DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 12's

I continued walking quickly without looking back

Like someone sharpened my manhood

My heart hurts so much.

I don't even know what Arden's relationship is with that woman, but why am I getting this sick?

The fear of losing Arden was so great

I can't imagine what if I lost Arden

Tired of all the turmoil in my heart, I decided to go home

Arriving at home I immediately entered the bathroom while cleaning my body

I feel tired today

After I was in the Satya bang

Will I be left behind by Arden too?

After I finished the bath, I went straight to my bed to break down my body

My memories go back to how the woman hugged Arden, and I don't see any rejection there

I can clearly see that Arden enjoyed the meeting as well

What is this thing called love?

will everyone in a relationship feel pain like me?

That complicated?

If I knew this was all complicated, I would never have started something that just made me sick

As I struggled with my own heart, I slowly closed my eyes....

*****

The bell went home from school, as usual I rushed to the cafe where I worked

"Directly work Rain?" jihan asked me who was still busy with his book scattered on the table

"Yes." I replied softly

"Lu why Rain? if' there is a problem story to me "he added again

"Father, Ji, you go first." I said straight out of class

After arriving at the cafe I rushed to change clothes and immediately joined the other employees to start work

It was early afternoon, but I didn't see Arden

It seems like he didn't come, he didn't even try to explain anything to me

I murmured in my heart

Until I finish work even though I don't see any sign of his arrival

I was tired and decided to go home

Did I not mean anything to him?

Was everything he said yesterday just a lie?

Is he just playing me?

How will my relationship with him continue?

A connection?

Does Arden consider all this 'relationship'?

Aahhh I don't know, what I feel right now is that he doesn't really love me

It seems like it is just one-sided love

I said in my heart.....

*****

And all that time Arden never called me

At the cafe, he did not look the same as he does today

Today the cafe is very crowded, I am of course busy with serving customers who are increasingly crowded in the afternoon

So I subconsciously hit a woman

"I'm sorry I didn't accidentally .." I said quickly as I cleaned up the spilled drink on the woman's clothes

I did not get to see the woman's face, after finishing cleaning the drink on the floor I went to apologize to her again

"I'm so sorry.." I was cut off after I found out who I hit.

Sello...

I muttered

"Didn't you have eyes?!" snarl at me

When I wanted to open my mouth I saw Arden standing behind him

I just kept quiet looking at it

My mouth can't move

My tongue is slurred

Tib arrived I felt something coming out of my eyes

Realizing that quickly I wiped my tears

"Sorry.." I said softly

Only that word can come out of my mouth

I also ran straight to the kitchen

Arriving in the kitchen I went straight into the bathroom and cried as if there

What's wrong with me

Why is it so hard for me to feel a little happiness

Since my mother died, it's as if happiness has been away from me

Lord..help me.

After tired of crying I immediately wash my face that has been damp because of crying for too long

After I finish washing my face I intend to continue my work, which is only a few hours away

With doubt I put my foot forward

I wish they both had gone from there

After I looked around and did not see them, I immediately continued my work which was only a few hours away

I don't think my work hours are over

I quickly took a step to get home quickly

I felt like I wanted to get home and lay my body in my beloved bed

After 30 minutes of walking I arrived in front of my house

When I entered my yard I was shocked by someone who had been standing on my porch

I looked at him as if I could not believe what I saw

"Rain.." call the man down.

I who was still looking at him was immediately aware and immediately walked towards him

What exactly does this guy mean?

Does he always make my heart hurt like this?

My grouse in my heart.........