DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 20's
It's been a week since Arden left town
During that time I missed him a lot too
After all, after the departure of the mother and the transfer of Satya out of town he was always there for me
Bang Satya's...
It has been 1 week as well he has no news
Usually, even if it's just sending a message, he always tells me
I was standing behind my bedroom window
I looked around my house, the courtyard and also the small garden that looked unkempt since my mother's departure
My mother was very happy to plant flowers, no wonder if my yard is not too big is filled with all kinds of flowers
That night when our father and mother were always together
Beautiful at the time...
Now my father and mother are no more, only me and Satya bang
And now, only I'm here staring out and reminiscing about my past with all my family
I don't feel my tears dripping, I really miss them. I miss our laughter...I miss the mother who always pamper my tongue with her flagship cuisine.I miss the thud bang Satya....
I let my tears flow with the most beautiful memories that will never happen again
If only there was a Satya bang....
Drrttt drrrttt
The vibration of the cell phone blew away all my daydreams
I wiped my tears and grabbed the phone on the bed
Number not known
I scrunched my forehead while sliding the green button to receive the call
"Hello good morning..."
"Are you right, Raina's brother?" ask the guy across there
"yes, who am I talking to?" ask me curious
"I Asia Medica hospital would like to inform you that Satya's brother gunawan has died from a lymph node disease he suffered "
Duuaarr !!!
I'm like in a lightning bolt in broad daylight
That is to say.....
Bang Satya's......
No no no !
Bang Satya isn't he out of town?
Must be wrong, I'm sure there must be something wrong here
I dropped my phone just on the floor, I couldn't say anything after hearing from the hospital just now
My tears were flowing rapidly I wiped my tears I still couldn't believe what I just heard but my chest asphyxiated my tears the more my mind was in turmoil
Oh my God, is this true...
Really bang Satya has...
What did he say
Lymph nodes?
Since when did Satya suffer from the disease?
All this time bang Satya looks healthy
Did he hide his illness from me?
My mind just keeps raging in no direction
Until I heard the knocking on the door from outside
Hearing that, I quickly wiped my tears and went to the door to find out who was coming
Hopefully it's bang Satya, and the news I just heard must be wrong
I said over and over again in my heart as I stepped towards the door
After I opened the door how surprised I was to see who was coming
"Arden?" mummy lirih
I saw Arden's face so sad, he pulled me into his arms
"You are strong, baby, patient" she said slowly, hugging me tighter
"-you mean? you already know that." My words were cut because Arden let go of his hug and looked at me while nodding his head
"No way bang Satya out of town he can't be sick he's healthy Ar. he's healthy he's not sick !" I screamed hysterically
"Sorry Rain.you have to be strong there I am here baby.."
"Bang Satya still has Ar, she says she will go home Ar.." I said sobbing really my chest hurts so much my head dizzy my eyes are dark....
*****
I opened my eyes and looked around, I was lying in my room
I saw Arden sitting next to me
"You're sober, baby?"
I just kept quiet and couldn't answer
"It's a drink first, let's calm down a little bit" he said again as he thrust water in front of me
I got up and took a glass of water that Arden gave me
"Where is Satya Ar? I want to go to bang Satya this time he has been late imprank me rich gini" I said after sipping water earlier
Satya just looked at me softly, I saw her reddened eyes
Outside my room, I saw many people coming in all black clothes
I wonder who they really are what they do in my house
I got up from my bed and walked out of the room, as soon as I came out I saw what I saw
Bang Satya was already stiffly covered in a long cloth, his face was deathly pale, he closed his eyes he did not move
I slowly approached the Satya bang lying there
I put my face in his face
My tears are back....
"Bang, what are you doing here? said you work out of town, kok even sleep here anyway bang? work later you get fired" I said shaking withholding tightness in my chest
Bang Satya was still silent, she did not move at all as if she did not care what I said
"Bang ! wake up dong you ! don't sleep on ! " i screamed while rocking bang Satya's body
But there was no change with Satya's bang body, she still remained motionless
"Ikhlasin Satya Rain..." Arden tried to strengthen me
"Bang Satya Ar.." my sobs are non-stop
"Yes I know Rain, you must be strong.."
He said while stroking my back
I just saw bang Satya's face, his face was pale and he looked so thin how foolish I had never noticed my own brother, how and since when did he suffer from that deadly disease, he said,why didn't I know she had the disease, I felt useless as a sister
Not lost the feeling of sadness after the departure of my mother, now bang Satya also left me
What's wrong with my family?
Why did they all leave me?
Am I destined to live alone?
Do I really not deserve a little happiness?
Just a little bit, I didn't ask for more..
Oh my God what else is this trial?
Was I born with a destiny like this?
Can't my destiny be changed?
