DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 24

Three days had passed since Arden's explanation..

I still can't accept Arden's reason for lying to me, I still doubt his love...

Maybe I'm too naive, but let me still need some time to accept my disappointment in him

During that time Arden patiently delivered breakfast until my dinner because from that day on I did not go out of the room at all, I was still at home with my sadness, I was still at home contemplating my destiny, my destiny to live alone,living in this cruel world

Tok

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"Rain..The food I've put on the table, baby, you have to eat.." persuaded Arden from behind the door of my room.

Like that, he never got tired of persuading me...

"I went to the cafe ya.kajangan yourself well do not forget to eat.", he said again.

After I heard the sound of her footsteps moving away, I laid my body on the bed

Sorry Ar...

I still can't accept all this

I'm too disappointed in you

Excuse me....

Give me a little time to start trusting you like I used to...

Being bored and constantly locked myself in my room, I also intend to clean the small garden that my mother always cared for first...

With a giant step I walked towards the garden while Arden food I had not touched at all

Arriving at the park I was stunned to not believe to see this park, the park that used to be very beautiful is now even like a small forest in my yard

You lazy bastard Raina

Look at this garden before you, you have turned it into a wilderness

I smiled embarrassedly laughing at myself

Slowly I began to clean little by little the garden which was grown a lot of weeds, even the beautiful flowers were not visible anymore because it was covered with grass that grew more

While busy cleaning the park, suddenly I heard the sound of a motor horn from the front I stopped my activities and walked towards the source of the sound

I saw a courier standing in front of my house

"Can I help you?" askanyu friendly

"Is this really Miss Raina's residence?" ask her back to me

"Yes my own right" I frowned a little confused

"Oh yes mbak, here is a package please with the purpose of address and name mbak Raina, please sign here as a sign of receipt yes."

"I-iya mas" I said stammered because as I recall I never bought anything or associated with people who needed courier services

After I finished signing the receipt, I returned it to the courier and received the intended package

"Thank you ma'am, then excuse me good afternoon." said the courier

"Yes the same day." I replied

As soon as the courier left I was again surprised by the sound of the second motor horn

Tin...Tin....

I looked directly at the source of the voice

I scrunched my forehead trying to recognize the person sitting on the motorbike not far from where I was standing

"M-mas Rian?" I ask a little doubt

"Eeh mbak funny" he said back while laughing humorously

"Raina mas..my name is Raina.." I replied a little sewot and smiled at him.

"Oh yes sorry, take Raina." he said again still smiling

"Call Raina aja mas.I'm still young and just graduated high school too.."

"Waahh dedek dedek gemes dong?" he laughed saying it

"Dedek was gnarled." I rolled over with a slight smile

"Hehehe oh this is your home mba..eeh Raina?"

"Yes..mas Rian can be here?" ask me curious

"Yes, I just returned from the minimarket in front of it and accidentally saw us here"

"Oo." I said oh ria

I just laughed at his ridiculous behavior..

"Aren't you working?" ask me again

"Not yet mas, another period of mourning." said I lirih considering the departure of bang Satya a few days ago.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you"

"Whoa kok mas, it's destiny" I said trying to smile

"That means that a few days ago here the rame y?" the question is a little awkward

"Yes mas..kok mas Rian tau?

"Yes I just moved to this area a few days ago, I keep seeing here like there is a rame rame of that person, because busy making the move I did not expect that day there was someone...." he said he was scared of offending me

"Yes, my son died" I tried to smile and continued his words

"Ooh.."

"Bulaatt.." I replied back to him earlier.

He also laughed at my words

We continued to talk while occasionally laughing together..

I fell silent, suddenly I felt my head heavy my gaze blurry

I quickly closed my eyes trying to shake off my navel

"Raina why are you?" I heard Rian ask me

I just massaged my forehead slowly, it really hurt

God please don't let me pass out here....

Before long I felt like someone was grabbing my shoulder...

Reflexes, I brushed off the touch and slowly opened my eyes

"Oohh sorry Rain, I reflexively touched you because I saw you staggering" said Mas Rian who immediately released his embrace to me

"Aahh gapapa mas, I just.." I was cut off because I saw Arden already walking towards me.

"Raina went inside." said Arden coldly as he pulled my hand without looking at me

I was surprised and immediately followed him from behind, once I turned towards Rian mas who was still standing in front of his motorbike I could only say 'sorry'

without making a sound because Arden pulled me quickly into my house

Arriving inside, Arden stopped and let go of my hand while looking at me

That look I knew it was the gaze of a lion that would swallow its prey alive

I was still petrified to see his attitude this time, I who still felt dizzy in my head was trying to sit on the sofa not far from where I was standing

After I managed to sit down, I looked towards Arden who was still looking at me sharply

"Sorry Ar.but not all as you see" I said slowly because I know Arden must be angry to see me in the embrace of Rian mas earlier, even though it was not intentional

"Who is Rain? isn't that the same guy who was at the cafe?" tanyanya flat

"Yes, it's Rian.." I replied slowly

"Ciihh you even memorized his name." he said

"He was the one who let me know at that time Ar..."

He looked at me while twitching his eyebrows

"Nolongin you? meaning?" tanyu is suspicious

"Yes at that time I was almost hit by a motorbike just want to go to the cafe,trus he happened to pass yaudah push I kept his leg hurt" said I explained everything oada Arden,I hope that Arden doesn't misunderstand me and Rian

"A hit by a motor? by when? why don't you tell me the same?"

"Well, what story do you want, what belom people are angry first" I murmured slowly but still heard by Arden

"So you don't why Rain? no one got hurt?" he asked while twisting my body to make sure there were no injuries to my body

"Son Ar.I'm fine." I said smiling reassuringly to Arden

Grep

"I don't want you to why Napa Rain, but I also don't want to see you touched by other men, I can be crazy darling" he said while hugging me tightly

"Yes Ar. "I answered while returning her hug

This is the hug I need now, the hug that always calms me

And I decided to forgive her, and began to get used to depending on her

I hope you're the one I need, Arden....