I'm Always Wrong In Your Eyes
part 31 happiness over suffering

I'm Always Wrong in Your Eyes

#AYSDM

That storm never passed from my life. I don't know what sins I've committed in the past, as if suffering was my life.

I don't know what next step I'm going to take. Should I continue or should I run aground again? O Allah. Give the servant guidance.

Should I forgive Wais, who is clearly cheating and adultery? In front of my eyes they came into the hotel.

All night I thought about all this. When I looked at the clock on the wall, I immediately took water ablution. I want to bring all the problems to Him. He begs for forgiveness from Him.

Oh Allah... Please show me the best way for my servant to resolve the conflict that exists between us all. Servant is ready to accept your decision. If the decision You give is to part with him, the servant is ready to accept. And if you must stay together, give the servant the strength to accept all the trials You have given. The servant only wants Your service, O Allah, the servant only wants to reach Your jannah. And one more thing I want you to ask, let me give Merwais a descendant of the servant. I am willing to exchange my life for his happiness. Show me your power, O God. Aami....

After praying, the heart feels calm and peaceful. I have given all my problems to Him. I finally fell asleep in peace.

***

Adhan dawn reverberate, immediately I take the water of ablution to perform the obligatory prayers of two raka'at. Not forgetting, I woke up my children to immediately perform congregational prayers.

This time it was Galang's eldest who had us pray, in exchange for his Abinya.

"Bund, why didn't Abi come home too?" ask the middle of Gilang.

"Sholat first, talk later." The young man who was starting to grow up understood my situation. He doesn't want to see me cry anymore.

If Wais were here, how happy they would be to have such a perfect family.

"Come, let's pray first" I said.

"Come on, Come on, Adzan." I continued.

"Ready, Mother" said Gilang.

Gilang adzan and we immediately perform dawn prayers.

After the prayer, we prayed together. After that, go back to their own rooms. But before, Aisya gave me a brown envelope.

"What's this?" ask me with sign language.

"Invitation to play the violin." replied Aisya.

Happy and proud to be one, I embrace my beloved daughter. So did Galang and Gilang. The three of them got along very well, there was never the slightest quarrel between them. Even with Aleda, they were all very close and affectionate towards each other.

This is the pleasure of God that I feel. In a state of inner conflict, I was still being presented with affection among my children.

Proud of Aisya, with his flaws, he is able to play the violin. I really didn't know that Aisya could play the violin.

"When?" I asked Aisya again with a signal.

"Tonight." she answered.

"Mother will come to attend the show." I replied.

"Abi?" Aisha asked about Abinya.

"Later mother tried to call Abi." comfort me to Aisya. Even though I'm sure it's impossible.

Before long, Sust Ina called us for breakfast. Soon the kids will be going to school.

We headed to the dining table. Already seen Alicia sitting there with Aleda and Kabir. He just stared at me cynically.

"Is it still here?" Alicia asked with insinuation words.

"Is there a problem with you, Alice?" kalem.

"Hey, your husband is no longer in this house." he began to get emotional watching me not respond.

"Sorry, this is the dining table. Better eat first. It is not good to argue in front of the children and in front of the windfall." I said.

When Alicia wants to talk again, I stick my index finger to her lips, so she doesn't talk anymore. Kabir smiled amusedly, and Alice grew even more irritated at me.

The children finished their meal and immediately went to school, as the school bus was about to arrive.

Oya, Sust Ina and David got married a few months ago. But they're still with me, because I still need them. They are very loyal and understand my situation.

After the kids left for school and Kabir went to the office, Alicia came to see me.

"Listen Dinah, before long the Vais will divorce you." she stared intently at me.

"Then?" sahutku.

"And you're gonna get out of this house and go back to Indonesia."

"I'm not afraid. But I'll fight for my love."

Alicia approached and grabbed the hijab I was wearing. My head looks up.

"Listen, pack up, take your kids with you. You have no right to live here." said Alice ketus.

"You have no right to expel me and my children. I'm still Wais's legal wife. If he wants to divorce me, he has to go to Indonesia."

"And yes, no one will be able to take the Empress away from me. I will continue to defend it." my tone was firm with Alicia.

"You..." Alicia tried to hit me. However, the hand did not land on the cheek, because the hand was immediately cut off.

"Remember, Alice, you have to respect me as your sister. Because I'm the oldest daughter-in-law in the house." I left Alice alone who was fascinated by my resistance.

Maybe he thought, I don't have the courage to fight him.

I kept walking into the room and locked it. Almost all day I was just in the room, the mind kept drifting thinking about the next step that must be done. Do I have to forgive Wais?

Towards the magrib, the door of the room was knocked from the outside.

"Bund, let's pray magrib!"

It turns out that Sisulung Galang is knocking.

"Yes, baby, just a second. Mommy wants to take ablution first." I immediately took ablution and followed them to the prayer room.

