DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 23
Raina looked at Arden in disbelief at what she heard from Arden's lips, a man she trusted so much that she even lied to him
It turned out that his premonition had been right, Arden had something to do with the awkwardness he had felt all along
Tears did not stop dripping down his cheeks that looked thin
After Satya's death, Raina had not filled her stomach at all, she felt guilty for her brother because until she did not know her brother was fighting alone against the malignant disease
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I'm disappointed in you, Ar....
My mind was softened after hearing all the explanations from Arden
I never thought, why would he lie to me?
I just kept quiet and put my head on the back of the living room sofa, I just stared at the sky of the room
"I'm sorry that I wasn't honest from the beginning with you Rain.this is all Satya's request" Arden said softly as he clasped my hand.
I clapped his hand slowly, it seemed like I was no longer powerful to face the man who had now managed to fill a special place in my heart, the man I wanted to protect, she said,the man I wanted to make a place to lean on when I couldn't afford to live it all by myself, the man I wanted to make my place dependent on..
But not yet what he had disappointed me, made me lose all hope of him
"You go home, I want to be alone" I said coldly as I moved from the sofa to my room
"I know you must be angry with me Rain.I love you Rain.." she said softly while holding my hand to stay by her side.
"Love you said? what's with keeping me down like this what you call love?" I stared intently at Arden who was still sitting limp on the sofa
"I'm sorry if I was disappointed in you Rain." he said softly as he looked at me with a guilty look
I immediately threw my gaze in any direction, I could not see the eye, the eye that could always make me melt
But this time I feel that Arden has passed, do not know him I feel the most guilty with the departure of bang Satya?
I didn't even get to see my brother for the last time...
"You shouldn't hide my brother's condition from me. I'm his sister.he's the only person I have Ar... even your departure a week ago you did not tell me anything about the critical time bang Satya.kamu evil I think I can hang my life on you Ar,you are just a liar who doesn't think about my feelings at all.I'm too stupid to trust you ARDEN KUSUMA ATMAJA !" my circus trembled while holding tightness in my chest I really did not feel like this time, I immediately threw Arden's hand rough which was still holding me the loud thrust of the blow was immediately limp, my body was unsteady,my vision was dark and I felt my body staggering....
Arden admitted that his departure a week ago was not for work but to the hospital where Satya was treated to ascertain the condition of his brother-in-law's candidate after getting a report from his assistant 'Dimas' that Satya's condition was very drop and unconscious for 2 days
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I opened my eyes and blinked a few times, I felt my head was so dizzy I closed my eyes for a moment to suppress the dizziness in my head
After my normal consciousness I saw Arden pecking at the back of my hand
I fainted again...
I murmured in my heart
He didn't realize I had opened my eyes
After my strength increased a little I tried to pull my hand from his grasp, he was jolted to realize I had opened my eyes
"You're aware of Rain?" tanyanya while rubbing my head gently
I reflexively dodged his touch in my head, it felt like at this moment I was reluctant to accept a gentle caress from him
He realized with my cold attitude, he quickly pulled his hand from the top of my head
"You eat yes.I've had porridge paste earlier." he said as he grabbed a bowl containing porridge on the nightstand table.
"I bribe ya.." he said, bribing me with a spoon containing the porridge.
I'm just shifting my head my signal I don't want to eat that porridge
"You must eat Rain.already 2 days you do not eat, I do not want you why napa darling.." he asked me....
"I'm not a laper." I said coldly without looking at him.
"You may be angry with me, but you eat this yes.you are very weak Rain.you can be sick if you continue to gini." he said.
He repeated it again by feeding a spoon into my mouth, but I did the same thing by refusing a bribe from him
Huuufff....
He let out a rough sigh, and put the spoon filled with porridge onto the bowl
Instantly I looked at him with a dislike look, how could he possibly yell at me like this
"Now you eat ! there is no rejection !" he said again with a voice that was still rising
"You are good with me just because your promise is the same bang Satya mendingan you stayin I Ar.." said I coldly
With his attitude just now I thought all this time he was just pretending to love and be nice to me just because of his promise to bang Satya
Arden looked at me not believing what I just said
"Just jan.." he said paused wiping his face frustrated "you said my promise to Satya?!" tanyanya still can't believe it
"So you haven't seen how serious I've been with you Rain?I sincerely love you dear.." she said softly while looking at me fixedly.
"I don't want to be pitied, I don't want you to abuse me more than this." I said in a cold voice
Aakkh..!
"Don't think that's not Rain, I'm sincere.I love you sincerely, this has nothing to do with my promise to Satya.." he assured me.
I still can't believe his words related to his lies all this time I doubt all his kindness to me
I am alone now...
That's what I had in mind, until I heard Arden's explanation at that moment I began to doubt every word that came out of his lips
I'm just scared....
Afraid that I might have to lose again..
Maybe some people think my attitude is excessive, but this is how I feel
A growing fear, a fear of losing again...
I wouldn't be ready if I had to feel the pain left behind by the people I love
Father.mother.bang Satya...
It feels like Raina wants to catch up with you guys...
How's there?
Pleasant huh?
Raina is scared now
Raina is afraid that the person Raina loves in front of Raina will leave Raina as well...
It was very difficult for Raina to believe all her words...
Raina really does not understand the feelings of Raina at this time..
Right now Raina only felt a deep void...
Unknowingly tears again dripped down my cheeks
Arden just stared in frustration at me
Maybe he also did not end up thinking about my way of thinking, either,
Right now I really feel really fucked up, I'm lonely, I miss my family, I also feel guilty about the passing of bang Satya, and this guy in front of me with his brawn lies to me....
Lord....
Can you take my life and bring me together with all my family members there?
Hi.hi..hi....
Where are the 👍 equals ?
Criticism and advice also thor wait a minute
thor knows where thor lacks in writing a story
This is the first novel by Thir readers.....
