Dusk At the End Please
Heart Expressions

For the first time again Akhtar stood staring at the beautiful orange at dusk, on the rooptop building of one of the faculties that had a few full moon he ignored.

Today Akhtar had to finish his work faster, he was asked by his father to prepare for a special day tomorrow.

Aided by his mother and his two younger siblings, Akhtar did fitting clothes that he will wear tomorrow. Family uniforms that have been prepared in advance to welcome the special day.

Finished following all the directions of his mother, Akhtar said to rest.

Instead of heading to the official house where he lived, his feet instead stepped towards the faculty building where he taught.

He walked up to the elevator and took the top floor number of the building.

Arriving at the rooptop, Akhtar dropped his buttocks on the wooden chair he used to sit on while enjoying the twilight.

When alone like this he seemed to be immersed in the recording of his life journey.

Following the wishes of the father, he was willing to leave the idol. Demand knowledge as high as possible, become a reliable person.

Hopefully when he returns he has become a good priest for the idol. Not meant to post, but he wanted to focus on learning.

Surprise when returning with a proud success.

But his mind is wrong, he just realized that certainty is something a woman needs to decide.

Waiting or stepping to forget.

Akhtar realized his mistake all along. Many hopes do not come true because of the dominance of desire.

Now he is trying, learning to accept the situation without having to hate reality.

He believed, just as God's destiny, as it had been rooted, would never be changed.

A song accompanies the solitude of the twilight, Akhtar drifts through the square, permeating every lyric that seems to represent his feelings.

***

I closed my eyes, this,

I try to forget

All the wonderful memories of you

About my dream

The more I try

Your shadow's getting real

Proceed to the soul

God, help me

I don't know where you are

It feels like my life without you

Is there you miss me

Like me who always misses you

Always miss you

I can't deny it

You are the only one

Which makes my soul ever die

Become meaningful

But now you're missing

Like being swallowed by the earth

You never realized

Meaning of your love for me

*Hampa (Ari Lasso)

****

The sky is increasingly showing its height, but its beauty is not able to change

her mood.

He looked at the twilight sky with a sad look.

“The similarity between looking at the sky and staring at you is that neither of them can I reach”, he murmured softly.

While elsewhere.....

Shanum and Liani were busy helping with the preparation of the foundation's big event.

The event will be attended by many important people, in addition to those who work in the foundation of the event will also be attended by all employees and corporate relations of the owner of the foundation.

“Say the invitation that will be present today is approximately two thousand people,” said Liani on the sidelines of her activities decorating the building.

Liani and Shanum and some of his colleagues also became the organizing committee representing Bina Insani High School.

Joining teachers and other employees to become a committee that will succeed this event.

“Wow, amazing!” Shanum.

“Today we wear uniforms according to the origin of each school, Num. Have you ready?” ask Liani.

“Alhamdulillah, already.” Shanum.

“Just today is a special day for our foundation, so we have to really make the most of preparing it".

"Don't let there be the slightest lack.” Liani reiterated.

“Iya”, quick Shanum jawan.

“Num, you have never met his son the owner of the foundation?”, Liani asked while still focusing on arranging the flowers he assembled.

“I was curious, said he was very young, not far from us."

"It looks like we're the age of dech, really cool at a young age has succeeded in becoming CEO."

I've seen him once, but from a distance when he wanted to teach, it was just his back."

"My friend said I was a fellow lecturer there, he was very good looking again, friendly to everyone."

"But unfortunately lately he said he changed, so cold rich refrigerator. Effect forced marriage times yes, so stress..hahahaha...”.

Liani continued to babble without waiting for Shanum's reply to end with a loud enough laugh, making several other organizers glance in their direction.

Plaque, Shanum hits Liani's hand slowly.

“Your habits, if you have spoken very difficult ngerem”, exclaimed Shanum.

“Adudududududaku...sak Num’, Liani held her hand while grimacing pretending to be in pain.

“Lagian you anyway, instead of focusing on work so that the cepet is finished even chattering is not clear, make our work longer.” Shanum Gerrutu.

“Eh uh uh..who said I was not clear. Obviously I've again described the interesting fact of our leadership candidate."

"Who knows we are part of the opportunity to be a candidate for a companion candidate, it's cool to make improvements to offspring, hihi...”,

Again Liani blabbering ended in a snick.

“Today, in addition to being crowned as the leader of the foundation, he also said he will be reunited with his prospective companion."

"Aahh…..Mr. Akhtar Farzan Wijaya, if I were the one you chose to be your companion, I would devote my whole life with all my soul and body.”

Liani ended her conversation by waltzing away.

Degs….

“Who, Li?” the question was quick, but the darling who was asked walked away from him.

Shanum's focus was completely dissolved after hearing the name of his friend.

He was curious about the name, the same name as the person who always reigned in his heart even today.

“It's time to rest, we have lunch with yuk?”, suddenly someone surprised him.

“Kak Ahsan, uh Mr. Ahsan..maaf”, great-grandson Shanum was shocked to read his words.

“Why? Why should it change? As always, I prefer you call Brother.” As for that man.

“I want to take you to lunch, your friend told me to take you. He was already in the cafeteria.” Ahsan Kak.

