I'm You And My Memories
The end of the long journey
Days after the departure of Abi we did not have any news, the last news I got Abi was Makasar because the ship was again a docking and there was a signal for the nelfon. My prayers are unbroken for my husband, may he always be protected by God wherever He is.
I live the days as usual, I have also started taking college leave because my stomach is getting bigger and if not taken care of now I am afraid to give birth first.
Mother's health is getting down, Eating is also just porridge, Mother can only sit and lie down while walking Mother can not so I have to be extra strong when Mother asks to sit in front. I had to carry Mom's body which weighed 70 kg and I once told Mother. We both fell down but luckily it didn't hit my stomach. We both laughed then.
Towards the day of labor I really felt a tremendous back pain, Sleeping in any position seemed bad. Today I Last time the doctor said my baby's position has not entered the pelvis while my amniotic already murky, Doctor is afraid of anything happening with my baby finally decided surgery action. But I asked my mother to come and I'm here because my mother-in-law is getting weaker.
In the 38th week finally arrived the schedule to start cesarean section at RSIA in Pekanbaru. The Operation Plan started at 7am, so by 5am I had already started preparations. Started hospital admission from the previous day of the night. When entering the hospital I was checked first starting from blood tests, blood checks, to blood clots. The ear in the prick and wait for a few minutes, continue with the examination of the heartbeat of the mother and baby.
At about 23:00 I began to install the infusion, and then in the pairs of catheters that I thought were in excruciating pain, at Four in the morning I was built to bathe and prepare. Six o'clock less I was taken to the operating room.
Arriving in the operating room I began to be paired with tools and then there was an anesthesiologist to invite me to chat. Slowly the doctor injected an anesthetic in my back at the time which I thought hurt really bad. After waiting for a few minutes slowly the tip of my foot began to feel cold then the doctor told me to move it, But the more I tried to move it my legs felt heavier it meant that the anesthetic began to react well.
The doctor began the process of surgery about 20 minutes passed finally for the first time I heard the sound of crying baby boy, God finally I became a mother. The nurse immediately gave my baby to do my first breast feeding. I held my little boy's hand. The baby boy is 47 cm long and weighs 2700 grams. God is like being a mother.
I was sad because when our son was born his father was far from us and the one who first accused our son was my father-in-law.
Four days after the surgery I was allowed to go home until I immediately went to my mother-in-law and told her that her granddaughter was born and I saw there was happiness in my eyes even though I couldn't talk to her obviously but I know he's very happy.
Until this moment I was still waiting for news from my husband, the panic of worry more penetrated my heart especially just now I saw the news of eight members of the TNI killed shot. Eight TNI members were shot at in two different places, one person in the High Nambut area, Puncak Jaya Regency and seven others in Sinak District, Puncak Regency.
God protect my husband in every duty.
3 Days after returning from the hospital I spent my new days taking care of my mother-in-law and taking care of my 3-day-old baby. I started to fuss after Mom came back to Medan and I did everything myself.
That afternoon in the midst of busyness My phone rang a call that I had missed my husband for days.
"Assalamualaikum Mommy how the birth of his darling, Sorry yes Bun has been for days Abi can not ngabarin Mommy because the signal here is lost. How does our dear son look like to whom?" That's the question from Abi.
"Waikumsalam Abi, Alhamdulilah o Allah finally mother can still hear the voice of Abi, Mother is afraid why napa there because the mother saw in the news 8 soldiers who died, Mother is afraid by."
At that time I cried as it happened, The heart of the wife who is not worried to see her husband is fighting death because there are some unknown people attacking the post there.
"Doain Abi is fine here, baby because Abi wants to go home and see our son. Unfortunately Abi can not long nelfo because using the phone number Pos, As much as possible Abi will tell mother ya. Assalamualaikum."
"Getishalam."
Hearing Abi well there is enough to make me relieved, My job is only to pray that my husband is always healthy and always in his protection. I want to get together with my husband.
