DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 4

Today I decided to go to school, after almost a week I did not go to school because I was still mourning the passing of my mother.

"Would you like deck school? " ask me when I leave the room

"Yes,." I answered

"You have breakfast first? tuh brother already masakin your favorite fried rice, eat first yes let your stomach gk pain" he said

"Do not, I gk laper." I replied flatly

"Dek.." call my brother soft, he did not come to me for long and embraced me.

treated like that, I could not hold back my tears, again I cried I could not accept the fact that my mother had left us.

"Dek you don't keep going deck, since the departure of mother brother see you don't eat at all, branch worry you sick deck" said my brother while releasing his hug and wipe my tears.

"I'm not ready to accept the reality of the bang, I still don't believe that udh mother there "my answer sobbed

"You have to accept the reality of the deck, my mom was happy there mom had met my dad, and believe me mom and dad must have kept us from there" said my brother back hugging me while trying to calm me down.

Satya's mother's father promised to keep Raina here, father and mother don't worry huh. Speak satya in the heart.

"Yaudah now you have breakfast ready to go to school, and go to work first, don't be sad anymore" said bang satya while gently stroking my hair.

I just nodded my head and walked to the dinner table for breakfast.

After breakfast I washed my plate and rushed to school.

Upon arrival at school I was immediately greeted by Jihan who happened to be standing in front of the class.

"Rain.." call her slow

I just smiled back at Jihan's greeting, then I walked to my desk as usual. And Jihan caught up with me from behind, knowing with my feelings she did not say a word and chose to be quiet and sit next to me

Not even a break bell rang,

"Rain to the cafeteria and I'm laper." take Jihan to me

"Ji Ji first I'm a lager." I replied with a smile

"You sure you're not a laper?but your face is very high, Rain." she said while watching me.

"However Ji I gapapa "my answer again I smile back to Jihan's words to me

"Related gapapa?" the question is still not believed

"Yes, I really have a gapapa" I replied

"Well, if I go to the cafeteria first, don't you want to pesen what is cake?" ask again

"So, already there he said he wanted to go to the cafeteria and didn't go anyway "I said as I pushed Jihan away while telling her to leave

"Hheehee iaiya fierce ! " the song was trying to cheer me up

I just smiled at her look.

I just sat alone because all my classmates went to the cafeteria so I was alone in class.

Ms. Raina kangen, Raina kangen mother's cooking, Raina kangen mother-made cake, Raina does not know until when Raina kayak gini ma'am, Raina almost can not hold her step ma'am. I said in my heart, I don't think my tears have flooded my face.

I still mourn the sudden departure of my mother without any message.

I cried a long time ago, I let my tears spill.

I just wanted to blow out the tightness in my chest that I had been holding on to since the lesson just now, just as much as I could hold back my tears from falling, so as not to fall,now that I couldn't help it anymore I cried and kept crying until I felt the pain in my head, the longer the pain got stronger

why is my head so heavy... My mind occasionally closed my eyes

I accidentally saw a faint faint look of a man standing in front of me, I did not clearly see his face because I could not bear to feel the pain in my head.....

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I opened my eyes and I still felt a pain in my head

After I really realized, I looked around but I felt strange in this place I was confused and I don't know where I am now

Slowly I moved my hand

"awwww.." I said slowly as I quickly looked at my hand

I'm on the infusion? what's wrong with me? as I remember I was sitting in my classroom, wasn't I crying for my mother? why am I here?

I keep on asking in my heart

Still confused by my condition and whereabouts now, I suddenly heard the sound of the door opening slowly

Cekreek....

"You're sober?" ask a man who came in from the door

"W-who areyou? why am I here? what is this place? what's wrong with me? " question me quickly to the foreign man who is in front of me

"So you passed out, so I brought you here right now you're in the hospital, your body is so weak that the doctor advised you to take the infusion so that your energy is back to normal" replied the gentleman

I scrunched my eyebrows

What did he say? i fainted? how did he know I fainted? why would he bring me here? as I remember at school there was no one like him .My mind rages again

"I fainted?" muttered slowly

"Yes, wait here I want to go out and call the doctor for a minute" he told me

I just kept staring at him in confusion

I soon saw the door open and the stranger came with a doctor walking towards me

"You're aware, miss?" the doctor smiled at me

"W-yes doctor, why me doc? why am I here? why am I on all infusions? I think my body's okay Doc??" I asked the doctor and the doctor smiled at all my questions

"There is nothing serious about your body, miss, you are just tired and lack of stamina, it seems that some days you eat less regularly so that your body becomes weak and you faint like that "the doctor replied at length

I just kept quiet to hear the doctor's explanation

"Now the lady has to rest and eat a lot because the lady's body is not stable" said the doctor again to me

"But I want to go home doc, I'm better "I said quickly before the doctor left me

"Miss can go home after miss is stable, I cannot allow you to go home with your condition like this" he replied with a friendly smile to me

"But doc....."

"Ehheemmmmm.." the foreign man cleared his throat cutting my conversation.

"Then excuse me lady" said the doctor as he walked out of the room, as if he understood the code of the man next to me

There is only me and this stranger who until now I do not know his name and who he really is

"Now you rest, do not argue you just need to think about the condition of your body now, do not think of anything else" he said while pinning a blanket on my body

"You... Who are you really? why do you care so much about me? I asked with a confused face that had not been answered by him

"I'm the one who will look after and protect you from now on, you don't worry I'm not a bad person "he replied softly as he stroked my hair gently

"Key? protect it? whatchu mean? I don't understand the meaning of your words?" I asked again who increasingly did not understand the answer of the man

"Later to explain, now you rest yes so that your condition is stable and you by going home" he said again with a smile to me

Why am I this comfortable seeing her smile? Even with him I felt no fear or anything, I could forget a little bit of my sadness

I just met him today, but why is he making me this comfortable? Who is this man beside me?

Ahhhh what is this feeling? why do I feel like there is something strange in my heart?

Most tired of me thinking about all this I finally started to close my eyes and chose to sleep to forget a little about all the questions that kept coming to my mind

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