I'm You And My Memories
The temptation keeps coming

Abi's anger was so high at that time. He got in the car and left without even speaking a single word. I was confused as to what I should do at that moment, My hands trembled reading a message from Mas Rudi. 10 minutes later I heard the sound of a car horn,

Abi came back home without saying hello he immediately threw the first card in my face.

"Replace your card now also hand over the old number to me."

I who was frightened saw the anger of Abi immediately obey Abi's will. After that Abi immediately left me without saying goodbye.

For the first time I really felt guilty with Abi and promised myself to forget about Mas Rudi. I must be able to continue my life without the shadow of Mas Rudi, Let her be happy with her choice later but at this time I am a Wife who must be able to maintain the dignity of my husband. On the other hand I might be selfish for forgetting the love I had for almost 5 years with Mas Rudi, but on the other hand I belonged to my husband.

Slowly I began to fix myself, I began to wear the hijab, to take care of my aura, not to show it especially if inviting or fishing other men who are not my husband, he said, if a husband lets his wife indulge in the law then he will be included in one of the male characteristics that Allah SWT will not see on the day of the apocalypse.

After that incident I apologized to Abi and promised to forget Mas Rudi forever, and I have carried out my duties as a wife as well as I should.

In the 5th month of my marriage with Abi sign I was two-bodied began to appear, I became often nauseous in the morning and not strong when the smell of fried chicken tastes so nauseous.

Saturday when Abi was off duty I deliberately prepared a surprise for Abi.

"Here anyone wants to go to Abi."

"What Mother dear, Tumben want to give a gift to Abi usually mambek mulu every day, What my dear kadanya."

I immediately gave the small box in which there was a pregnancy test. Soon Abi opened the box.

"This is what Abi's mother doesn't understand this."

I saw Abi confused while turning back my pregnancy test results,.

"These are called pregnancy test kits, So Mommy will be late mens, Mommy now likes to be tired if on campus continues to often nausea also so Mother this test."

"This is just Mother do not muter-muter Abi confused what does it mean?" Cecar Abi was impatiently waiting for my answer.

"Pig...Our pregnant mother will be a parent now."

"God thank you I will soon be a father, Thank you Mother for being a good wife for Abi, Abi promised not to waste a bit of mother.

Abi hugged me while crying knowing I was going to be a mother.

This good news we will tell the whole family, especially my mother and Abi's parents. I forgot to know that Abi's father retired 3 months after we got married and has now moved out of the Military Dormitory, Because of the rules, retired soldiers must leave the official House that has been occupied.

So since moving from Dormitory mom and dad moved not far from our house because they happened to have prepared for old age after retirement.

How happy they were to know that their youngest son would be a father. Abi himself is the youngest of 4 brothers 2 sisters who work as a teacher and 1 brother number 3 works in the oil company which is quite far from Pekanbaru.

Stay Mom and Dad in the house both because all his children already have their own lives.

My pregnancy has reached 3 months and I am still in college until the birth. That afternoon suddenly Brother-in-law called me.

" Na again where can't go to the hospital now."

"Na's back at the college sister but soon to be back, are there any sisters?" Ask restless

"Mother fell in the bathroom Na continues now again at the Doctor's check."

God, Mother why did I fall, I immediately headed to the hospital.

At the hospital I saw Abi's father-in-law and first brother there. I don't know what the doctor's explanation is, but thank God you're allowed to go home.

At that time Abi could not go home because there was another visit to PANGDAM 1 BB, I asked permission to Abi sleep at Mother's house because I was afraid Mother why.

After reaching home I saw the strangeness of Mother, Mother's face was no longer straight and her lips were slightly slanted and what made me worry more was that the body of the Right Mother could no longer be moved.

Now Mom can't do anything else even just turn her body around, you can't, I took the initiative to invite Mom to move to my house so I can take care of Mom every day even while going to college but I'm sure I can.

