properly. It looks like it's only covered with fingers.

The fingers that used to make me fly to nirvana while dancing in my most beautiful part.

Hmmm. I'm blowing my breath. Cast a beautiful shadow with Doni. Let me keep it in the depths of my heart.

"Why?" my many.

"I should have asked you. Why do you make me like this?"

I'm getting clueless. Is Doni so hurt by my decision?

"Don. I didn't come here to discuss that" I said.

"Then for what? To hurt me more?" asked Doni in a clear voice.

I was very surprised by Doni's question. How could a man as perfect as Doni be hurt just because of a woman like me?

I'm just a lonely woman who's thirsty. And Doni came to give me some warm water.

Nothing special about me. I remember my old school days. When girls my age look fashionable and try to be an idol, I am just a country girl who looks sober.

Although many girl friends who envied me because of Doni who was quite an idol, instead approached me.

I never knew why Doni approached me back then. All I know is, we often talk about tough school lessons. Because that's my only advantage.

I have a pretty smart brain. Maybe because I was educated to always be diligent in learning by both my parents since childhood.

And now I don't know why Doni came back to me, when there were so many other women who were so much more attractive.

Mila. He's much more attractive than me. The appearance is very fashionable, taken everywhere will not be shy.

His play in bed must have been more challenging than me. Because Mila often changes couples who are certainly different in style.

"I'm sorry, Don. I never intended to hurt you. From the beginning we had no commitment." I bow my head. It hurts to say that. If I could choose, I would choose both.

But the truth is I can only choose one. I chose to go back to my husband. The husband who gave me a baby.

Not Doni who is still a husband. It would be very unwise if I chose Doni. Everyone will blame me. Because I'm not defending what I already have. Even fighting over people's property.

"Is that?" ask Doni.I nodded.

"It was easy once you said that. After what we've been doing all this time."

Doni, please deh. Don't bring up what we've done.

"Yes already. Tell me what you mean by coming."

I took my breath first. Let's just be quieter saying it.

"I've heard, if Maya's your wife is infected with HIV." I tried to say it slowly, so that Doni would not be offended. Maya is still his wife.

"Who said it?" ask Doni to investigate.

"It doesn't matter who said it." I don't want to say that I got the information from Mila. Because Doni would never believe it.

"Mila?" guess Doni.

"I said it didn't matter who said it. I'm just gonna ask you a question, do you know about this?" I'm still gonna hide Mila.

"Already," replied Doni briefly and very clearly.

"Have you? Since when?" Replace me who asks full questions.

"It's been a long time."

I'm stinging. Very surprised by Doni's response. So he's known about it for a long time? And Doni guiltlessly committed a relationship with me? Is he going to pass it on to me?

"And you?" ask me with a trembling voice. I'm really scared that Doni has the virus, too.

"What do you expect? Are you expecting me to catch the virus?"

Doni's answer was convoluted. I just want Doni to say yes or no. That's all that keeps me calm. Relax if Doni's answer is no. But it will be doomsday if Doni answers yes.

"Don, I'm serious!" I said with a loud tone.

"You don't think I'm serious?"

I closed my eyes. Maybe Doni was so upset with me, that he wanted to upset me too.

"Don, I asked again. Do you have the virus too?" I asked while looking at Doni's face.

"What difference does it make to me now, whether I have it or not? My life has been ruined."

So Doni feels now his life is ruined? And I destroyed it?

What if Doni passed the deadly virus on to me? Doesn't that mean Doni ruined my life?

"Don. I want certainty. If we do have it, let's both find a solution." I try to be mature in my face.

"Solution? Do you think people who have the virus have a solution? The solution is only one. Die!" Doni's face flushed red as if holding back anger.

Die off? I'm not ready to die. I still want to live. The minimum to make amends to my husband and raise my son.

"Then what can we do, Don?" I can't hold back my tears.

"Stay with me. Because we will be strong to face it together. And it'll be ruined if it goes alone."

"Don. Give me a chance to right my wrongs to my husband and son" I asked.

"There's no chance of that. There, we just enjoy life before death." Doni's words make me regret for the rest of my life for having accepted him into my life.

I closed my eyes that were already flooded with tears. God, I don't want to die yet. Please give me a chance to make amends for all my mistakes. Give me a chance to hug my husband and son.