DO I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY?
Episode 21

Today I return to this place, where I am separated from my father and mother forever

And today is the same, I will part with the person I love the most again, Satya...

Forever....

I won't be able to see her again, I won't be able to bode with her anymore, I can't mute her anymore, I can't feel her affection anymore...

Oh my....

Will I be able to this time?

I'm right on my own right now, there's no more place for me to complain

There's no more place I lean...

Why are you so cruel to me, God?

Why did you take all the people I love?

Slowly bang Satya was inserted into the burrow, I can only see it with lips mute and tears that somehow had flowed

Goodbye my dear brother...

Hope you're happy there..

Your pain must have gone, too, right?

Give my regards to my father and mother

Tell them I'll be fine

And aaahh...

I envy you bang, now you can get together again with dad and mom...

Instantly I muttered in my heart, and the body of bang Satya was already covered with soil

I sprinkled the last flower for Satya bang while holding my sobs I wish I could be fine after the second man who made me fall in love after my father left me for good.....

The mourners gradually left after saying their condolences to me

I haven't left my place, I'm still here still accompanying bang Satya

I felt like all this was just a dream, a nightmare I wanted to wake up from my sleep so quickly

"Let's go home Rain." Arden's voice roused me from all my daydreams.

Yep...

There's Arden, I wish Arden could be the one I'm leaning on right now, only Arden I have right now

I hope he keeps his promise when he first meets me

I looked at him for a moment and then ran into his arms

Again I spilled my tears in his arms making me very comfortable a warm embrace that could always calm my heart

"Ikhlasin, baby, I know it's all very hard for you, but trust me I'll always be there for you, Rain." said the man who always calms my heart.

I nodded while sobbing

"Thank you that you're always there for me Ar.." I said staggered still with my sobbing

"Yes, baby, that's it if we go home already late afternoon you also need rest right" he asked slowly while rubbing my shoulder

We walked away from the final resting place of bang Satya, once in a while I still turned my head and looked at the gravestone that read the name bang Satya I hope this is all a true dream..

Arriving at home I immediately rushed to clean myself to the bathroom, after approximately 30 minutes I went out of the bathroom and immediately met Arden who was sitting in the living room

He sat down and closed his eyes, looking from the look on his face that he was tired because he took care of all the funeral needs of bang Satya

I looked at the sound in silence

Can I hang my life on you, Ar?

But wait, how did he know that bang Satya died?

Hasn't he been out of town all this time on business?

I still look at her face with all the questions that come up in my head

I immediately turned my eyes away

"Aren't you sleeping?" askaku reelagapan

"Wake up since you sat next to me"

"oohh" I said while nodding my head

"You want to eat something? since this morning your stomach hasn't filled anything Rain.."

"I'm not Ar's laper." I replied, shaking my head

"But you have to eat baby, you'll be sick later." she stroked my hair gently

Out of curiosity I ventured to ask her where she knew Satya had died

"Ar.." call me

"Yes." she replied still by stroking my hair softly

"Do you know where bang Satya died?" my question while holding his hand while stopping his activities, however, I feel something strange with Arden's attitude

He looked surprised at my question, even though he was relaxed but the look on his face clearly described it as unexpected I asked like that

"You..Nothing are you hiding from me?" I am getting more suspicious

Arden was still silent, and the look on his face was still the same

"Ar.." call me again impatient with his silence

"Tomorrow I'll tell you a story, baby, now I'm really tired." I suspect

"That's right, there's something you're hiding from me "my mumbling softly

Without responding to my words Arden closed his eyes again

What exactly is Arden hiding from me

I left him alone in the living room, I intend to go back to my room

Before I closed the door to my room, I briefly lyricized towards him and as I thought he was not really sleeping because we accidentally met our eyes because I realized I saw him quickly he closed his eyes again

I immediately closed the door to my room and immediately threw my body into the bed

I remember my brother leaving town a few months ago

All I remember was that he was very sudden, and before leaving was like he wanted to tell me but was restrained

Arriving at the bus terminal, I accidentally saw Arden and bang Satya like discussing something very serious

Because I was saddened by the sudden transfer of Satya's duties so I didn't really think about what Satya and Arden actually discussed

Does this have anything to do with Arden?

If there is, why didn't Arden tell me?

I just looked at the sky of my room while guessing what really happened

Bangs...

What are you hiding from me?

Does this have anything to do with Arden?

If it's true, I feel like I'm being fooled here

Bangs....

I miss...

Your little sister misses you so much...

Can I go through all this alone bang?

I kept muttering in my heart as I shed my tears

Until I got into the world of my dreams....