After the prayer we immediately get ready to attend the event held at a star hotel. One of the participants is Aisya.

When everything was ready, we left immediately. However, Aisya asked Abinya. There was sadness on Aisya's face. I comforted her, and said I'd call Wais right away.

"Honey, wait a minute, Mommy will call Abi first."

I took the device in my handbag. After that I looked up Wais's number and contacted him immediately. I stayed away from them a little, afraid of wanting to be hopeless. Connected phone...

"Hallo, who is this?" the voice of a woman there. She's holding my husband's device.

Vibrating this body, sliced up in the heart. But I try to toughen up.

"Where's Wais?" my many to hold the chest tightness.

"Whos you?" tanyanya.

"Im his wife." kept trying to hold the pain.

Before long, my husband's voice sounded.

"Yes, what's up, Din?" vais's voice in the room.

O Allah. Now the call of the Mother is no longer spoken. Is it so great that he hates me.

"Abi, Aisya tonight is following the match. He wanted Abi to be present on the night of the match." I replied withholding tears.

"Sorry, I'm busy." The phone disconnected.

Even the tears I could not hold anymore. He flows without me asking.

Kabir who turned out to be behind me, gave me the spirit so that I did not look sad in front of the children.

"Remove your tears, Din. Do not let the children know with your sadness. Poor Aisya." he said.

I immediately wiped my tears and met my dear children.

"Honey, sorry, Abi is busy so can't attend" I told Aisya. Trying to hide what really happened.

There was disappointment on Aisya's face. But she smiled back and hugged me.

"It's okay, Mother, Aisya is already happy with the presence of Mother." Aisha with her sign language. I kissed her cheek too.

We also leave with ushering in David, not forgetting Sust lna Ijak together.

Upon arriving at the place, I handed over the invitation that had been given. We are looking for the right place to be able to see Aisya's performance clearly.

The event also began. One by one the participants have performed. All their violin playing really looks stunning. Now it was Aisya's turn to perform.

Aisya said her opening greeting in sign language. The spectators who watched felt astonished, because one of the participants was a mite.

I was so happy to see Aisya dare to appear in front of many people.

Aisya also started her violin game. So beautiful and so touching. Does not feel the eyeballs fall over the cheeks. In the middle of Aisya's violin, Kabir comes with Aleda.

"It's so proud to see Aisha, right, Dina!" whispered Kabir.

I nodded my head, unable to speak anymore. But, I was a little confused, Aisya never said that she could play the violin. All I know is, he's just good at painting.

"Don't be surprised, Dina. Aisya asks Aleda to find a very famous violin tutoring place in Dubai, because she likes music."

"And lucky that Aisya is a smart person, she quickly mastered the violin game even with its shortcomings."

"The coaches saw, Aisya is very talented in this. And Aisya was also included in this national event." at length Kabir explained.

Oh Allah... Aleda loved Aisha very much. He did not feel rivaled, even very supportive.

"Dear Aleda, thank you for making Aisya a Violinist." I hugged and kissed Aleda too.

"This is thanks to the teachings of the Mother who must love each other, especially toward relatives" said Aleda who was so wise.

"Din, dosto?" Kabir extended his hand.

"Yes, I will. We're friends." I welcome his hand.

All the participants played their violins. Now only the announcement of the winner will be contested back at the international level.

Hearts are waiting for this announcement.

When the name Aisya was mentioned, I was so proud and proud of my little daughter who I fought for her life and death. And now he has a very unexpected advantage and makes me very proud.

However, there is a bit of sadness, because the people who have been encouraging me all this time, are not here, witnessing the results of the struggle that we have been doing.

Aisya went up on stage to receive the trophy and medal. However, he won't accept it, he wants me to accept all the gifts.

I was asked to go on stage to receive a trophy and a medal. Really proud of Aisya's low attitude. I am not thankful for the blessings God has given me. These tears keep flowing down the cheeks behind the niqob.

****

After the show was over, we went home. Because it's so late.

When we got home, we headed to our rooms to rest.

As I headed to the room, I was surprised that the door of the room was slightly open. Slowly bend the door knob and open it.

My blood rippled, my whole body trembled, my legs suddenly suffocated helplessly. Tears fell without me asking, my mouth shut without a sound.

I never thought, with my own eyes, that I would see the person I love so much mixing love in a place where it should be just me and him.

Wais has been in a relationship in bed where we often mix love, with other women.

Vais, over and over again has shattered my hopes, wreaking havoc on my life, sending my heart to pieces.

Right, good luck never sided with me. I've always been betrayed, I've been hurt.

Oh Allah... Servant is no longer able to stand this test you gave. Take the life of the servant immediately, O Allah.

I also stepped, away from the stained room. An uncertain step in direction. Kuraih locks the car and takes it on her way through a humiliating night.