Two weeks after calling me I haven't gotten a call from Abi yet, it's really hard to signal. This morning after bathing my baby and breastfeeding him he finally slept soundly, That means I have to take turns taking care of Mom because Mother also has not eaten, After bathing and nyapin Mother eating my body really feels tired. I put my body on the living room couch I grabbed my phone and opened a facebook that I had not opened for a very long time.
After opening facebook I saw there was an inbox request coming in, I opened the profile of a hijab-wearing woman and seemed to be quite mature and graceful. I opened a message from him.
"Assalamualaikum this with mbak Nana yes, greetings yes My mother Ayu ."
After reading the message from him I wondered who he was about why he knew my name.
Without waiting for long she returned my message.
"I'm his girlfriend Mas Rudi.
Whattt was immediately surprised to hear that, Then if he was dating Mas Rudi what he had to do with me why he was looking for me on facebook.
" Ohh mbak this is Mas Rudi's girlfriend continues to exist what Mother why look for me?"
I was curious about her answer.
"Honestly I am Iri with mbak Nana because every time we make a fuss Mas Rudi always compares me with Mbak Nana, Mas Rudi always said I was very different from Ma'am I didn't have the patience that Nana had. If I can ask you to allow Mas Rudi with me and Mbak never again appear in the life of Mas Rudi, Mbak Masalunya Mas Rudi. So stop being Masalalu's shadow."
"Mbak Ayu has nothing to worry about since I got married and started my new life so that's when I closed our love story, I never again contact or think about Mas Rudi because for married women think of men other than her husband is Sin and I do not want to sin just because Mas Rudi. About Mas Rudi who likes to compare me with mbak maybe back to self mbak how to convince Mas Rudi that mbak is better than me. About Mas Rudi who still thinks about me it is out of my control because the heart of someone who does not know. So stop blaming me because now I am happy with my husband and my son. If there is nothing more to discuss I say. Assalamualaikum."
I will close my Facebook account soon. I immediately went to Mom's room carrying medicine and vitamins because of Mom's schedule to take medicine.
Until my mother's room I saw Mom not moving at all I checked Mom's chest there was absolutely no sound of heartbeat but Mother's body was still warm. I was panicking what happened to Mom. I immediately contacted my sister-in-law and asked the neighbors for help right then and there. I also called my father who had needs outside.
15 Minutes later my sister-in-law came and took Mom to the hospital. Because of my condition when I was still having a baby I was not allowed to come to the Hospital and I waited for Mom at Home in hopes that Mom could regain consciousness. 1 Hour I waited for news From Mother at last Mother arrived at home but Mother's return to this house in a condition that is no longer lifeless, God I can not resist crying, God, My tears broke when I saw Mother who had not moved anymore when this morning I was still bathing and nyuapin Mother eat, I love Mother so much like my own biological parents, From the beginning met Mother already very dear to me then from that during Mother's illness I was very sincere to take care of Mom. Maybe this is the best thing for Mom and now I don't feel any pain anymore.
What about Abi she can't go home to see Mom one last time.
One year passed after passing various severe tests left by Mother today is the day Abi returned. Thank God for the first time Abi saw our son who was then eight months old. He was so similar to his father, the joy of crying I expected all in my husband's arms.
After Abi returned from my assignment, I again completed my pending studies until I finished my Spd degree.
Thank you for the past from you I learned about the meaning of fighting and being patient because behind all the tests there must always be happiness waiting. I never regretted my time, because I was able to meet my husband , at this time my marriage with Abi has entered its eighth year and we have two children .
One six-year-old male and one half-year-old female. And Mas Rudi is also married to mba ayu and has a Two-year-old daughter.
After the wedding Nana and Mas Rudi never again communicate with each other because we already have a family each.
Before writing this story I had personally asked my Husband for permission and he willingly allowed me to write this story.
I hope there are positive lessons to be learned from my story.
Names and battalions were put together.
But all the contents in his greeting real story of my personal life.
Thank you to all who have followed my story you and my memories from beginning to end.
Greetings dear my sari.
