Dusk At the End Please
Go home

Towards dusk Shanum arrived at Rain City. Bogor, the city which at the beginning of the 5th century AD was the center of the Kingdom of Tarumanagara with its famous king named Purnawarman.

Some other kingdoms also choose to live in the same place because of its mountainous areas that naturally make this location easy to defend against the threat of attack.

At the same time Bogor was a fertile area and had easy access to trading centers at that time.

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The distance from Bandung to Bogor is about 181 kilometers with a journey duration of about 2 hours 41 minutes via toll road. Leaving Bandung after Ashar Shanum arrived in Bogor ahead of Maghrib.

Shanum came down from the trip he was riding right in front of his house, a whitewashed house with a spacious yard that looked beautiful, old house but looked well maintained. His mother's parents' house was deliberately not changed in the slightest for mementos only repainted.

The calm and peace Shanum felt when he reached this place. In the city that has the motto "Di Nu Kiwari Ngancik Nu Bihari, Seja Ayeuna Sampeureun Jaga" which means 'Everything in the present is a heritage of the past, and today's efforts are for the future', he seemed to get a fresh breeze to breathe more calmly and ready to face reality.

Shanum believes he is today the result of his choices in the past, and everything he has worked for today will be reaped in the future.

Legs throw away all the pain that stifled his chest, he did not want to make his family worry.

Opening the whitewashed fence, observing the entire exterior of the house.The radiant sea at the end of the twilight adorned Shanum's face.

"Assalamu'alaikum...

Shanum opened the door of his house, it seemed that the living room that was not too spacious was directly connected to the middle room where the family gathered.

Shanum smiled broadly at the sight of all his family members gathering. Happiness was on his chest. He was treated to a beautiful scene that truly poured out a soul.

The family is the most comfortable place to go home. Maybe his house is indeed not a luxurious property or tools, but seeing the multiplicity of affection between fellow family members is the most valuable treasure and infinite luxury in his family.

Hearing someone open the door and say hello, the people in the family room turned their heads.

"Aaaaaa.....Strangest....." Shouted Shanum's younger sister. Farida runs to meet Shanum's arrival at the follow-up with Shanum's younger brother Fauzan.

They hugged tightly, shedding longing for a month without seeing.

Shanum turned to greet his Mother and Father with reverence. They were all happy that their families were finally able to come together.

Shanum really enjoyed his existence in Bogor, the two days he really spent with his family. A walk with his sister and mother. Gather together to spend the day by telling each other the activities that each has gone through.

Both Shanum's parents were happy to see their three children get along well, they unhesitatingly took turns sharing stories. One of the most important things parents succeed in educating their children is when their children are able to tell each emotion they feel.

While in Bogor Shanum deliberately did not activate the device. Three days had passed, it was time for him to return to Bandung.

The dissolution event of the activity committee will be held tomorrow in Pangandaran. Based on the agreement they will leave early in the morning from Bandung. Gathered in the main building of the foundation and set off on a bus with VIP facilities.

This morning Shanum was still in Bogor, he seemed reluctant to return to Bandung. He was still behind the blanket. After dawn, he returned to his body to enjoy the last seconds of his existence in Bogor because after this he had to prepare for various activities early in the new school year.

"Tea...Dude" His mother called.

"Yes, come in" Shanum replied without moving from his bed.

"Euleuh the Teteh at home keneh eta na simbut (Euleuh, The Big Brother (woman) is still at home in the blanket) ?" His mother again voiced to see the behavior of his eldest son who acted arbitrarily not as usual.

"Biarin atu Bu, Teteh get up during the day. Let's not miss the same bed, Tetekan want to go to Bandung again, so now satisfied satisfied to enjoy this bed." Shanum responded to the mother without opening his eyes instead tightening the blanket.

" Devil, said Mr. No one wants to be talked before leaving" said Shanum's mother seriously.

"What's the matter, ma'am?" ask Shanum.

"The Lord awaited the Father in front" replied his mother later.

Shanum got out of his bed, walking to follow his mother who had come out of the room. Before meeting his father Shanum first cleaned himself up.

Now Shanum has sat facing his Father and Mother. He looked at me respectfully, ready to listen to what his Father was trying to say.

"Tea, before you go to Bandung again you want to talk about your sister" said Father began their conversation.

"A few days ago I told Teteh, if the Father and Mother come from the family of your future sister. They intend to propose." He sighed pausing his words....

"But before, you want to ask Teteh at this time is there a candidate?"

Deg..Sudah Shanum expected his father would definitely discuss this.

Shanum threw a sweet smile at her before answering my question.

"Sorry sir for the moment Teteh has not thought about that anymore. But Father and Mother don't worry, Insyaa Allh is fine. If there is anyone who wants to propose to Rida in the near future and Rida is willing, ready to establish a more serious relationship Teteh no problem kok Pak", obviously Shanum was full of caution to his Father and Mother.

" But I hope Rida gets married after getting married" Mom chimed in.

I smiled at Mom's words.

"Mother, getting married is precision not speed. Teteh does not want to force yourself to get married quickly just because age is aging. Efforts must be there, but if God has not confirmed we cannot impose the will. Insyaa Alloh Teteh is fine Mom." I said softly, reassuring Mom and Dad that I was fine.

Shanum looked at his Father and Mother with a gentle gaze. He took both hands of his parents. Smiling sincerely assured the two that he was fine.

"Father, Mother.quiet yes, do not think too much about Teteh, Insyaa Allh Teteh will be fine and support whatever choice Rida, Teteh will be very happy when seeing happy sisters. Father and Mother must also be happy, what Teteh needs at this time is a strand of do'a Mother and Father, pray Teteh always yes Ma'am, sir."

Shanum continued to try to convince his parents, he really did not want them to worry. Although Shanum knew which parents were not sad when he saw his daughter was dirunghal (previously) married by his sister.

The third conversation was finished, finally Shanum can convince both parents. Shanum returned to his room to prepare because he had to return to Bandung immediately.

Arriving at the room, he took a deep breath and exhaled heavily, as if releasing all the burdens that were squeezing his chest.

The memory of Akhtar again attacked him, the person he had been waiting for and returned with a chest-stifling shock and also Ahsan who was always there for him.

About Akhtar, Shanum was expecting nothing. He did not give up just did not want to force something that he felt was no longer possible.

If so, waiting is no problem. If you sacrifice as much as anything is okay. But enough, past files on Akhtar it's time for Shanum to fold and never be seen again. Simply shut tight, then kept in a clearing room, tied with a strong rope in a prison of vandalism forever.

Because everything has become the past, the time has passed and is over. Sadness will not be able to restore it again, anxiety will not be able to fix it back, turmoil will not be able to change it to light and turmoil will not be able to revive it because it is no longer there.

Remembering and reminiscing about the past, then grieving over the badapa and failure in it is a stupid and crazy action. That, was the same as killing the spirit, dissipating the resolve and burying the future that had yet to happen.

Although Shanum realized that one who goes will not be the same as a thousand who come.

'I do not regret Akhtar and I do not feel the most hurt, because in fact I became a wound for others.'

'Sorry Mom, Pa Teteh is not honest with you and Mom, Teteh is afraid to ruin the atmosphere, if you have to say what you feel.'

Shanum was only able to say all that in his heart.