Dusk At the End Please
Shanum

That night the three of them left for Harapan Kita hospital according to police instructions who called Shanum earlier. Their journey was faster because Hasna was driving her car at a fairly high speed. The road they traveled was not too crowded because the time had shown almost half-twelve o'clock at night.

Thirty minutes into their trip has reached the hospital's IGD page, according to information Haqi is still being treated at IGD. Shanum immediately got out of the car and led his mother-in-law, they walked hand in hand to the IGD.

At the entrance to the IGD they were stopped by police officers and a nurse.

"Sorry, is this with Mr Baihaqi Abdillah's family?" ask the nurse.

Shanum, Hasna and Bu Ratna stopped their steps.

"Yes, I'm his sister and this is Bang Haqi's wife, this is our mother. Where is he now? how's things going? can we see him?" Hasna strafed the police officer who intercepted her with many questions.

"Mother calm yes, now please contact the administration to do the registration, complete all the administration about the patient. And for Mother. "the nurse pointed to Shanum and Ms. Ratna. "please come with me to see the doctor" the nurse explained.

"All right, thank you" Hasna replied.

Hasna said goodbye to her mother and sister-in-law, she walked towards the registration section to take care of her brother's administration.

Shanum and Bu Ratna followed the nurse to the doctor's office, followed by the police officer in charge of Haqi's accident.

"Sorry, Sus.." Shanum's voice stopped the four of them.

"May I meet my husband first?" shanum asked listlessly. Her heart had not completely calmed down because it did not know the true state of her husband.

"Sir Baihaqi is currently still being treated by Ma'am, the doctor has examined her and now the nurse is cleaning her wounds" the nurse explained.

"But..Can I see it for a moment?" Shanum pleaded to see her husband

"Alright Mom, but we hope you can calm down there, so as not to interfere with the ongoing handling process" the nurse stressed and was embraced by Shanum quickly.

They turned around, the nurse took Shanum and Bu Ratna into the emergency room that specifically handled the accident victims.

From the glass window that bounded the room Shanum and Bu Ratna could see that Haqi was currently being handled by two nurses. The sky blue shirt that Shanum chose to wear to the office has now changed color, blood has filled the shirt. Ms Ratna even turned her face away when the nurse picked up the blood-stained shirt to put in the bag of crackles that had been provided.

Shanum could not see her husband's face as it was blocked by the body of the nurse who was cleaning her wounds.

Shanum's heart was pounding increasingly, his hands were shaking. She did not know what kind of accident her husband had experienced until his clothes were covered in blood like that.

"Sus, how's my husband doing now?" shanum asked with a trembling voice.

"The mother's husband is still unconscious, the doctor will explain what action will be done next. Mr. Police will also explain the chronology of the accident, so now please come with us to see the doctor who handles the mother's husband" explained the nurse.

Shanum nodded his head, again leading his mother-in-law who had only been able to cry without a word.

Shanum and Ms Ratna listened carefully to the doctor's explanation, and her husband's final conclusion had to be surgically removed because there was bleeding in the brain. The blood that soaked his shirt came from vomit when his head hit hard as the high-speed car from the opposite direction to the outside of the lane and directly hit the car driven by Haqi. Haqi couldn't dodge because everything happened suddenly and so quickly. According to witnesses who saw the incident directly, Haqi's car bounced away from the location and was upside down.

As tears flowed down Shanum's cheeks, she couldn't see how her husband was in the car. Shanum could only give up, she handed everything to the doctor who would handle her husband, what was the best course of action to save her husband.

"Please do your best for my husband, Doc" she asked the doctor in a heavy voice because of sobs.

Shanum and Ms Ratna left the doctor's office, and she had to wait for the administration to prepare the papers before the surgery.

In less than an hour all the administrative files were signed by Shanum with Bu Ratna and Hasna watching. They hugged Shanum trying to strengthen each other. Tears were unceasingly coming out of their eyes, powerless to see their beloved man lying weakly helpless.

"The operation process will take thirty minutes, ma'am. Before the patient is taken to the operating room please see him first" the nurse's voice stopped their cries.

Shanum immediately stood up and walked towards the room where her husband lay unconscious followed by her mother-in-law and sister-in-law.

Shanum stood beside the bed that Haqi was sleeping in, unable to see the pale face of her unconscious husband. It is still clear in Shanum's memory that this morning her husband left for the office with a beaming face, a smile continuing to grow on his lips since they performed the congregational dawn prayer.

Shanum clasped Haqi's hand tightly, still feeling warm. He sat on the chair beside the hospital bed.

"Abang, this brother is me... Shanum's wife Abang..hiks😭" sobs several times pausing Shanum's speech.

"I wait for Brother to come home, he said Abang will go home before maghrib, hiks...,😭"

"Strong gate yes, I'm waiting for Brother. There's Mami also Hasna here Bang, we're all waiting for Brother 😭"

"We are all praying for you to wake up quickly and get back to health. Strong brother yes 😭, God willing we will strive for healing Brother. His strong brother yes..hiks😭....." Shanum could no longer hold back his sobs, he sobbed and kissed her husband's hand.

Ms. Ratna and Hasna who saw the scene were unable to hold back the tears, they hugged Shanum with a sobbing that was equally unbearable.

"Haqi wake up soon, son. I know you are a strong child, you have always been a mainstay of the family, you are the son of our pride. Get up quickly, son. Pity your wife from now on crying..😭" Bu Ratna spoke to Haqi as if her son was listening to him, he rubbed a glance at her son's pale helpless face.

"Abang, this is Hasna. Hasna knows you must be strong, Hasna is sure you can get through all this well. Brother quickly woke up, poor Teteh from earlier waiting for Brother to come home. The strong Bang..😭" Hasna also motivated her brother.

"Sorry ma'am, the patient will be taken to the operating room immediately. Mother and Mother please can wait outside" a nurse stopped their daily chat.

Shanum kissed her husband's hand again before letting go. She whispered in her husband's ear.

"The strong gate is going through this operation, I'm waiting for Brother" Shanum whispered in a hoarse voice just before he completely let go of his hand.

Without them realizing there were tears coming out from the corner of Haqi's eyes as his body was brought by the nurse to enter the operating room.

Three hours passed, but there was no sign of the operation coming to an end. Time shows the four-thirty puku. Shanum got up from his seat from the front waiting chair of the operating room. She saw her mother-in-law sleeping on Hasna's thigh, and Hasna leaned her head against the back of the chair and closed her eyes.

Shanum himself since Haqi entered the operating room did not even close his eyes. Her mind continued to drift thinking about the various possibilities that would happen to her husband. His heart and soul continue to ponder, trying to eliminate the bad thoughts that haunt him.

To be honest, the shadow of events years ago kept haunting him. Arya's beautiful shadow to go to training outside the city came back to him. Arya's sweet words on the phone a few hours before the sad news she received came back ringing in her ears.

Shanum felt the same feeling at this moment, the shadow of Haqi who was saying goodbye when he was about to leave for the office this morning, the sweet words he said were called earlier this afternoon, even his request wanted to switch the call into a video call because it wanted to see Shanum's blushing face but was rejected by him again spinning in Shanum's mind.

He cried in silence, dampening all the emotions that were stirring in his heart. The strands of do'a and dzikir continue to be spoken from the tongue.

"Yes Allah......Brother....😭😭😭😭" he said softly on the sidelines of his sobs.