Currently we are again involved in the same project, Kak Ahsan became the head of the event committee which will be held in the next few hours.

I was wailing looking for Liani, it looked like the building was deserted. All the staff went to the cafeteria for lunch.

I also had to accept Kak Ahsan's invitation to go together.

I walked behind him trying to keep my distance. Knowing I was left behind him, Ahsan stopped his steps.

“You were created to be a companion, so the road beside me instead of behind became a follower”, he said.

Shanum suddenly stopped his steps while looking at him sharply at Ahsan.

“Hhe…. Sorry sorry, just kidding, Num.” Ahsan chuckled without feeling guilty looking at Shanum's annoyance.

Arriving at the cafeteria, the tables looked full.

Shanum circulated his gaze looking for Liani, who was looking for while eating while chatting with other teachers.

Shanum walked over to Liani regardless of Ahsan.

“Mother Liani, why leave me?’’ arriving at the table Liani Shanum immediately sulked.

Shanum called Liani formally because they were currently with the teachers.

“Eh, Ms. Shanum, I'm sorry I didn't mean to leave you, but Mr. Ketu gave me the code so that I quickly went to the cafeteria, hhe....sorry”, Liani grinned, glanced at Ahsan while brandishing his two index fingers and middle finger.

“Here full, we go there yuk...still there is an empty table there.”

Suddenly Ahsan was already beside Shanum half startling him.

“Eh...later aja turn, Sir.” reject Shanum smooth.

He did not want to sit alone with Ahsan, did not want to be a gossip material and was afraid that Ahsan would misunderstand him.

Moreover, Ahsan took Shanum to the VIP table that is usually used by the leaders when eating lunch in the cafeteria.

“Udah Bu come along, rather than not having lunch soon enough break time runs out...” Liani.

“Iya Bu Shanum mengingan mother eat now, because the target we all have to finish before 16:00, the event will be started directly by’a Maghrib, Mr. Diwan chimed.

“Ayo”, take Ahsan.

With a heavy heart Shanum finally nodded in acceptance of Ahsan's invitation.

They arrived at the VIP table, Ahsan started ordering food without asking Shanum.

Shanum just silently harbored his frustration.

“It turns out that if the innate dictator, still a dictator under any circumstances", his heart grumbled.

Ahsan was indeed very firm in giving a decision when he became the BEM chairman, Shanum knew that. Even many of his friends say Ahsan is a dictatorial type of leader.

On the sidelines enjoying his lunch, Ahsan suddenly rang, he briefly glanced at Shanum asking for permission to lift him. Shanum slightly nodded his head.

“Assalamu’alaikum,” Ahsan greets the person who called him.

“….”

“Iya, ready. I've prepared everything. Anyway later tonight you have to look stunning.” Say again.

“……”

“Now I have lunch in the cafeteria, accompanied by my future bidadiku”,

at first glance Ahsan glanced at Shanum while throwing her sweet smile.

Shanum just poked his lips while glaring at Ahsan.

Ahsan instead laughed loosely at Shanum's adorable expression in his eyes.

“Iya, yes.pokanya if you want to know here only. We all eat together. Okay I wait."

Wa’alaikusalam”, he concluded ending his phone.

Finished ending the chatter on the phone Ahsan kept the toy back in its original place.

He took a deep breath, looking at Shanum who still seemed to show his frustration.

“Shanum,” Ahsan appears to be speaking seriously.

“I know this is the third time you've rejected me."

"I still remember the first time I expressed my feelings for you when you were still on your S1."

"I can accept your reasons for not wanting to date and wanting to focus on college for the sake of your ideals.”

“The second time I again revealed the contents of my heart that still remain the same, when I became the supervisor of your thesis research."

"Even deliberately I volunteered to be your guide in order to be close to you."

"But you rejected me again."

"I re-understand maybe you are still traumatized by the failure of your marriage to the man your parents chose.”

Shanum was jolted at Ahsan's words about her failed marriage.

He frowned in wonder, from which Akhtar knew.

“And came back for the third time I expressed my heart's intention to ask you, but again you rejected me."

"This time I don't know the reason, but I'm still going to wait.” Ahsan.

Ahsan sighed pausing his words…

“So I beg you to let me fight again, maximizing the effort to be able to get a special place in your heart."

"I'm your soul mate or not, I don't know. What is clear today is that we are still fighting together."

"I fought to be with you, though I don't know what you're fighting for now.”

“All just about time, I'll keep ber’a and not change or give up."

"I'm sure only do’a will be able to change destiny, the power of do’a is real, Num."

“Turning morning into night alone God is able, let alone just change the fate of our love."

"Setting the universe is easy for Him, let alone just managing our lives."

"Publishing the sun alone He can, let alone just publishing my expectations of you.”

“Close to Him is now my priority to get your heart."

"I'm sure as long as Allah is a destination there will be no free’a."

"As long as God is a backstop, there will be no futile struggle."

"As long as God is hope, no heart will be disappointed."

"Everybody will be happy in time.” Ahsan spoke at length.

Shanum could only gawk at hearing all Ahsan's words.

The thing that made him even more shocked was when he saw that someone had been standing behind Ahsan and had heard everything Ahsan said.