Dusk At the End Please
Father's Advice

A meeting that was never imagined. Since deciding to marry Shanum very limited himself with his association, especially with all things related to his past while working at the foundation.

Liani who had been a close friend had protested because it was very difficult to contact Shanum, let alone to vent like before just asking news Liani had to wait a long time to get a reply from Shanum.

'Shanum.....how are you?'

The next...

'Num, it's still in Jakarta right?'

Tomorrow again...

'Shanum, you're a habit. Why not read my message? do not reply read aja engga' 😠

'Don't tell me because of him well, you're disappointed in the same one person but shutting himself to everyone, cheating is his name, Num'

This was Liani's last message a few days ago. Shanum only smiled faintly as he read it until now he had not even replied to it. Liani doesn't even know that her husband is dead.

After her husband's departure, Shanum rarely used his gawai. If you contact his family, Shanum more often use a landline. It was not that Shanum decided his friendship, but that he was really setting his heart.

And today, suddenly Shanum was met with one of the people he had been avoiding so much all along.

"How are you?" ask when they are facing each other.

Shanum did not immediately answer the person's question, he still could not control himself. Shanum was still lost in his own thoughts, how could he leave that place immediately.

Fauzan who understood Shanum's current state immediately approached her brother.

"Sir Ahsan how are you?" Fauzan thrust his hands to shake hands when Shanum never answered the question of the person in front of him who was none other than Ahsan. Fauzan also elbowed his brother who still did not make a sound.

Shanum who heard his sister mention the person's name also regained consciousness.

"Ahh... Am I good good, good Brother? Brother how are you?" Shanum began to be able to control himself, he tried to display his face back as normal as possible. He cupped both hands in front of his chest.

"I'm good" Ahsan answered again looking at Shanum after shaking hands with Fauzan.

"Where are you guys from? where you going? just two? your husband?" Ahsan leaned on Shanum with many questions.

For a moment Shanum was stunned, he racked his brain looking for the right answer to every question Ahsan had.

"Yes, I'm out there needs to be the same Fauzan. Brother from where? been in Jakarta for a long time?" tanya Shanum shifted the discussion about her.

"I have a seminar in Jakarta, have been here for three days and now want to stop by Bogor before returning to Bandung, want to check the villa there has long not been there all mumpung already deket. The last time you got there was your wedding" Ahsan replied at length, with a face that suddenly changed after saying his last sentence.

"Ooh..." Shanum simply answered with his lips round.

"Aren't you with your husband? where's Haqi?" Ahsan asked again about her husband.

When the Haqi device accident was also destroyed, so that no friends during college in Bandung Haqi knew of the incident. Including Ahsan who used to be a campus with Haqi did not know that Haqi was dead. Moreover, Haqi is less active in whatsapp alumni groups of their generation.

"No Kak, Fauzan there is a need in Jakarta so I'm the one who nganter" Shanum tried to answer as logical as possible. She didn't even mention her husband in the slightest as Ahsan asked. Shanum hopes Ahsan is insensitive to get there.

"Oya Num, do you know about Akhtar? she's...."

"Sorry Brother" Shanum looked at his watch

"It looks like I should be alone. We have to rush up to about twenty minutes to the destination Fauzan. So sorry, I'm first. Assalamu'alaikum" Shanum said, cutting off Ahsan's conversation. In addition to avoiding questions about her husband, Shanum no longer wants to hear any news about people in her past.

He also felt uncomfortable lingering chatting with Ahsan. Yang Shanum knew Ahsan was engaged to Suraya, and Akhtar was married to Raina. That was the last news he had ever read on an online news portal a few months ago. From then on, Shanum began to rarely use his gawai.

Shanum immediately turned away, he opened the car door quickly and sat down next to the steering wheel with Fauzan ready to drive his car out of the rest area.

"Wa'alaikumsalam" Ahsan replied softly, seeing that Shanum had already boarded his car, and Fauzan honked his honking sign on Ahsan.

"Something has changed from you, Num. May you always be happy with your life now. I'm sure Haqi will make you happy. I'm so happy, now I just want to be friends with you like before. Because loving the most mature is choosing to be friends with you. Ahsan's self-restraint, including guarding the heart" Ahsan muttered, she rubbed her chest and spoke to herself that only she could hear.

Ahsan returned to the parking lot where his car was, he drove his car in the opposite direction to Shanum.

Shanum and Fauzan arrived in Bogor. They were up to nearly two hours slower than they should have been because when exiting the rest area Shanum told Fauzan to turn back towards Jakarta. The goal is one to eliminate the traces of Ahsan who will both go to the city of Bogor.

At the moment Shanum is really not ready to go back to meet the people he has been hard-earned to avoid. Even his decision to get married was initially to avoid them.

"What time is it from Jakarta, Teh? ma'am Hana asked when they had finished dinner together.

"Before ashar, Mom. Just that we were stuck in traffic" Shanum replied lying. He glanced at the sister who was looking at him while giving her thumbs up.

"Teteh now must learn the car so that Father and Mother can no one nganterin if to Garut" said Fauzan divert discussion.

