I'm You And My Memories
My decision
I hate times like these, where LDRs are going to start coming back. I don't know how long we can meet again , If our relationship can be normal like many couples out there who can meet every week 1 month I am grateful, But we can't do much, In the meantime we're going to deal with the situation until the time comes for sure everything will be beautiful.
After Nemenin Mas Rudi waited for the bus, Mom called me.
"Yes Ma'am what's wrong, it looks like there's something important ma'am."
"Here sit I'm going to talk, "Where are you going to take your relationship now?"
"I mean Mom how Bu Nana does not understand, Nana's relationship with Mas Rudi is still like this Mom just walk, Toh Mas Rudi is far away so I don't have to worry about a free relationship Mom, "God willing, Nana can take care of herself, ma'am."
"But that's not what I mean, son, I mean what I mean is maybe Rudi there is loyal while you are here to keep an uncertain love, which is not certain, No matter how strong a man in a long distance relationship, there must be a woman who wants to try to get in to pay attention."
"But Mas Rudi is not that kind of guy ma'am, Sorry Bu notya Nana wants to be disobedient with Mother but it is Mother herself who initially knew Mas Rudi to Nana but also Mother who now doubts Mas Rudi. So now Nana has to do with Mom, What do you want, Please Mom for this time Let Nana be happy with this Relationship."
"What relationship.! Relationships in stupid\-stupid. As Mom raised her voice, I don't know what made Mom this angry, Though before all was well\-all and Mas Rudi was welcomed with Mom".
"An established man has a good regular job career does not guarantee he will be loyal to his pairs," Moreover, he is far and different cities again, and not to mention, I just don't want my son to be stupid here waiting for an uncertain Every Day just talk to the phone,. You're rich in your palette now with Rudi, "Whatever he messes up all you participate, "Turn back ngajar suru enter the room, "Phone until night, "Phone until night, While the mother who gave birth to you who painstakingly made money for college costs you slalu ignored.
I don't understand why Mom got this angry, All the emotions she overflowed as if she had a grudge with Mas Rudi. At that time I could only cry, I did not dare to refute the words of Mother afraid to say Durhaka, After being satisfied to vanish his words Mother Go so without caring about my feelings.
After that incident I became more silent, because whatever I did seemed to be all wrong in the eyes of the mother and again every mistake I ended up being related to Mas Rudi. Mas Rudi doesn't know anything.
Every phone always asks
" Dear Mother how are you.? Feelings have long since Mas never call Mother, kangen also heard the voice of Mother." When Mas Rudi asked the News of Mother, I always said that the news is that Mom is healthy and Mom is asleep so can not call, Even though Mas Rudi really wants to hear the voice of mother.
Netapa sinnedanya I always lied to Mas Rudi, Though I know that Mother no longer wanted Mas Rudi.
Maybe I'm one of the people who can't hide Tears, When my nose wails automatically stopper Gak can breathe and it makes my voice become nasal and Mas Rudi already memorized.
"Darling why are you crying,? That is the question that Mas Rudi often asked and I always look for reasons so that Mas Rudi did not Tau.
The more day Mas Rudi's affection grew to me and so did I love him very much. But it is different with Mother, Iya every day looking for faults Mas Rudi purpose just To keep Me from Mas Rudi.
Until one day a big problem occurs.
It has been 2 months that I no longer become a tutoring teacher in Bimbel that I have been working for, Mas Rudi already knows the reason why, why, I've told everything to Mas Rudi and Mas Rudi feel happy because my time is not much seized anymore and otamatis rest me enough so do not have to go home again at night.
But it was different with Mom, she felt that I decided the job unilaterally when I had explained the reason I did not work but I did not believe. What I think after I don't work anymore I'll have more time for calls every night with Mas Rudi, but that's not true, Since then I really hated Mas Rudi and Mas Rudi did not know that because all this time I always told Mas Rudi that Mother always send greetings and said Mas Rudi always take care health there.
Mas Rudi said I do not need to think about any more costs because he promised to help me, This is his opportunity because all this time I have always refused help from him, The last 1 million money Mas Rudi was still intact because I was confused about what the money was to be used.
In my mind at this time, Mother, Mother felt more and more costs that must be spent for the three of us because my brother number two is already in Class 3 High School and sister Number 3 is now in Class 1 High School so automatically the cost increases.
Honestly during my work Mother has never again given me an allowance for the cost of transportation, At most mother only give me money for the rest of the semester I have a salary to meet my needs all, I have a salary,. But after Not working anymore mom really felt very burdened and at that time I thought to stop going to college, But again Mas Rudi forbade me and promised to help me until I Graduated Later.
