Dusk At the End Please
Save, Shut up and Feel

Liani stood on her feet, her feet as if rigidly unable to continue after hearing Ahsan's words.

Since sitting with Ahsan at the VIP table of the cafeteria, Shanum sent Liani a message to see him immediately.

Shanum really did not want any misunderstanding, he felt uncomfortable if he had to sit together with Ahsan.

Shanum knew Ahsan's feelings for him, he didn't want Ahsan to misinterpret his willingness to eat together.

Shanum did not want to give false hope, because really in his heart there was not the slightest space that could hold Ahsan's name there.

“Bu Liani!”, Shanum stood looking at Liani with worry.

Regardless of Ahsan's words, she said she wanted to resume her activities.

“Pak Ahsan, thank you for the lunch. I first yes, have not prayed dzuhur.” Shanum pamit.

Without waiting for Ahsan's answer he passed by grabbing Liani's hand which was still shaking, leaving the canteen towards the mosque.

Liani flinched, following Shanum who half dragged her out of the canteen.

“Let's pray, haven't prayed right?”, Shanum opened the conversation.

They arrived at the mosque.

Shanum passed to the place of ablution for women, ignoring Liani who was still under his consciousness.

“Eh...Shanum!” sontak Liani caught up with Shanum.

Finished carrying out his dzuhur obligations, Shanum felt calmer.

He was ready if Liani introgated him. Clarifying Ahsan's statement at lunch.

And sure enough, after coming out of the Mosque directly Liani pulled Shanum's hand and brought him towards the park.

“Explain to me!”, Liani started her investigation..

“What?”, Shanum replied casually.

“About Mr. Ahsan who has shot you up to three times and still you refuse.” Liani shouted back to remind Shanum.

Shanum took a deep breath, the hot air this afternoon felt even more stinging for Shanum, it seemed like he needed more oxygen supply to fill his lungs.

“What should I explain? Didn't you just hear everything?”

Shanum tried to calmly answer Liani's question that was full of intelligence.

“Iya, I want to hear directly from you, is it really all that?, asked Liani.

“iya”, Shanum replied briefly.

“But why?”, Liani is getting curious.

“Why what?”, Shanum asked back.

“Why do you always reject him?, you are too evil to reject a man as good as him, Num.”

“Do not until later you regret after actually losing it, because he prefers to give up after tired of fighting for you.” Liani spoke without pause.

Shanum took a deep breath back and took it out slowly.

His heart confirmed Liani's words, but he could not deny that his heart was still attached to the same person from his past.

*Let all proceed with His scenario, passing by what He predestined and ending with His best ordinance*, his inner being.

Ting…

Ting…

Notifications of messages on their devices both sound at the same time.

Shanum opened his gawai first. View of the chat that entered in the group of the year-end activity committee.

It turned out that the announcement so that all the organizers immediately gathered in the hall where the event was held.

“Come, we go back to the hall”, take Shanum.

“But you haven't answered my question”, said Liani

“Insyaa Allah later”, replied Shanum

“Promise yes, you owe me the same explanation, concluded Liani ended her investigation that afternoon.

They went from the park to the hall to resume their activities.

Time shows at 16:00.

All preparations for the evening are over.

All organizers must be in their positions thirty minutes before the event begins.

The show starts at 19:00,

Shanum made sure all preparations related to his duties tonight were ready.

Shanum along with two of his colleagues were in charge of the event section.

Checking the readiness of the MC and the performers, coordinating all parties operating at the time of the event and ensuring all events run according to the conceptual rundown.

Before leaving the building to prepare, Shanum looked for Liani who was separated from him due to the different tasks he was carrying.

Liani is in charge of the documentation department, and is monitoring the preparation of the documentation team.

Check the readiness of documentation tools as needed and ensure officers document any important events and deemed necessary.

Shanum walked towards Liani to take her back to the official house. But his steps came to a halt when someone called out to him.

“Shanum”, shouts…

Shanum turned his foot ninety degrees toward the source of the sound,

“Kak Ahsan”, he said softly.

Ahsan walked over to Shanum.

“I'm sorry, if what I said made you uncomfortable."

"Honestly, I feel so selfish, I don't want you to change to treat me."

"Seeing you behave like that turns out to be more painful than when rejected.”

Ahsan revealed his turmoil.

Along with completing the preparations for the event later tonight, Shanum did not even glance at Ahsan.

Though Ahsan deliberately monitored Shanum's team for longer in order to interact with Shanum.

Ahsan felt bad ending her lunch with Shanum's sudden departure after she revealed her heart.

And it turned out to be true, Ahsan felt even more guilty when he saw Shanum just focusing on his work.

Ignoring its seemingly invisible existence.

A few times Ahsan tried to start a conversation with Shanum, but Shanum quickly shifted his focus and avoided interaction with Ahsan.

Ahsan could only scratch his non-itchy nape. Curse his carelessness. Started to be overwhelmed by Shanum's cold attitude.

At the last briefing, Ahsan was still trying to get Shanum's attention, but again Ahsan had goosebumps.

Shanum responded to Ahsan's every question as the chief executive of the activity seriously, he spoke formally in a flat tone.

It was terrible for Ahsan, she knew that if Shanum was already in such fashion it meant that something was wrong with her.

“Sama-sama, Brother.” Shanum replied with one that had started to return to normal.

When the two Shanum did not hesitate to call Ahsan Brother.

“But you don't change, Num. Don't be like that, I'm horrified that Num is being asked by you”, Ahsan complained.

“So Sister is also that, Kak Ahsan will know that I do not like the same coercive, forcing my own will without regard to the feelings of others”, said Shanum.

“OK.oke, once again I'm sorry, I promise I won't force myself again”. Ahsan apologized again.

“But you don't change yes same me”, pinta Ahsan.

Shanum nodded and threw his cheerful smile at Ahsan while giving his thumbs up.

Ahsan was relieved that finally Shanum who was cheerful and always made her comfortable had returned.

Keep it, shut up and feel it.

Perhaps that was all Ahsan could do right now on the unfailing love for Shanum.

Forcing yourself is not good for the health of his relationship with Shanum.

At this time his destiny with Shanum is still limited to friends, he must be grateful for that.

Because happiness starts from being grateful, grateful to receive every determination and to hold the chest to mengikhlaskan.

Because only with sincerity and willing, who is able to make the heart relieved.

*Sabar ya Ahsan, all efforts do not have to have results now. Relax, there is a process, there is a time. Enjoy the process, appreciate the time, re-enforce the effort and be grateful for the results, "Whatever It is”. * Ahsan is monologuing in his heart.