"Yes Tea, now you should be able to bring your own car. Eh but if Garut then there's Bang Adam, isn't there Bang?" rida continues to chimed in on Fauzan's chatter and was taken in by her husband Adam.

Right now the Shanum family formation is being completed. Father and Mother who are usually in Garut suddenly came home when she heard Shanum would return to Bogor plus the news that their second child had begun to have signs of giving birth soon. They certainly want to accompany the princess when giving birth later and welcome the presence of their first grandchild who according to the results of USG female. So did Rida and her husband they deliberately stayed over when they found out her brother was coming.

"Yes, God willing, we will learn. You're ready to be his tutor, right Dek?" shanum asked Fauzan.

"Ashiyaappp....off course Teteh...but, wani piro?"..ledek Fauzan by rubbing his thumb and index finger towards Shanum, followed by laughter all because entertained by joke Fauzan.

"Ishhhh!" shanum replied while throwing a tissue that he had used to wipe his hands after washing hands.

"Ready, Tea. Anyway for Teteh mah what the hell is not, always anyway" teased Fauzan again who replied with a smile fluffy on Shanum's lips.

Their conversation continued on a variety of topics. They shared stories about everything they experienced during their absence. Shanum seems more silent, he chooses to be a good listener and only occasionally chimed in when asked or asked for an opinion.

The hour hand showed at nine. Adam seems to have yawned several times but he is still faithful to accompany the wife who is still enthusiastic about telling all the things she experienced during pregnancy.

"Neng, it's night time for a break" Father finally took over the chat.

"Yes, rest is not good pregnant sleep too late. Must have enough rest, especially soon to give birth" said Shanum. He also glanced at his sister-in-law to invite Rida to rest.

"Yuk Dek we rest, Brother is also sleepy" asked Adam to Rida.

Rida said she was standing on her husband's side. He had difficulty when he was about to stand because of his gestational age of nine months. They headed to his room to rest.

Mr. Imran and Ms. Hana also moved from her seat.

"Teeth also immediately rest" said the Father before going to his room.

"Yes, Sir. Father and Mother also rest yes" Shanum replied gently, Shanum passed by leaving them to his room.

Until almost the end of the night, Shanum still could not close his eyes. His mind drifted to the times he had gone through. The film of his life journey returned to spin, many times Shanum tried to close his eyes but did not go well.

He moved out of his bed, out of the room into the kitchen. Shanum took a glass of water and sipped it slowly. He sat on the chair that was in the kitchen still holding the glass in his hand.

Without Shanum noticing, tears suddenly dripped from the end of his eyes. Shanum also tried to muffle the crying sound that was increasingly difficult for him to hold, his chest felt tight.

"Crying Tea, trying to be strong does not mean never crying. Sadness is natural, because from sadness we learn things that are not taught by happiness" Mr. Imran who was about to perform evening prayers, was stunned when he found his eldest daughter was crying alone. He approached Shanum and calmed him down with a gentle swab on Shanum's shoulder and a thread of advice for the princess.

"Mr..." Shanum looked up as Mr. Imran rubbed his shoulders, he listened carefully to the advice of the Father for him.

"Never consider separation as bad destiny for you. Believe me, life is not that cruel. We will all experience it, if this moment is abandoned then one day the tetah will leave. Everyone's waiting for their turn",

"Lost gives the lesson that in the end man must stand alone on his own feet and depend on no one but Allah. There will be a time to realize that separation is what paves the way for a new life.",

"In life there will always be times to smile and cry, live everything sincerely and be confident God is always with you at all times. "No Muslim is afflicted with weariness, disease, distress, sorrow, disturbance, trepidation to the thorn that pierces him. But God will remove some of his mistakes. (CHR. Bukhari)", once the Prophet said and remembered Allah will not burden man beyond his means",

"All that has happened is Qadarullah, who must patiently accept and sincerely carry out what Allah has destined to do because the Apostle said "God has written down or set the destiny of all beings fifty thousand years before He created the heavens and the earth" (HR

Muslim)"

"Great teteh, still survive at a time when a part of the heart has been destroyed because of his departure. Great drops keep trying strong when the wound inside is not fully treated. Tough times will teach us how to be strong and how to keep hoping in God"

"Whatever we find difficult God is able to make it easy. Keep praying, like the slightest light it will be useful when in the dark. Like that's a do'a. Remain hopeful and confident that things will improve soon",

"In the end, God's destiny is always good, although sometimes it takes tears to receive it. Rest assured you can go through it, believe everything will pass and after this there will be a good destiny that has been waiting for you, now take your prayers and prayers. Tell everything to God the Owner of the Heart, always trying to be strong next the task is to raise your hands together with Him, the rest let God intervene",

"Hopefully for the next, what God has destined is as much as we have hoped. Do'a Father and Mother will always be with you"

Mr. Imran advised his eldest daughter with gentleness, in every strand he said tucked do'a for the princess may God immediately give happiness to his eldest daughter.

Shanum permeated every sentence of advice from his Father, he felt his heart calmer than before.

"Thank you, sir. Pardon teteh.." he said softly with a raucous voice because it had been unable to stop his crying.