Honestly my most spending on college assignments because now I have many tasks to do diwarnet or computer rental to find materials because I did not have a laptop at that time.
I was forced by Mas Rudi to open a savings account so I wouldn't borrow here and there if Mas Mau transferred money. And inevitably I had to obey Mas Rudi at that time because there was no other choice.
Moon also changed Mas Rudi began to Transfer some of his Gajih for my needs and Mas Rudi advised that Mother should not know. Though I really want to tell Mom that when this is the form of seriousness Mas Rudi, He set aside some salary for me, he set aside some, But the more Hari's mother hated Mas Rudi and every day at home there was just a commotion that led to Mas Rudi.
Mom really felt hard to finance me college when the biggest cost so far from Mas Rudi but as if Mom turned a blind eye to it.
Never again I see now I am patient, Every day there is only nagging and nagging that ends up fixed to Mas Rudi even though Mas Rudi is not wrong.
Today I deliberately told Mom that I left the afternoon campus, The State of the House this morning was lonely I also rushed to clean some clothes and other necessities into a large bag, he said, I don't know if my decision might have been wrong. But maybe in this way I can calm myself a little while, Armed with my memory as a child I was once invited by Father to Grandpa Ato's house, Kek ato was the sister of his Mother's father, He is a retired TNI and now He has a restaurant business and currently all I have in mind is going there and working with my grandfather to make extra tuition, I don't want to be a burden on Mom and every day I hear you always blame Mas Rudi for this.
With capital money that is always packed Mas Rudi I want to go right now.
Before leaving I accidentally turned off my phone because later it would be heard and Mom kept calling me.
Right now my position has been ripped off by a motorbike and I explained in detail to Abang rickshaw about my Grandpa. At the beginning before I boarded the rickshaw brother was sure that he knew where Grandpa's house was but after on the road he did not know the location of Grandpa's house.
2 Hours we muterin Kota just nyari Grandpa House and finally my eyes are headed to one restaurant near the industrial area which at that time quite a lot of people eat.
"How much Bang fare," Tanyaku to Abang becak.
"200 Thousand decks,"
"Yeahhhhh,!!! " Is it not wrong Why it is so expensive."
"Yes, it's been so Deck, 2 hours we've been around looking for my oil address,"
With annoyed I also pay the fare, There is no benefit also debad with Abang becak, Though it was wrong he himself said that if he knew the Address ehhh it turns out I was taken around, Maybe he's just suoaya mode I paid dearly.
800 Thousand more of my remaining money from Mas Rudi huffttt I really have to save now.
"Assynolt,"
"Walaikumsalam, Ehh inikan Diran's son,"
"Yes my cake Nana his son Father who used to be invited by Dad here," But it was not this big Kek Nana until Nyasar find the address of grandfather.
"Who's Na here, anyway,?"
"Nana herself Kek." I also explained my purpose and purpose here to work for help at Grandpa's restaurant whatever I want me to do, And after the deal with Grandpa I asked for 20,000 a day and Grandpa let it go and said that I don't need to work stay here as long and as I want.
Thank God you are so good.
My initial agreement with Grandpa was that every day I woke up at 4 to help my grandfather's clerk cut up vegetables that would be cooked later, But I wonder why they're all awkward and don't let me do all that, but I'm still pushy.
At 8 I left for the Campus and it turned out that my campus was only 2 kilo meters from Grandpa's House, Taking public transportation from Grandpa's house to the campus only paid 2000 rupiah, the cost, This is totally inversely proportional to me when I was still living with Mom, I had to take 2x public transportation to get to my campus and every day my transportation costs 20,000 commute every day .
Grandpa Always treated me well, I know why grandfather was so, Since Grandma died and 3 children grandfather who works with TNI grandfather.
Now that they have their own families and all are far away, Mas Robi is now in Banjarmasin South Kalimantan. Mas Dwi in Bandung and Mas Heri in Padang. Such is the life of the TNI, They never know where and how far they will be placed with the people they love.
They have vowed to be loyal to the Unitary State of the Republic of Indonesia based on the Pancasila and Basic Law 1945.
Vowing to submit to the law and upholding the discipline of the army.
Note to superiors by not refuting orders or rulings.
Will carry out all obligations with full sense of responsibility to the Army and the State of the Republic of Indonesia.
Will hold all the Army's secrets as hard as possible.
Such was their vow at the beginning to choose the way of life as a TNI Soldier.
1 Week passed after leaving the House until this second even I have not turned on my phone at all, I am afraid that Mother called me and the most I fear how I explain everything with Mas Rudi.
But I feel really selfish if I don't tell this to Mas Rudi, anyway he deserves to know.
