MY HUSBAND STROKED BUT DID NOT DIE
Chapter 52 ALL THE RAIB

I opened my eyes. I see it all around me. I was in my living room. I was lying on a long sofa.

I saw a security guard sitting on another couch. I try to get up and sit down. By holding on to the edge of the sofa, I can sit down.

I trimmed my hair and clothes for a while. I don't know who moved me here. All I remember was that last time I was sitting on the porch chair, and then suddenly my body went limp. And dark.

"Mom's conscious?" ask Mr. Sattam. Then give me a glass of water. I grabbed it and gulped it down the toilet.I felt very thirsty and hungry.

I saw a clock on the wall, eleven o'clock in the afternoon. Did I faint all this time? Almost three hours.

There's no one but a security guard at this complex. I'm holding my head. It feels so dizzy.

"Mom, I'm sorry we checked all the rooms in this house. No damage to the entrance. It looks like I forgot to lock the door. If we lose, we don't know. All we know is that the wardrobe in the doorfather's room and the drawer is open and the clothes are messy" said Mr. Satpam.

"All have been identified by police. We called some cops here. Because Mother was not yet aware, the police said to go home. If you want to make a report, then I can take it to the police station" he continued.

"Alright, Mom. I went back to the guard post. If you need anything, you can call me. I still have my phone number, right?" ask Mr. Sattam.

I raised my face. Staring at Pak Satpam with a nanar gaze.

"Hape I also say, sir" I said weakly.

"Astaghfirullah.later you can report it also in the Police Station, Mom. I say goodbye first. Assalamualaikum." Then the security guard walked out of my house.

I am still sitting where I am sitting. Why am I so stupid? I forgot to lock the door.

And why didn't I hear anyone come into my house? While it was quiet last night there was no sound.

I slowly stepped towards my room. I saw that Arka's mas is still in position. Lying on the bed.

His eyes are wide open. Her clothes have not been replaced. That means no one has cleaned it yet.

A stinging smell came out of his body. I noticed the bed linen around the bottom of his body was wet. Can be sure diapersnya already overflowing.

I let out my breath. I strengthen my heart. So as not to get carried away. So that I could hold back my tears, which seemed to force out.

I slowly took off Arka's clothes one by one. I opened the diapers. I cleaned up the messy shit in the diapers.

I rolled him aside, so I could take the wet bed linen by his toothpaste and the dirt that had penetrated into the mattress.

I really strengthened myself. Strengthen my heart. The tears that I held back from earlier, came out slowly as well. With the back of my palm, I removed it. Time and time again. Because my tears came out many times. Every time I remove it, my tears come out unstoppable.

I ignored the sound of my stomach calling for filling. I want the Arka mas neat first.

I'm looking for diapers where I usually keep them. There's not a single one. Just the package.

I walked to the kitchen, to where bi Yati used to store my groceries. There's none either. Everything is neatly arranged. But there's no diapers.

Not yet desperate, I tried to look for her in the television closet. Who knows if Bima keeps it there. There's none either.

I took out all the cabinets. Including the room that Bima uses. There's nothing I can find.

I sat exhausted on the sofa in the middle room. I wiped my tears again. I want to feel like I'm screaming. Who should I ask for help?

I went back to my room. I'm wearing Arka's mas shorts, no diapers. The risk will be toothless and the dirt will fall apart again. But there's no way I'd leave Arka's mas without pants.

I walked into the kitchen. Looking for foodstuffs that I can eat for me and Arka mas. Not much, but good enough to eat today.

After eating, I fill my stomach first. Let me have the energy to feed Arka's mas.

After eating, I prepared food and drink for the Arka. I took her to my room.

When I want to lift Arka's back and stuff it with a pillow, I see the bottom is wet again.

I looked at him with pushy eyes. I have to change my pants again. I have to change the bed again.

If I move Arka's mas to a small bed, I can't move it. I could only cry, crying for my helplessness.

There's no money. There is no hape. I can't call anyone.

I strengthened my heart again. I took back Arka's underwear. Replace it and replace the bed sheet. Covering the wet mattress with bed linen that I folded so as not to penetrate.

Why don't I ever think about buying a patch, for a mattress? Because all this time I always relied on Bima. I forgot to think about my husband's needs.

Bima...why didn't he come today? He didn't promise to come this morning.

How do I contact him, while I don't have any more e-cigarettes? Or maybe Bima has already told me?

I could only be silent, muffling my cries. I slowly feed Arka.

"Mas, let's get well dong. Do you see how I am now? You don't pity me, do you? I can't do anything about it. Everything is gone, Mas" I said as I continued to bribe him.

I feel something's pulling the bed sheet. I saw Arka's hand grabbing and pulling a little bed sheet.

Yes, he's moving again. A tad. Just sec. Just briefly.

"Let's move your hands again, Mas! You strong! You can! Do it again, Mum!"

I kept chattering to give spirit to the Arka mas, with tears in tears.

But his movement stopped. His hand that was grasping the bed sheet, was still like that. Stay in the grasping position. But not as strong as it was.

"Where is your strength, Mas. Bring out your strength!" I just keep babbling. Hope there is more movement from the Arka mas hand.

When he finished eating, the hand no longer moved. His eyes are still empty.

I gave him a drink and helped him take his medicine. I saw the cure was only a little left.

Usually Bima who will buy it at the pharmacy. But now? What am I going to buy it with?

Going to my mother-in-law's house, asking for help can't. Wanna ride what?

I unpacked my room. In my shirt pocket. Who knows there's a little money I can use to pay for the angkot to my mother-in-law's house.

But no money at all. Just a few thousand coins, which obviously will not be enough to pay twice the angkot.