My two sisters-in-law did not approve my request because they reasoned that I was a kasian if brought here but they also could not if they had to stay and take care of Mom every day at home because they had an ankle and husband.

I love Mom and I decided to move into Mom's house for a while until Mom gets well, Sharing duties with my father murudua while I'm on campus all the needs of the mother father who takes care of as well as sebikiknya if I've been home My father rest.

My stomach is getting bigger 5 months I've stayed at Mother's house and for 5 months the signs of recovery are not visible at all even the condition of the mother is getting worse. Last month the last check to the Mother's Hospital did a cityscan the results were really very surprising. In your right brain there is a fluid that inhibits the flow of oxygen to the brain. So it weakens the memory of Mother. Mom used to forget about me but I didn't mind it because all I wanted was Mom's recovery.

Now my gestational age is 8 months, which means I will soon give birth. As usual every Saturday Abi was at home we shared the task of taking care of Mom. He knew I was tired every day because I had to go to campus in the condition of an enlarged stomach and until home still have to take care of Mom and prepare food for Dad.

Today is Saturday night Sunday I let you sleep the last time you finish praying Isya, I feel really tired today.

The night was getting late as usual Abi always slept hugging me. At 00:30 I suddenly woke up, I don't know why I could wake up all of a sudden, I saw Abi was not there, My feelings were agitated suddenly my chest was pounding, oh God, what is this. I went straight out of the room checking the bathroom, the kitchen, the TV room but I didn't find Abi. Why is my heart getting agitated, I check the front door is still locked, I open the cloth curtain saw the fence is also closed, Even if Abi came out from where he passed with the fence locked. then I walked towards the garage of my car see why it wasn't in the lock.

I don't know where the whisper or this is called feeling a wife, I went straight out and opened the fence, I remember once that night at 01.20 I went out of the house while carrying a cell phone, My steps stopped at the house of my neighbor right next to Mother's house.

That's Beti's neighbor's house 40-year-old mother a 2-year-old child widow. My steps stopped right in front of Aunt Beti's house. I grabbed my phone and called Abi's number. I heard a vague tone calling Abi ringing from the auntie beti house. My heart was getting less and less because it felt constantly and I kept calling and this time I no longer heard Abi's phone from inside the house next door. Is it possible that my ears are wrong, Not my ears can still hear clearly the voice of Abi's phone because the atmosphere of the night was really quiet so the sound of crickets can be heard clearly.

2 Hours ago I stood in front of Aunt Beti's house and decided to go home not to forget I locked the fence and garage door. Again I followed the feeling of standing in front of the window. Not long after I saw Abi jump from the wall next to Aunt Beti's house. I saw him sneaking towards the garage door but I locked him inside and he couldn't get in. 10 Minutes he squatted down in front of my window that I could no longer hold myself open the front door.

After I opened the front door I went back to the room. I don't want to shout asking where she is because I'm afraid that Mom and Dad will wake up and find out about their youngest son's behavior.

I just kept quiet and cried when my chest was tight, God my heart broke the husband that Mom chose for me turned out to be having an affair with another woman who was older than her.

"I'm going home, I'm going home." So I said while crying.

And suddenly Abi was crying and chirping under my feet .

"Bi wrong mother Abi khilaf forgive Mother, Abi promised not to repeat it again."

"What is the lack of Mommy so far, Mommy participates whatever Abi wants, Mommy leaves the massalu Mommy for Abi, Even Mother sincerely Ngerawat Mother who is sick again, Even Abi's sisters do not care at all about Mother's health, let alone take care of Mother every day, To come just to see her own birth Mother aja they heavy By. But let Mother never dispute That, But why Abi could have to Mother, Didn't Abi even see the sincere Bund. What is the reason Abi sleeps with Him, What is the reason that Mother's stomach is big and no longer attractive in the eyes of Abi." Mommy wants to go home By please By mother Want to go home.

My tears broke that night my heart was completely broken.